Wow! This is something I love talking about but never had anyone wanting to listen to me.
~~~~~ My First BF ~~~~~ I had my first boyfriend when I was in high school. Honestly, I can’t remember him, everything about him but his name. His name is Jun. No one knows about me having him as my boyfriend but me. He goes to a rival high school and he’s not supposed to set foot in our school unless he wants to get beaten. We meet in a “Division Meet” where different high schools compete in all sorts of sports. We talked, he said he likes me and I said I do, too. So we became officially on. After that day, it’s over for me, too. But not for him though. He went to visit me in our school twice. But the last time he went to our school, I told my male friend that he comes from the rival school and that I don’t want to talk to him. Oh, that was cruel of me. I didn’t care to know what happened to him. There was no news of a boy who got beaten up so I hope he didn’t. That’s about my first boyfriend. Love? No, I don’t think so. Just curious.~~~~~ High School Crush ~~~~~ Also in high school, there was a popular boy. His name is Dennis. He used to be my crush when we were in our 2nd year but we’re not classmates, just batch mates. Then we because classmates in 3rd year so we had the opportunity to interact with each other. He was nice to me and he seemed to like me. I have 2 most memorable moment with him. The first was in December 1985. It was after school, night-time. We, my classmates and me, and him, decided to walk from our school to the downtown area. That was around 2-kilometer walk. When we reached the downtown, we went inside the Cathedral. There was no mass; we just wanted to visit the church. I kneeled on the last row to pray while our classmates took the rows in front. He kneeled beside me and we were side be side, just the two of us. For others, there’s nothing exciting about that but he’s my crush, remember. And I believe he wanted to kneel beside me. The next school day, our classmates were teasing us. They say the scene that night was almost perfect if only the priest was not missing. My second moment with him was during our Juniors-Seniors Promenade. We were juniors. He wanted to dance with me but he can’t find the guts to ask me. He tried so many gimmicks. He asked a classmate to ask for him. He stood beside where I was sitting but he just kept his hands inside his pockets. He can’t say it. He asked our classmate teased and say out loud that he wants to dance with me. I danced that night, several times, but never with him. And so the night ended and he never had the chance to dance, not once. I guess he wanted me to be his first dance but he just can’t tell me. Oh, actually he did tell me he wanted to dance with me. Yes, he asked me to dance with him but I was on my way to the refreshment station to get the allocation for our class. I said yes but after I get back, he never asked again.
Then he just dropped out of school. I heard he fall in-love with some girl and all he wanted to do was to be with her. That’s just rumors though. Anyways, I graduated from high school and he did not. I went to the Manila to study college. On Christmas break, I went back home to be with my family and then we met again. He was more vocal now and he still likes me. I gave him my address in Manila before I headed back to the big city. He wrote to me and courted me. I can’t really remember this part because when I’m studying, I don’t entertain anything that might take my focus away from studies. I guess we exchanged letters for 3 months because after that I went home again for summer break. We met again during my vacation. I guess my excitement died down a bit because I can’t remember my summer with him. I just remember I asked him to stop smoking and to go back to school. The last time we saw each was when I was on my way back to Manila again for another school year. He sent me off to the pier.
~~~~~ My First Love ~~~~~ My second boyfriend is Benedict. This one is a really loooooooong story. We were schoolmates in high school, in the province, but we didn’t know each other then. He’s my younger sister’s classmate. Yes, he’s younger than me. We also happen to be schoolmates in college, in Manila. He first notice “I existed” when he, together with his friends went to our house to see my sister. As always, I’m snobbish and didn’t even look towards them so I still didn’t know “he existed”. I was a working student, working at a fast food chain just outside the university. One day he dropped by the shop and introduced himself. I was nice to him because only few students from our school in the province goes to Manila for college. Normally, I would push admirers away because I don’t want distractions. But I never suspected he was up to something. So we became friends. He visits me every single night and slowly I fell for him. Then one day he told me his birthday was coming. I teased him and asked for a treat and so we agreed to go out on his birthday. My sister learned about his treat and wanted to go with us but he refused and I was surprised. We watched the premier showing of Indiana Jones 3, The Last Crusade at the PICC (Philippine International Convention Center). What a venue! Then we went to eat at McDonald’s. That’s when he told me he likes me. Then suddenly I thought of our nightly talk and realized he was courting me and I didn’t noticed. This is the difficult part. I became conscious and so guarded and started to put limits on our friendship. It’s hard for me because I’m really happy whenever we’re together but my brain is saying I’m not ready to have a boyfriend yet. I asked for space from him and we agreed that for 2 weeks, he will not see or talk to me. He made me a poem during this break. After 2 weeks, he visited me again and this time, he wants me to give my answer. I got mad at him for pressuring me but I said yes because I can’t lie. But I also told him, “Tomorrow, we’re over”. Well, to cut my long story short, our friendship ended that night because officially we became lovers. But after that night, we never got back together and we never had any formal break up. So many “unbelievably” exciting and painful things happened to me after that night. The last time we saw each other was 2 years after that faithful night. We dated one last time and for the first time, we kissed. After that date, we never saw each other again. He went to US and I went to Cebu. I stayed in love with him for 10 more years until finally, I had a closure when I learned he got married. We exchanged email for 1 week then it’s finally over.
~~~~~ Just Another BF ~~~~~ My next boyfriend is Dennis. Not the Dennis from high school, another guy named Dennis. He’s handsome alright. Someone you won’t be ashamed to display walking with you. We met in Cebu 1 year after I last saw Benedict. He’s younger brother was my classmate in Tae Kwon Do class. I don’t love him and never loved him. Why get into a relationship with someone I don’t love? I missed Benedict a lot so my friends suggested I need a new boyfriend to get my mind off him. Dennis was the guy, that’s why. His family seemed to like me. I went to their house and stayed overnight for a party. But of course, the relationship didn’t last. It’s a blessing that I don’t love him, though. After a few months, I learned he’s married and with kids. They’re just not living together but they’re still married. As soon as I learned about it, we’re over. I refused to talk to him and ignored him whenever we see each other.
~~~~~ Just Another BF ~~~~~ I decided to remove this portion. Maybe I'll put it back again in the future.