I'm born and bred in Hong Kong, the Asia's World City. Ridiculous, huh? A World City in Asia. If it is a World City then you don't have to limit the name into "Asia".Hong Kong is ridiculous in many ways, politics, education, people and many more. I love and hate this place at the same time. It sounds contradictory but that's the way Hong Kong people are. And yea, growing up in such a strange place make me a weird person too.
Honestly, I love being a weird person. I guess that's only my struggle to be different from the norms and an act of lacking self confidence. Well, sometimes I'm very proud of myself in a way that I'm almost narcissistic. Sometimes, I hate myself that I wish I was never born.
But generally, I have a positive view towards the Me now. And I'm striving to be a fabulous girl.
I have this strange fetish of adoring weird people, people who can be totally weird, I mean, weird from head to toe, weird from inside out. I guess it needs great courage to be weird and stay that way all the time. And they have a style so extraordinary that it is almost like a kind of performing Art.
Talking about Art. I love Art and I had been an Art student for two years, I didn't continue my Art course at school this year coz my school doesn't offer Art course for my level, and frankly, my talent in Art is very limited (I've got a D in Art in CE....so you see.) But I love looking at, or examining, the Art works of the others, and the Art of nature of course, nothing is more beautiful than the marshmallow-looking clouds in the pink sky in the summer evenings. And I believe everything and everyone is a form of Art in some way.
And I have a obsession of movies. I can't remember when I've developed this interest in movies. But sitting in the dark theatre waiting for the showtime just makes me all thrilled and excited. I feel like being one of the characters in the movie whenever wherever I watch a movie. And movie is a way of communication between the director and the audiences, even in the crappiest movie, whether you like it or not, you get something from it. This is the way movies make me feel.
I hate going to school (thank the spoon-feeding education system in Hong Kong, huh.) and sometimes I feel like shooting everyone in the school dead. But frankly, academically I'm doing quite okay. And I'm sure I'll miss school when it's time for me to grow up and work. But that's the way I am, hating things, taking things for granted, but when things are being taken away from me, I start to miss them. I'm trying to put myself together to cherish everything I've got and I know that I'm so lucky. So lucky to have a nice and completed family, so lucky to receive education, so lucky to have friends, so lucky to have people caring about me. I'm trying hard to cherish them and thank whoever has given all these to me.
I don't believe in a specific religion although I'm studying in a Catholic school. But I believe that there's a God who had created the world and governs the world. It may not be the God as in the Bible or the Buddha or whatever. But someone or some kind of force that has created us. And I believe that all the religions are actually talking about one God, the same God, only that the founders of the religion or the writers of the religious readings had experienced different sides of that God and they have different judgment and perception.
I always believe that I'll be insane one day. I dunno why but I have this feeling. And it's a bit strange that I actually wanna try living in a Psychiatric Hospital, like Winona Ryder in "Girl,Interrupted". It's kind of a cold place with a strange warmth between the people in there. It's like they have no difference and no hatred, they physically live together, but mentally in their own little worlds. And I love what Angelina Jolie wears in the movie, that kind of white long patients' gown.
It's getting a bit too freaky...so I'd keep the rest of my weird fantasy to myself.
So I guess that's all about me. By the way, nice to meet you :)
January 2004