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October 30th 2001-Eric: Its official!! I am psychic, or at least somehow possess some kind of otherworldy sense, or EXTREMELY liable to unbelievably coincidental circumstances, but this time, its all good things that I have thought about. Needless to say, today has been a wonderful day. And I wonder, do i really possess some kind of esp, which my mom and grandpa say they do, so they think i probably do (and is ESP an acronym for extra sensory perception?) or I am very in tune with the universe and all things balance themselves out. Maybe doing good things does bring about good things for you, even though you shouldn't do things with only the thought of reward. But lets go into a story shall we? JIMMY Sunday afternoon I was at the library, using the internet. I got off and went down to the pay phone to call a friend and see if she wanted to go out and get something to eat. Right as I got to the pay phone this GIANT of a man comes up to me. This guy is like 6'6, dreadlocked hair, kinda dirty clothes, but he just seems nice. So he asks me if I have a car, and tells me that he really really needs a ride kinda far down the street. He had just gotten out of jail and had walked from there to the library hoping to find a ride, and he had no shoelaces, no belt, and a manilla envelope with his stuff in it, so this guy really did just get out of jail. And he asks me if I could drive him down the street, maybe like 4 miles, a pretty far way to walk, especially since it was getting dark and cold anyway. Naturally, I was kind of apprehensive, I had NO idea who this guy was, and he had just gotten out of jail!! He seemed nice but I didn't know him at all. But i had that kind of feeling that it would be wrong not to help this guy, and I remembered valjean from les miserables, he was a good guy but just had bad things happen to him and he became a criminal. So i told this guy I'd give him a ride. Walkin to my car i was like "if this guy tries to kill me im going to be really pist off." but he didnt, and he really appreciated the ride and thanked me alot when we got to where he needed to be. On the way he asked me if i was a god fearing man, i said a little bit, and he said he knew i was because he prayed to god when he got to the library that someone would help him out, and I did. I'm not really saying that it was any kind of divine intervention, but odd things have been happening, IE my odd foreshadowing of sorts of all kinds of things that I have been thinking about happening, so perhaps the universe is all connected and i am somehow in the know about things. Its karazy, but fun, and somewhat scary, but exhilirating. Do I REALLY think that i have some kind of cosmic knowledge and I am psychic and all that? Maybe not. Too early to tell, but at least 5 things that I have thought about in the past two days happened today. Thoughts and situations that just popped into my head happened today. And it opens many doors. And they have all been GREAT things, so did my helping Jimmy out somehow trigger some kind of karma reward? Maybe, I did something to help some strangers back on the 4th of July and on the 5th of July the most wonderful thing happend, so maybe. But I'm not going to think that because that could jinx it, and I don't want to. So things should be cool. I shall alert you all, who don't even read this probably so I'm just rambling to myself, later. Onward to my other story!! TIM CURRY RULES!!!...as long as you don't forget him. Ah, the great Tim Curry. He was Pennywise the clown in Stephen King's IT, he was the butler in Clue, such a good movie. And most famous of all, the was Dr. Frank N Furter in The Rocky Horror Picture Show. But I forgot ALL about him. Then suddenly I remembered him, and couldn't remmeber his name for anything at all. I got so frustrated that I went through the entire TV guide trying to find a movie that he was in so i could remember his name, I was pretty sure it was Timothy something. But I couldn't, until I came across the descriptioni for The Rocky Horror Picture show, and it had his name there. Thank god. But Tim Curry is awesome, and I am SO surprised that we don't have anything on him on this site because I love him! Him and Christopher Walken. And Bat Boy. Who just joined the army to fight terrorism, god bless his little echolocation-usin soul. I SALUTE YOU BAT BOY! "I knew you were going to say that." -- October 28th 2001-Eric: Okay, so I think I'm becoming psychic. And that might not be a good thing. So far, to date, in the last month, I have had, what i believe to be psychic happenings, at least ten or more times. That includes at least five people who I hadn't seen or thought about in a long time suddenly appearing, the fact that I mention that I hadn't had to put a new battery in my watch since i got it, and the next day my battery goes dead, the fact that for a week I have thought "my car is dying. My car is going to die and it needs to go to the hospital. Hey im passing by that place where i got new tires, I havn't had to do anything to my car in awhile." And what happens!? My battery dies. So i dont know what to think anymore, I keep having wierd dreams, one about a very good friend of mine, and while that dream was nice and funny, I had two dreams about my room being immacately clean and then the computer room being completely clean, which they are not in the waking world, and me feeling like i had lost things or wondering where the things that were cluttering my room were, and then of a gas station closing up business, which in the waking world, it did not. So I hope that I'm not having any odd premonitions about things. If i could have premonitions about lottery numbers or anything good like that, or if i became one of those psychic pokemon, that would be wonderful. So I guess we'll see what happens. Or maybe I'll just know before it does! -- "I call on my favorite psychic pokemon....ERIC!! (flash!) eeeeeeeeerrrriiiccccooo!!!!" That last part was how I would sound if I were a pokemon. Really. Oddly enough, my brother is Snorlax. -- October 21st, Yet another Eric Rant IKE TURNER'S ROLE IN MY CINEMATIC