Okay,...so here I am...sitting at IT on a Sunday night (again)...working. I spent waaaaaaay too much money this weekend, and to make up for it, I'm back down in the basement of the Office of Information Technology of Boston University (a.k.a. my second home). Okay, so what do I do here? Hmmm...that's a very good question. I was recently promoted as a "Senior Student Consultant" this semester. WOoHOo! And now I get to order people around. hahaha. Not even close. I basically help people having trouble with the trusty UNIX system. Awwwww yeah! Actually, no one's around this time of the day, or should I say night. I plan to stay here until midnight tonight, and I'm hoping I don't have to answer any questions, cuz I don't wanna use my brain. hehehe. Well, before I come here, I usually plan to do some work. Like homework and stuff. But, once I get here, plans change, and I end up doing NOTHING. It's so relaxing down here...and I just don't wanna waste my energy doing homework while I can IM all night long with my 142 buddies I have on my IM list! Alight alright...before you jump to the conclusion of thinking that I'm a loser (of the purest form!) Let me ramble on a little longer. Afterall, this is my page. :)

Okay, so let me tell you what's been on my mind for the past couple of days...past weeks...actually, past months! :) Okay,...so I'm kinda sorta lonely :( My friends' been trying to hook me up with a decent guy,...but so far, no luck. Maybe that's cuz I don't really want a bf at the moment. Or, perhaps, I'm still not ready? Who knows...these things never work out the way you planned. But being single isn't so bad...(I keep telling myself this...). Think of all that freedom! Yes! Uh-huh! Yeah, that's it! (Okay, I don't think this is working...) I must think back to what I did this weekend...

I had a pretty good weekend...Now that it's almost over, I must think of a way to get my sleeping pattern back to normal. My days and nights are switched now. Oh boy... So, Friday night, I went to Bible Studies...which was good. And then I went out clubbing. My first time! It was fun. (I'll skip the details here.) And then a small gathering at my friend's place for a chat. It lasted the whole night. I was up until 6:00AM with a small group of people...having good coversation...and then I came home and crashed at 7:00AM. I know, it sounds like a typical 19 year old college student life...yeah...but believe it or not, I actually learned something from this experience. For example, a cliche, but "What a small world!" I met someone that night. We actually went to high school together. We were both flipping out. Actually I was amazed how he rememebered me. I've changed a lot since I left McLean High. Anyways,...since then, I've been reflecting back to my past...and I've realized how far I've come and how I've changed and grown. It seems as though that I have grown apart from the "academically crazed" and "socially inept" personality to a more likable person. One thing for sure, I think more with my heart than with my head. As a consequence, I get hurt more (emotionally) than before. Okay,...this is getting pretty depressing.

Back when I first started this webpage...back in the good old days, I had my whole life planned out. I figured, by the time I'm 30, I'll be married, settled, and just "Happy Happy Joy Joy!" But since I graduated from high school, my future keeps changing. As a freshman, I kept focusing on getting into a decent medical school 4 years ahead. As a sophomore, I keep focusing on what kinda grades I'll be (or I should be) getting next semester. And now, a junior in college, I don't even know what I'll be doing tomorrow! (Actually, I have 3 midterms this week...I see 3 all-nighters coming up. :p) What a mess. It seems like, as I get older, I get dumber. The more I learn, the more I realize how much I don't know. And the more I think I understand life, there's always a new twist coming up that makes it a whole lot confusing. Life can never be boring.....

October 2000