September 2002

Okay, just the facts. If I was a hippo in the new exibit at the zoo and Eric's ex-girlfriend was looking at me and all my hippo friends, I'd probably ram through the glass and sit on her, and then probably have a good shit (while still at my present location of sitting), and then go back to swimming in my moderately accomodating greenish water that the zoo had given me and my hippo friends. Ah, but I am 'no' a hippo at the new exibit at the zoo, so thusly these events will never occur. Plus they were purely hypothetical anyway. Now you could be thinking, "Ooo, Chris is really wrong and mean about this whole situation." You know what I'd say right back to you, if I had telepathy and therefore knew what you were thinking? You haven't SEEN wrong and mean yet!! Yeah, whatever. So yeah, Eric has no hard feelings about this whole break up thing. You know why? Because he's a good guy and completely deserves better than that HHHHhhhhhoe Catherine. I swear, just WEEKS before they were completely happy and lovey-dovey and all was right with the world. Keep in mind that I've only seen and met this Catherine girl once, and probably exchanged as much as a sentence between us. So anyway, happy happy blah blah. Then what happens? Catherine goes completely bi-polar and is just unhappy and doesn't know why. Now lets be really honest. Lots of people 'say' they don't know why they feel certain ways, but really they 95% do know why. They either just don't want to look those feelings in the face, or admit them, what have you. So, the story goes, that Eric sensed these feelings in Catherine and like the good person he is asks if there's anything he can do to help. Is there, you ask? NO! Because Catherine evidently decides to have a press conference of one and only offer up suggestions to nobody to help sort through all she's got going on in her head, whatever that may be. So in a maniacle-like representation of that part in The Sound of Music where they have those creepy doll goats and toys and stuff, Catherine-Geppetto strings Eric along and continues to offer him no clues as to what is ailing her or why and thus he is left in the dark. Eric is the Energizer bunny, persay, and he's just beating that drum of love only to try and find out what has happened to (what he thought) was a good relationship and Catherine is slowly ripping the battery from his back because she's sick of the noise. A normal person would just outright get it over with, but I guess Catherine is prevy to tortured little souls. So Eric is in complete anguish because a person he cares about is being utterly cruel and heartless to him, but does that extinguish his hopes?! NO!! Eric cares sooo much, he decides that there obviously is something the matter and either he was the cause of it somehow and wants to appologize (if only she would tell him what was wrong), or if it wasn't something he did, then he could try and help her out and fix everything so that they could go back to being lovey-dovey and happy. Eric even sends sixty bucks worth of flowers! Does she call and say thank you? NO! Eric ends up calling her and she decides to be a bitch to him on the phone. She even accused him of being mean to her kid! (Which was a complete and horrible lie) This does not cause Eric to lose heart. He hopes that Catherine will come to her senses and try and look past whatever is causing her to feel this way and come back to the love that she once knew. Does she make any effort or attempt to contact Eric at all? NO! Now this is where Eric's persistence gets him his end result of knowledge. Since Catherine uttely refused to communicate with Eric in any way shape or form, he was forced to be in a fog of little information. All he wanted was to know whether or not there was any way they would ever get back together. Catherine stood rock still in her resolve and continued the silent treatment, and when she wasn't silent, she was mean and hateful. She even said the words "You make me feel bad for being mean to you." to Eric! She 'should' feel bad! She was a total bitch to Eric when all he ever did was be nice, caring, and compassionate. Finally after one last conversation of being a bitch to Eric did he give up any hope of getting back together with her. There were a lot of other things that happened, but you get the jist of it. I did really want to say a lot more mean things, but Eric didn't really want me to. Why?? Because Eric is still a cooler person!! - chris
"Thank God for Adult Swim and anime."
