Christmas 2001- Your mom and I argued over what to do on Christmas. She wanted to go and stay with Tricia in Houston, in their apartment. I didn't want to spend Christmas in a apartment, and we argued over that. Your mom got mad and took you with her to Houston. I thought you would be gone maybe 1or 2 days. I didn't hear a word for 3 days!! I called everyone's number but no one returned my call. I thought something bad had happened to you and your mom. Finally Giovanni in L.A. got a hold of someone and your mom called after 3 days. I spent Christmas and Christmas Eve alone. She acted shocked and said to me that she thought I wanted to be alone on Christmas. What person with a family would want to be alone on Christmas? When you guys got back, I called her dumb, because I was mad. This hurts her feelings a lot. I also was mad at her family, most of all your Grandpa for not taking charge. I was mad because no one even called me on Christmas to see how I was doing. I have always kept this in the back of my mind, because it hurt me so much. Even years later, when her family would call or come in, I would not talk to them because of this. This was one of the meanest things I've ever had done to me.

Verbal Abuse - This means that I said mean words to yyour mom. This was her excuse for filing for divorce. If I brought up problems we were having, she called these mean words or verbal abuse. I would ask her about the naked pictures I found and she called this mean words or verbal abuse. I asked her about the taxes she did not pay and she called these mean words or verbal abuse. On got mad when you got home after Christmas 2001 and she called these mean words or verbal abuse. Every time I wanted to talk about our problems, she called these mean words or verbal abuse. I also want you to know that I never hit your mom. I would never hit a woman. The only abuse she says happened is these bad words about our problems with money, or her taking you away and not telling me. As you know I never drank and all these arguments, or bad words as your mom calls them, were while I was calm and normal. You know how much your mom has yelled at you. This is what is known as verbal abuse and your mom does not know she is doing it.

My Medicines - I've been sick most of my life as you know. When I get real sick I have to take medicines that make you real sad and real mad at the same time. I wished I didn't take them but they were the only things that helped. I told your mom how I got when I took these. We would still argue sometimes and I would say lot's of mean things like call your mom lazy, fat and one time I said she had a fat butt that she never forgave me for. I tried to apologize many times but I think this is what led up to the divorce. I promised to her and myself that I would never take these pills again, but she wouldn't listen to me.

The Photos - In 2001 I started cleaning the house rreal good. Going through stuff and throwing things away. While cleaning I found a small envelope hidden in your Mom's dresser. The pictures inside were of your mom not wearing any clothes. She would never explain to me where they were from or who took them. A lot of these pictures made me sick, thinking about what she may have done in the past. Some of these photos are kind of graphic in nature. I'll post them on the internet someday. Then the world can see her like she really is..

The Paternity Suit - When I was 23 I met a girl whom I dateed twice and things didn't work out and we didn't go out any more. I found out she was into drugs and decided not to see her anymore. I also found out that I was about the fifth guy she had dated that year. Six months later, she gave birth to a boy, whose father was a white guy with blonde hair. The boy looked and still looks just like his father. This is about the time I moved to Reno, Nevada. About four years later I started getting court papers saying I was the father. Everyone knew who the father was, but the mother wanted money and decided to say I was the dad since I was more financially stable than the real dad. It took me about 5 years of traveling back and forth to get my name cleared of this. Later, after I married your mom, she filed papers again saying I was the dad and she wanted money. Your mom started reading the court papers I was sent without telling me. She called my sister and asked her about it. My sister told her to ask me about it, but your mom would never ask. I knew what was going on and waited until your mom asked me herself, than I would tell her what happened. She never asked like a married person should. Before I ever had a chance to tell her, she used this against me in the divorce papers. It took me about two months this time to clear my name, but this lady is crazy and will probably file again. 

Counseling - Usually when married people have differences, they go to counseling. I was never asked about counseling. If I knew things would get this bad, I would have gone to counseling with you and your mom every day if we needed.

Hiding You - I think your mom thought that I would try to steal you and take you to California. I would never have done that because you had all your friends in Austin, and you were in a great school. Your mom may have not realized it at the time, but she did that to me. I was your dad for 9 years and then they decided they knew what was best and took you away and didn't let you see me.

The Silent Treatment - Your mom and your family would not commmunicate with me and still don't. I was part of their family for 10 years and then they decided I wasn't good enough for them. Their lawyer may have told them to do this but nothing would have happened from a simple we're O.K. Nothing I did deserved this treatment. Even when I was sleeping in rest areas, after being thrown out of the house like a dog, they wouldn't help me. They call themselves good Christian people, but would Jesus have treated someone like this?

Money - Your mom got herself into a lot of debbt. She may have blamed me for this, but I didn't shop at places like fingerhut and Dillards. She owed back in 2003 about $30,000. She thought by filing for divorce that it would force me to give her money and pay her bills. She was wrong. Again, her lawyer told her great stories of what would happen and they never came true. I offered help with a credit counselor, but got no response. She also disconnected all the phones when your Grandma came to stay, not to keep me from calling like she told everyone, but to keep your Grandma and other people from hearing all the bill collectors calls. I don't think she ever told your Grandparents the truth. Again if you look at the divorce papers, it's all about money. The one thing your mom worships more than God.