FUTURE While in Barnes and Noble's last night, looking at art books and the sort, I passed by a copy of Bram Stoker's Dracula, and thought "Wouldn't it be great if I could convince Ike Turner to star as the feature character in my movie "Ike Turner is....SMACKULA!!" I don't know the plot details, I'm just caught up in the excitement of having Ike Turner star in my movie, though he has yet to be informed that he has a role in it. ALIEN EYE SPORES At school there is this tree. It's a very obvious first sentance, I know, but this is a special tree. It has these strange, very interesting fruit like things at the ends of its branches, which slightly resemble red/pink/orange pine cones. Very beautiful things, so i broke one off and drew it with pastels. I thought it was a solid object, but a few days later I saw it start opening up, with these deep, very very red seeds sprouting out. And now there are tons of them, at least 30 red seeds popping out of this thing, and it is really creeping me out. They are crawling out of this thing like it was some kind of alien pod, and these are its eye spores coming to watch me. I even think that it was closer to my bed than it was the night before. I want to throw it away from me as far as I can, but I also want to keep it because it is so interesting, yet very creepy, and yet beautiful. As long as it doesn't form a symbiotic relationship with something in my room. -- October 21st-2001, Eric's rant that has to be put on september's rants because october's rants wont let me add anything because i FUCKING HATE COMPUTERS!!! (this has since been corrected) It happens every time i want to write a rant, the computer wont let me for some reason, so it gets me all hot and bothered and frustrated with this stupid, stupid machine. Not that it hasn't brought good things, its just schizophrenic. But anyway! Time for my rant, which i havnt had for awhile, due to lots of work and school and not a whole lot to talk about. Well nothing i could put in a rant. Ah but things have been very good. And yesterday, I left the house early, got something to eat and took off on the road to Forest Park and the Art Museum and everything else, and it was very nice. The art museum is always good, and i did two very good studies (I think) of a marble torso from ancient rome, around 50 B.C. So maybe ill put those in the artwork section. And while there, i got to see a great peice of performance art, one that leads the viewer to question, "Did I just walk onto the set of a porno?" It wasn't an actual ART performance, but it was one hell of a performance. These two, obviously freakishly hormone crazed, horny as all get out and full of sexual tension and aggression decided that the whole world needed to see them try and make babies out on Art Hill (the giant hill right out in front of the art museum). They weren't actually having sex, but they were almost pulling each other's clothes off, straddling each other, rolling ontop of one another, kissing and necking and riding each other, one would roll over and the other one would straddle, then vice versa, not all the while making out, more along the lines of a VERY kinky night at the WWF, and all the while, COMPLETELY in front of parents with children, other couples, grandparents, field trips, EVERYTHING. I was sitting under the statue of St. Louis TRYING to enjoy the view of forest park below me and working on the two pictures i had done inside, but these two were just goin at it like...I don't even know. It was wild. But people would walk by and be like "oh.....my god, i cant believe they are doing that!!" Because the girl would get up, and the guy would almost rip off her pants pulling her back down, and then he would get up and she would pull him down and straddle him, then he would get on his knees and wrap her legs around him, and then she got up and started walking up the hill abit so she was kind of bent over a bit, and he pulled her back and then just rammed into her like they were gonna start doing it doggy style, it was NUTS! And THEN(!!!) they decided that the sun was too hot or in their eyes, so they come up to the shadow of the statue of St. Louis, and resume their fiesty sex starved frollicking twenty feet from me! Honestly, I'm all for public displays of affection. Holding hands, hugging, kissing, its all cool. But when you start gettin like that, in front of a museum with tons and tons of people, and only like a hundred yards from the ZOO, on a GORGEOUS day with thousands of little kids in it, thats just nasty. And i think they KNEW people were watching them, one guy even had a video camera and taped them for a minute, while his buddies laughed and the girls with them were disgusted at the acts of the couple. And I feel bad for calling them a couple. Two people kissing or holding hands, thats a couple. Two people gettin nasty and crazy in public, thats just...somethin. I dont know. Im surprised they didn't go to the zoo and take it up on the Sea Lion Stage. It was that nuts. So that was my day at the art museum. And I don't judge people by their looks, really, but some people just FREAK ME OUT!! And its always white people. There is this tiny, TINY oompa loompa girl at school who just scares the hell out of me. She was in one of my classes, the girl is like 3 feet tall and has a face like a bowl of chili. But anyway, she is just scary because she looks MEAN and she said before "I don't like comedy. I don't like to laugh." And you'd believe it too! She scary!!! And there is this lady who is always at the library on sunday using the internet, and she has this died rust colored hair and she is SSSOOOOOOOOOOOOO scary, she looks like she would feed your baby to rats. But she isn't mean, i don't know if she is nice but she seems like a decent person, she's just fairly frightening. But most of this is exaggerated for comic pizazz, so I hope nobody thinks im being mean. I'm not, I'm just callin 'em like i see 'em, and sometimes they are very scary. And why are babies so cute!? They just so cute. Lil kids at the zoo and the book store and everywhere, and the loud ones are the best, so adorable. And why do girls have such nice butts!? It's