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September 18th 2002 - *Later that day, after spending 9 hours on homework* - No, this isn't my super-anger-filled rant. I'll have to be in a special mood to write that one. I just felt like clarifying instead of changing Eric's rant without his knowledge. ;] Opposite to what Eric stated, I don't hate gay people. A good reason for that is because I don't 'know' a lot of gay people. What I do hate, however, is the seemingly-shallow and over-sexed image that some gay people tend to radiate from every pore in their bodies. That's also not to say I'm discriminating against everyone else, because I basically just hate those things in general. I guess the real issue is that I feel as if I don't fit into the "gay culture," if you can lump them into one grandiose category or what have you. You know, the gay culture that is out and proud and has no fear in their lives and happens to enjoy clubbing entirely too much while gossiping at local coffee dens. I'm not saying I wish I was like that, HA! No. Geez, I think my body would rush itself out infront of a moving bi-state bus if it could. I do however agree with Rachel that it seems that the majority of gay people are really nice and good natured people. It's just annoying to be gay, but to also not be a part of the accepted notion of the gay projected stereotype. Wow that sentence didn't make the sense that I wanted it to make. Okay, how about this? Here's a small snippet from something I found at school. I was looking through the school organizations because I was bored and happened upon a gay/lesbian organization called Out! or something like that. They had a small blurb about what the club was about and some of the things they tried to work at such as fighting hostility, gaining tolerance, etc. Well they also listed three ways in which they were going to accomplish these goals and the last one was "group hugs." Immediately I was dumbfounded at how utterly stupid that was. Moreover, if that was what being gay entailed then I 'really' didn't belong to the group. Yeah, that sums it up better. It's like seeing the gay population as one big club that requires group hugs and then thinking to myself, "maybe in my next reincarnation I'll be a platypus. I certainly won't feel out of place 'there'." - chris
"The only redeeming thing in Blade II is that Cat from Red Dwarf is in it."
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September 18th 2002- Eric here, and i think Chris might be Eminem!! Since that new Eminimenim song starts off with "guess who's back", and Chris' rant (below) does the same! So Chris and he might be the same! But we ALL know that Chris is really Blade, because Chris hates alot of gay people, and Blade hates alot of vampires, and Chris is gay and Blade is a vampire!! Wait...maybe its the other way around..but either way, it looks as if Chris might be channeling Emineminim's penchant for angry cuss filled rants, but what will it be about? I think we all know..(even though none of us really know what he's going to say) so tune in next time, same gay vampire time, same gay vampire channel!!
Chris: "did you just call me a gay vampire? AND Eminem?!!"
Eric: "umm...don't make me get Pat Robertson on you! He hates gays AND vampires, AND everybody who isnt white and exactly like he is! And peanut m&m's too! Because they're gay. Because they have a purple m&m now. Like Tinky Winky from the Teletubbies. Because he's gay."
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September 18th 2002 - Guess who's back? WRONG! .. Okay, you might be right, but I couldn't hear what your reply was to my question so let's just let it drop. It's so odd not having a working computer and/or internet access for three whole weeks. The odd thing being that now that I have it back, I don't know what to do with it! It's like I've now found all these 'other' methods to occupy my time with that I can't even remember what I ever used the computer for in the first place. Sure I used it for email and such, but when you tell everyone you email that you don't have access to a computer, they tend to stop that line of communication. Sure I could write a big ol' rant, (WHICH I WILL!!), but I have soo much f-ing homework that's piled up on me it's not even funny. I just got back my first Calc test and I got a low B. I guess that's better thank flunking it, but I thought I did a lot better so I'm slightly disappointed. So to end this particular rant, I'm just going to casually say about any non-specific ex-girlfriend(s) of any non-specific friend I might have that I have a lot of anger and frustration just WAITING to take the form of a rant, and the pure prospect of these words flowing from my brain onto the internet is filling me with a euphoric sense of purpose and rightness. My momma didn't teach me better than that. She said, when someone cuts you off, you give them the finger. Well, she might not have said those exact words, but in a parallel universe I'd like to think my 'real' mother would have said that. - chris
"I have consulted with the runes, and the future does not bode well for you."
