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From: Chris [email protected]
Date: 20 Apr 2001
Time: 18:25:41
Remote Name: 216.168.100.8
God with us... I think back to before Christmas we were thinking of leading a course for Alpha (a basic introduction to Christianity) in our community...our third course in as many years...I think the main thing I felt was fear ...fear that we would not get many people attending the course and that our support would not be there in our three churches running the course....I felt that I was not good enough to do the course again...self doubt was running rampant in my mind...and of course I did not take all this to God in prayer.....as I should have....I was all talk and no prayer as it was.....until I saw just that.....I needed to connect to God and let Him know my fears (as if He didn't already know.....) but that I had left him out of the solution to my problems.....and I suppose there was a little bit of self-importance there as well....I would be wrong if saying I don't feel good up in front of a crowd.....but I feel great talking about our God and how amazing He is so......I feel that it comes down to the fact that I get a great feeling doing that and knowing that God is leading me to do it that way.....I do know that this may be that deeper personnel satisfaction in helping others.....opportunities are set in front of us by God and its up to us to open each door and see what is behind them...Compassion didn't seem to be in my feelings.....but that might have been there knowing God has compassion for me when I am down and need help.....all in all I believe that it was all from the love I feel from God....that He motivates me by that love....I am powered by a wonderful loving God....I feel His presence in my life now .....filling me with His Holy Spirit....I am me because He makes me that way.....I love you Lord Jesus.....in my life,,,, filling me with your love.....making me a better Christian.....making me a better witness....giving me opportunities to witness for you....helping tell the wonderful love you have for us as a human race........Praise you God....Thank you for making me me....changing me....giving me new life...giving me another chance and another no matter what......you are always there for me.......listening to me...waiting for me to connect.....I love that connection...........I love you God.....