Once again, here I am, back down in the basement of 111 Cummington Street, pretending to help my dear customers with UNIX based problems.....hmmm......well.......Nobody's here......It's almost 10:00pm, and no one would dare show up to a lab to use a computer during summer time. You know why? Cuz it's SUMMER! Normal people usually go out and play! Only losers, like myself, work during the summer. *sigh* Oh geeeez, I'm just gonna sit here and start rambling on about nothing. Actually, I received a special request from somebody to update my blah page. Apparently, people seem to enjoy this page...the reason being that I'm totally humiliating myself, or I'm acting totally stupid...who knows. Whatever the reason, WELCOME BACK; I'm glad you people are reading my insane writings. :)

Okay, so.....what to write.... Hmmmm....... Wow, this is harder than I thought. Usually, I sit down, and I just write. But now that I'm asked to write something, it's just hard. Ya know, it's never hard to ramble on in your diary,.....I could go on for pages and pages about just nonsense and complain and moan about anything and everything....but it's sooooo hard (and frustrating at the same time) to even write a one page paper when you're asked to write. Right now, this just seems like an important assignment that I have to finish in an hour....dude, so much pressure! hahaha :)

Anyways, I guess I'll just relax and start "blah-ing." So, what's new in my life? I dunno.....I'm just really busy these days. Busy doing absolutely nothing! Grrrrrr. I have a lot in my mind right now. I'm doing this really cool research at the Biology Department at BU. I'm making up cancer cells. Awwwww yeah! Doesn't that sound really cool? Well, I think it's cool. I just don't know what I'm really doing.....but besides that, I'm getting the hang of things. It's my first time researching ever. It's a great experience. I mean, yeah know, all that cool lab techniques you get to learn??? Wow, just amazing. The first day of my "hands-on" experimental procedure.....I was being helped/watched, cuz obviously I have no clue what I'm doing. I started my experiment with tissue culture (Growing cells on plates). My task was to move cells to new plates, and my first warning by my peer was, "Juhee, stop talking!" -_-;; Ooooopsy~ Apparently, I was asking way too many questions (talk talk talk, yap yap yap), increasing the risk of contaminating my cells with whatever germs and bacteria I have in my saliva. Ewwwww! So, one lesson I learned: "Just shut up whenever you're in the tissue culture room." :)

Yeah, so I said I have a lot in my mind cuz I'm busy and stuff. Besides the lab stuff, I guess my first priority is to study for my MCAT (Medical College Admission Test) that's coming up in August. I'm taking a class for it....Princeton Review course is really helping me out on this. It's forcing me to look at the material....well, whenever I'm in class, at least. But I'm not studying outside of class...which is a problem. The class is surprisingly good. It's the best $1200 I ever paid for a class! Now, wouldn't it be nice if I just STUDIED?!?!?! It's so hard to concentrate during summer though. I have to go to lab, have to work, have to sleep, eat, take breaks, go to the bathroom.... Oooookay, so I'm making up excuses....=P But for one thing (being completely honest here), I have so much junk in my head, I can't really focus on what's important. For example, I absolutely detest Boston for its unbelievably high priced rip-off housing. Boston is the most ridiculous place to get apartments, period. I'm moving out to a studio, cuz I'm sooooo done with dealing with roommates. HA! So, I get to have my own little place just for ME ME ME ME ME. :) I'm quite excited about it, but the problem is the rent, AND the fact that now I have to move AGAIN. I must move about an average of twice a year. Multiply that by my age (20), I must have moved at least 40 times in my lifetime....(I think it's more than that). I HATE IT SOOOO MUCH! Moving is such a pain, literally! I injured my back a while back during my high-school days (at IMSA). I sorta pulled something in my shoulders while moving some boxes, and it never healed. Still bothers me today. But yea....that's why I can't study. Dude, I can't even sleep at night just thinking about it.

Seriously, I'm so done with this place. Boston is a great college town. But I have decided to move out after graduation. I don't think I'm even gonna think about Harvard Medical School. Unless they pay me a million bucks, I don't think I'll consider going there....cuz the housing situation is just ridiculous. My parents moved (again).....for them it was even a bigger move....a grander scale....they packed everything and moved across the sea from Korea to the US. NICE! I'm so happy for them. I'm glad that they're here now. I finally have a place called "home" in the United States! That's just awesome. I can't wait to see them. It may be because I'm having such a hard time here, I just wanna be close to home. But I think, if I get into a good medical school in Chicago, I'll just attend there.....and commute from home. I'll live with my parents. Yeah, you heard me right, I'm gonna live with my parents. I know, I'm a weirdo, I'm actually willing to live with my parents. But under one condition.....I get a brand new car. Hahaha. Yup, that's the deal, I get a new car, I live with my parents. That's a good enough deal....yeah?

Alright...what else. Why am I still in the computer lab rambling nonsense? I could be out with a cute guy enjoying this beautiful night. *sigh* Well, duhhhhhhhhhh, I'm still single? I'm trying not to get too down about this subject. I know there's someone out there for me. I just haven't found him yet, or he just hasn't found me yet. You know what though? If you are desperate to find a significant other, most likely, you won't find one. I figure, if you get too desperate, you're never yourself, and even if you find a person then, you'll never be happy. Am I making sense? (Or am I just trying to make myself feel better again. -_-;;) Anyways, that's just my philosophy.....I'm kinda glad I'm not in a relationship right now. That'll just add to the stress I have right now. I do get jealous of couples who seem so settled and all, but I think I can wait. Waiting is half the battle, eh? Well, we'll see what happens. I'll make sure I post things up about my new bf if I ever get one. Just stay tuned for my new blah: boy episodes.

Alrighty, my co-worker wants to leave...so I guess I'll close up here. I know this was a rather long "blah." But thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it. And remember...."Life never sucks once you realize how precious it is.....How precious? Well,....we all got just ONE life...." So, SMILE :) Chow~

June 2001