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Thursday 6/20/02 ~ Lovely Day
Things are looking so bright today. I've noticed that I've been doing a good job of keeping myself relatively busy so I don't have much time to just sit and think. Today was one of the busier days. Anyway, I woke up at 4 when my brother came back from grad nite and couldn't go back to sleep until 5:30 or so cuz it was so hot in my room. I had a very very strange dream which I will write at the end. Please to comment if anyone has any idea what it means. We had our last dance practice today which also went really well. We practiced at the same lady's house as last time so it was really uplifting as usual. I think she has such a clear presence of mind all the time because she does yoga. I mean she seriously does it. I think she won a gold medal in yoga in college back in India. So she's just a very focused person. So that went well. After lunch I took a trip to Ohlone to buy my parking permit since they're closed on Fridays. I came home and had sudden inspiration to wash my car. Tushar wasn't interested at first and I kind of wanted to do it myself at the beginning. But eventually he decided it would be fun and I was glad we did it together cuz it gave us a chance to talk and bond. We also took a trip to Lucky's and picked up some fresh strawberries and raspberries to make smoothies with either today or tomorrow. We washed my car and my dad's car which took up a good two and a half hours and as soon as we were done Vishal and Rad came to visit. So we all chatted for a while. I was quite amused at how comfortable I am in those types of situations now that everything's changed and I don't see certain people the way I used to. It's kind of hilarious actually. And now here I am, very tired but extremely satisfied. I had a very good day today: got things done, bonded with Tushar, and not once did I have a negative thought all day. And what a way to end the day other than watch the best show on earth: CSI! Whoo! Ok I'll conclude with my dream. I don't remember much of it but what I do remember is very very vivid. I know Amit and I were in this small town where everyone knew everyone. And we were working with the police to solve several murder cases. (Yes, there is always a CSI undertone :oP). We found several dead bodies all horribly mutilated and I believe they were all women. We tried for so long and finally caught the guy who was behind it or so we thought. Amit and I were walking back to our house and we saw one of the neighborhood boys (who looked kinda like the guy from Sixth Sense.) He was leaned over a mutilated body on someone's front lawn. And it caught our attention because that's not where the woman was found dead and she had already been moved to the morgue by then. As Amit called the police to inform them the case was still open, I watched as the boy moved his hand over the body - the guts had spilled out and the legs were chopped off and gone - and cried. Ms. Daugherty, the owner of the house walked by. She had a sixth sense and instantly knew what was going on and it was like her thoughts were channelled to me because I suddenly solved the case. None of the murders were real. They were all created by the boy from his imagination and he made them visible to people as if the bodies were holograms. They're there but not. And I understood that through the deaths the boy was trying explain to us his troubles. The fact that this woman was disemboweled symbolized how he felt isolated from everyone because he was so different due to his power to make such illusions and to "see dead people". (I think the logic behind that was that "emboweled" in my dream meant a feeling of belonging and to add a "dis" before it, meant he didn't get that feeling. And he showed that by pulling the organs out of the body. It made sense in my dream.) And the fact that she had no legs symbolized that he was trying to run away from this "gift" that he has but he can't seem to go anywhere and feels like he's stuck. The weird thing was that although it sounds gory, there was no blood at all anywhere and the dead woman actually looked peaceful. The last scene, Ms. Daugherty, Amit and I stood around him as he wailed over the woman's body and it was like the camera zoomed out. And now that you all think I'm a complete psycho, I think I'll get going. :oP 7:48 pm ~tired but very happy
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