John
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05/24/01 03:21 PM
Re: Religion and empowerment [re: Leah]
Em Hotep Wekhi <henu>
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Being a Child of Sekhmet, from what I understand both from my learning and from My Mother, it is MY JOB TO EMPOWER MYSELF. No one is going to sit around and improve my life for me: that is MY job. It is my duty to build my relationship with Netjer.
Does it empower me? IN WAYS THAT I NEVER IMAGINED. Before becoming attached to my Mother I was a convicted felon who cared nothing about what he did. I could simply gain access to telephone switching systems, overseas financial institutions, and wreak havoc and destruction and spread Isfet wherever I went. (1) I cared not for the feelings of others and did as I please.
I was also living a life in which I was running from federal agents, constantly watching my back, and being basically a no-account scrap of dung.
Eventually, However, that little Khepera part of me rolled my big ball of dung up the hill into the sunshine and I found Sekhmet and, through Her Loving Grace, I found empowerment to ENJOY the struggle of living on my EARNED INCOME. I found empowerment to have faith, will, and determination NOT to be a criminal but to EXCEL at what I do and PERSEVERE. I was a criminal because I did not want the responsibility of making my own money (although I am trained in the Information Technology field). I was a lazy, greedy, and spiteful young man. Now, as I watch myself grow and I hear (2) the voice of my Mother (even when I continue to make mistakes), I know that through the Guiding Light of Netjer I have improved my life tenfold. And this isn't because someone said "oh yeah, come the the House of Netjer and be saved"...I did it by MY SELF, by asking SEKHMET to help me and making ACTUAL attempts to help myself. (3)
As the Nisut-bityt Hekatawy I (ankh udja seneb) is fond of saying "Netjer don't make no junk"...I see myself everyday being enriched and fulfilled with peace because of my relationship with Netjer. (4)
I don't know what I'd do without it.
Of course, that is not to take anything away from my wonderful family here. I have had many conversations with Her Holiness via snail mail and email, as well as the Kai Imakhu and Imakhu, and also many of the other Shemsu. This also is an added blessing.
May the Light of Netjer Shine within the Darkest Heart so that It may Come to Pass that Light Shall Enter Therein
- John
Ankh Udja Seneb!
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(1) In a little bit, John will add that he was a "lazy, greedy and spiteful young man". As you will see in a page about him that will be coming up, shortly, posturing on his part to the contrary notwithstanding, very little of that would ever actually change.
(2) In later pages, we will find out that just how literally he means that. John was a paranoid schizophrenic whose delusions and moral failings will both be validated by the House.
(3) A short while later, this will prove to be a source of friction with the House, which insists on choosing 'parents' for its applicants through the divination process.
(4) So peaceful that he will resort to the sending of threats in response to arguments which he disagrees with.