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September 9th 2002 - Eric here yet again, and possibly, the only person that you will hear from for quite awhile, because Chris' computer has shot craps, as the old folks like to say. Thats right, it took off to vegas! Got lucky, made tons of money, blew it all on nose candy and women, got married, divorced, and ended up completely toasted on the side of the Nevada interstate. Not bad for a weekend, but very bad for Chris' computer. So he might not be adding anything for awhile. Which gives me free rein to do as i will! And i will! I would like to let out a great big shout for my new found ability to be really good at math, WHOO!! NO! That wasn't Ric Flair, the Nature Boy, it was me! Eric, the Natural Man! I'm all man baby. But lately i had been busy (procrastinating) and not able to work on my math home work (putting it off) until i figured I needed to work on it (got bored). So i did it and you know what, its actually not that bad! And when you know what your doing, its actually kind of fun! You feel a great sense of accomplishment, like discovering pennicillen or a new planet or a government conspiracy. I never thought i could have a slight liking of math. But we will still see. Who knows what lurks in the hearts of men when they teach math. My teacher is pretty good though, so i like him and hence, somewhat like math. Nothing is worse than a bad math teacher. Okay, perhaps the west nile virus. But bad math teachers are pullin in close for a tie. What to talk about...hmm, I COULD rant about what's on my mind but i dont know if i will. Or i might, who truly knows. I have time before my math class, and while i have other home work to do, i might reward myself with a little break for ranting. I'm sure all of the adoring fans of the website have read the previous addition, on september 7th. So yes, i do miss Catherine, but I'm not really letting it get to me. So many great quotes on the subject of missing someone, or moving on, or just about anything regarding relationships in general, but i really like the quote from the lord of the rings, the greatest movie of all time, in its genre of course, and up there with the greats of any genre, and it might make it out that i am sadder than i really am, but im not, its just a good quote and i like it. So here it goes, as best as i can remember it,( and a small clarification, no, it doesnt mean that i wish that the relationship had never happened, just the way it ended) to round out this, the september 9th edition of preposterous pontifications.
"I wish none of this had happened."

"So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide....All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.."
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September 7th 2002- Eric here! and apparently this is the first addition to the september page, and the first addition to any page on this web site in quite a long time. But ive been busy, as has Chris. What have i been busy with? Well, all my friends know the story far too well by now, and since they are probably the only one's who check this, i wont bore them again with all the details. But if you checked my last entry, i do believe i told you that Catherine and I had broken up. Granted we had only gone out for about 5 months, close to 6, but i liked her and cared about her. Things just didnt work out, I wish they could have, but they didnt. And things didnt end on the best note either, somewhat partly through my determination and the optimism that sometimes can become stubborness. I wanted to try and work things out, she didnt, I kept trying, and there was no way to work things out. If Chris wants to rant about his thoughts on it, go right ahead Chris! But I'm not going to diss her on the internet, because my momma taught me better than that, and because there arent really any hard feelings. Not many at least. So que sera sera, whatever will be, will be. And as tom petty said, "its time to move on, time to get goin, what lies ahead i have no way of knowin, cause under our feet babe, the grass is growing, time to move on, time to get goin." And at least now i dont have to wonder and worry if there would be any way of working things out with her, because now i know, and as GI Joe says "knowing is half the battle." And im a strong person, i'm a good person, and as He-Man says: "by the power of grayskull, i have the power" and as Stuart Smalley says: "im good enough, im smart enough, and dog gonnit, people like me. Except for those damn muslims!" So lets move on to other pressing matters. Such as how i havnt added a single thing to the FAQ or Art page or reviews page in FOREVER! You people must have thought that i havnt done any art or reviewing in so long! Maybe your right. I am in a really cool photography class this semester, its called non silver photography. don't ask me what is different about it because im not quite sure, but its really very intresting and neat. Im gonna be making some awesome stuff, just you wait and see. And if you dont believe me, then i'll make you believe me by wowing you with all that i create. Like a mad scientist i shall work long hours in the dark room, creating works of masterment and beauty, making grown men cry and making little men wish they were grown men so they can cry about stepping on the little guys on their way up. Tis so, tis true! Hey and im single again!!!....okay i dont know what that really means. Ah well. So i guess ill end this rant will a little toast to a little relationship that I really liked and was alot of fun, until it's flaming descent like a hydrogen filled derigible. It really wasnt that bad of a break up, i just got her mad at me. Really mad. She's not a bad person, i would like to state that for the record and all readers of this website. She's a great person, with ALOT of great qualities, and perhaps she thinks the same of me, or thinks the complete opposite, who knows. Things were great for awhile, but in the end, I guess they just couldnt work out, even though i wish otherwise. So thats that everybody, ill try and write more and more frequently until your sick of me and tell me to stop writing so many rants and reviews and to lay off the art! But that will never happen, for art is my expression, and genius; my bitch!
-- This quote comes from my Grandma!

"well, you know, people are kind of like birds, and there is that old chinese proverb, if you truly care about a bird, you will set it free; if it comes back to you, then it was truly yours."

"But what if you REALLY pissed the bird off?"
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