(Beck/Troutman)
Performed By: Kelly Price
Whoa, whoa, whoa. . .
It�s morning
And we slept the night away
It happened
Now we can�t turn back the hands of time, no, no
It was an early Saturday morning, the sun was blazing richly through my windows and I lay abed staring at the beautiful man I shared it with. He looked so peacful in sleep. His face lost all it's seriousness causing him to look relaxed and almost younger. I moved an errant strand of hair out of his face, careful not to wake him. I loved him most when he was like this. This was one of those rare moments I got to actually feel as if he were mine and mine alone. Although, some would think I should be somewhere in the depths of despair, at this moment I couldn't be happier. Don't look back, no regrets, I thought.
Yes we�ve stolen this moment
We forget to face one simple fact
We both belong to someone else
As we slept the night away
This time belonged to him and I. In this lingering time he did belong to me and me alone and I belonged to him. No one mattered. No one intruded. It was like time had stood still around us. We were both able to forget about the pressures of our outside worlds. As the sun moved slowly across the sky, he still did not stir. The world began to intrude as the alarm clock rang disorderly.
It�s morning
Sunlight shines across your sleeping face, oh
A new day
Brings reality and we must go our separate ways
I hit the buzzer hoping it hadn't disturbed him. I watched him stir but remain blissfully asleep. I bet he could sleep through an earthquake, I thought. The sun had inched closer up the bed hoovering just below his chin and still I sat watching him. The sun was the only intruder. It was like reality in the form of a burning beacon. A new day can change a person's perception on certain situations. I knew he would have to leave soon. He would return to his life and I would go back to mine. Why couldn't this time be different so he could stay?
What a lovely night we had yeah, yeah
As we shared each other�s love
We forgot about all the pain we caused
As we slept the night away
The night before kept replaying in my mind in minute detail. I was supposed to say 'goodbye'. He didn't want to end it with me. Neither did I but it was the right thing to do. When he pulled me into his arms all thoughts of 'goodbye' were gone from my mind or that's the way it seemed. He's a married man, I heard my brain screaming at me as he kissed me passionately. You're engaged! Your fiancee, remember him?? it went on as he began to undress me. This is wrong. . . you need to stop him, my brain yelled as he carried me to my room. How could I as he made love to me not only with his body but with his heart, soul and spirit. Maybe we were saying 'goodbye'. . . in our own way, another part of me said.
As we lay
We forgot about tomorrow
As we lay
Ooh hey, hey
Nothing matters but right here and now. Tomorrow can wait, I thought as he laid me across my bed. In the crude light of day everything was distorted. Last night I knew for a fact that if my fiancee found out it would be over but, some part of me didn't care. Sometimes I think I would give up everything for moments like this. He would be leaving soon but I still watched as the sun itched ever so closer to his beloved face.
As we lay
Didn�t think about
The price we�d have to pay
No, no, no
We're soulmates but someone once told me that you're not always meant to be with your soulmate. Thus here we are. Only together in the night. Only loving each other till dawn. I had to remember this moment. I wanted to commit every detail to memory. He cracked open an eye as the sunlight fell across his face and smiled up at me.
It�s morning
And now it�s time for us to say goodbye
Goodbye baby
You�re leaving me
I know you�ve got to hurry home to face your wife, wife
"Good mornin'," he drawled his accent thicker than usual. "Goodmorning to you too," I replied climbing from the bed. I walked naked across the room to retrieve my robe knowing he watched me the whole time. It's time to end it. You said your 'goodbyes' now say it for real, I thought as I turned to face him.
"You know I love you, right?" �Yeah I know that,� he said rubbing his eyes. So I dove right in and told him how I felt. . .. from the heart.
I would never want to hurt her, no, no, no
She would never understand
You belong to me for just one night
As we slept the night away
I told him that it wouldn�t work. I thought he�d understand. He jumped from the bed and stood before me. �You can�t,� he said grabbing me by my shoulders. �I can. . . . I have to,� I replied. "NO!" he almost yelled. "I love you!!" "I know. . . I love you too. I also love myself and I'm not loving myself if I keep doing this," I told him as tears broke free. I wasn't going to stop them. . . I couldn't even if I tried. "Go home. . . go home to your wife!"
Ooh oh, whoa
The look that crossed his face when I said that will forever be in my memory. He looked stricken. . . almost pained.
I would never, never want to hurt her, no, no, no
She would never understand
You belong to me for just one night
As we slept the night away
It was never about her. I didn't set out to get him away from her. That would be completely wrong of me. The same way he never set out to get me away from my fiancee. We were just two people who happened to find love somewhere else. . . that's the only way I can explain it. I never wanted to hurt anyone least of all some other woman.
As we lay
We forgot about tomorrow
As we lay
Ooh hey, hey
He wasn't going to take no for an answer. He still had me by my shoulders and was shaking me to listen to him. "NO! You can't do this. If you love me why are you trying to hurt me?" he yelled at me. Why couldn't he understand that I wasn't doing this to hurt him. I was doing this to preserve myself. When this whole thing started I didn't even think about where it would end. I didn't think about tomorrow, or next week, or even next month.
As we lay
We didn�t think about
The price we�d have to pay
No, no, no
I didn't think about the feelings that might have been hurt once it ended. I knew someone would have to pay dearly for this indiscretion but the price never occured to me. . . .
We should have counted up the cost
But instead we got lost
In the seconds, in the minutes
In hour, hey, hey, hey
As we lay
I pulled myself from his grasp and ran into the bathroom closing and locking the door behind me. I slid to the floor and wept as he banged on the door begging, pleading, threatening me to come out. I heard him throw something and it shattered against the wall. I think he threw a few other things too. I could almost feel the moment he started to cry with me. His tears were an echo of my own. I could tell from the skylight in my bathroom that the sun hid behind a cloud like it was mimicking us. I wanted to remember the night before. His hands on me, his lips on me, his love on me. Right then. . . . all I could see was the pain.
We forgot about tomorrow
As we lay
Oh no, oh no, no
My love why can�t you see
How loving you is killing me
I can�t think of no one else
Baby, baby I can�t take it no more
I was agonized. I could still clearly see the hurt in his eyes but it was tearing me apart too. I could hear his ragged sobs through the door. He probably leaned against it or sitting against it as I was. He must have been tired from the exertion of letting his anger get the better of him. Why can't he understand that this is ripping me to pieces too, I thought. Why does this have to hurt so bad? "Please come out." I heard him say. "I love you. I need you. I can't. . . .," he trailed off. "I know," I said. "I love you too. Please go. . . please. . . go," I begged putting my hand against the door. Suddenly everything got quiet in my room. Then I heard him say, "I love you."
You see I can�t be in your life
You gotta go home to your wife
A part of me was relieved another part wanted to tear the door open and throw myself into his arms and beg him to stay. "Please go home," was all I could get out. "Goodbye," he said. I heard him get up and get dressed. I heard him leave my room and go downstairs then I heard him open and close my front door and walk out of my life forever.
Oh it�s morning
"Goodbye. . . . Kevin," I said from my spot on the floor of the bathroom.
