| Sunday 6/2/02
~ Standing on Edge It had been a while since we've had a conflict. I'm afraid if things don't get resolved some day the glass is going to break and someone is going to say and do something they'll have to pay for for the rest of their lives. Why is it that in some situations it is so difficult, almost impossible, to see things from the other person's point of view? It's not that you don't want to but you just can't. It's been the same thing for years now and nothing's changed. It's amazing. I'm glad I'm the confidante. And at the same time I hate it. It's not like I'm doing anything to fix it. But it's not like I'm not trying either. Maybe it's just a phase, a very very loooong phase. There are some things I guess that get fixed only if you yourself take the initiative to fix them. Of all things to get from the Deshpande side: stubbornness. Something we could all live without right about now. One solid thing did come about after all this: I have decided there is no way I'm going to ever raise a good child. It's just too hard. And considering the state of the world now, it'll be a miracle if there are any good children later...What a morbid thought to leave this at... :o/ 7:39 pm ~
tired of feeling frustrated
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