a viable question, sure its a question a man would pose, but still! I'm an artist, I must enjoy beauty in all it's forms, and woman is the best art form. As is love, but not when its being forced into your eyes right out side the art mueseum. Okay, that wasn't even love. That was more like "get a damn room!!" -- October 17th 2001 - Work is getting a little better, when it's not making me work every day and causing me to not see my friends! I just got my Hep A shot yesterday. My arm is still attached, so I guess all is good. I'm now the proud owner of a daffy duck bandaid that is not leaving my arm for the next two days because I just don't want it to come off. Call it an odd brain thing. As for specifics on work, it's still basically the same. I'm a cashier and I've yet to be told exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. What we 'are' doing however is laying down ice which is a really long and involved process, and just today they put down lines and dots and then more ice. I can't say I 'don't' like the people I work with, we hardly say anything to each other. How can you hate people you've never spoken with? .. Oh wait, I do it all the time. ;] But aside from that, there's this one guy (isn't there always?) who's just really adorable (can guys 'be' adorable??). Gotta love the ratio of straight people to gay people though because I always seem to miss out. Speaking of gay issues, they (my managers) are actually calming down with the slandering of it. So I may just be able to work there after all. Not to mention since I really need a job and I've been without one for hm.. 10 months now, and I'm broke and in debt, there's really no alternative. All my friends think me working there is a bad idea just because of the possible environment I'd be in, but I feel as if I have to work there just because I need to prove to myself I can actually do it. I'm hoping to lower myself to better myself. Lets hope I'm correct in this assumption or I'm going to be in for a bumpy six month ride. - chris "you're not supposed to be denied anything when they take your license and all you have is a ticket." -- October 12th 2001 - Uh, nothing interesting happened evidentally. But I 'did' get an A on my Oral Communications test that I didn't study for, and I think I did okay on my Human Racism (Human Sexuality to everyone else because they're all racists) test that I took today. I also had my second day at my new job in which we were laying down ice,.. actually spraying water from a hose that takes about seven people to support so it doesn't touch the ground. It was an okay day I guess. I found out that the hockey nets that we had messed up my 'first' day last week had to be re-done entirely. Which just makes me smile because if you want it done right, do it yourself. ;] And where as I just said it was an okay day at work, I'm really tired, and practically every guy who works there has a MAJOR gay issue up their butts that I think they need to deal with. I think next time it comes up I'm going to ask them what their deal is. Now really, even 'my' friends say things are "gay" every now and then, but we're saying it in a funny light. These guys are just being blatant and way too frequently repetative. Granted they may not be referring to anything actually homosexual, something has to be wrong with their psyche for them to be this way. Plus.. I'm just plain f-ing annoyed whenever they do it and it's starting to piss me off. :] The only problem is.. will this effect my work experience since two of these people are my managers? - chris "It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood.. time to clean up the dog shit." -- October 10th 2001 - Okay, well everything is righted now because Eric gave his input. Now my computer just sucks and I hope it stops sucking soon. Tomorrow should be interesting since it's National Coming Out Day. ;] - chris "Owwwww!! Body, cripled with pain.. gonna pass out.." -- October 11th 2001- HAHAHA!! SO you thought i was a woman huh!? ( See the history page to know what the hell im talking about. Yes, i am shamelessly trying to get you, who read this now, to look at other things on the site) And no, today is the 10th of October, but if i added a few rants on the 10th and a history revision you would think that I didn't have ANYTHING to do, and that is why i added so much stuff. Okay well it isn't really that much. But if you don't check this for a few days, then you would never have known, so why did i tell you that i am in fact writing this on the tenth but titled it the eleventh? Because i felt guilty. For lying to you all. ALL OF YOU!! I'M SO SORRY! Okay i was lying there to. I'm slightly regretful, but not all out sorry. Did you know that if you stare at a gorilla he will assume that you are challenging him and then might try and kill you? Try it sometime. Which is better, a duck soup or a souped up duck? Because granted, duck might be really good, I've never eaten a duck. But a souped up duck would just kick ass!! He would run at speeds heretofore never witnessed, could pick locks and sing songs to your beloved and of course, play the banjo. My souped up duck would fly at mach 47, and they would have to make a razor with 47 blades because nobody would buy them anymore because the duck was so much better that all they would have to do was to stand in his way and the wind that came with him would give you the closest shave imaginable, and your woman, or man would be like "mm mmm mmm! i Love that duck!" Or "man!! that was a great duck!!" or like "boy!! for a duck like that you might have to go to the east side!" And he would have a cape and he would smile as he flew over head and everybody would gasp, and he would get the woman he most loves to fall in love with him, which might be a duck, but she also might be an ostrich. He does love that sort of thing. Ah souped up duck, how i envy thee. "souped up duck, souped up duck, the chicks all dig him cause he's such a great.......banjo player" -- October 10th 2001- Just tryin to see if we can still add stuff to the site! Because we might not be able to. because we lost our fingers. To a mouse. Who now has twenty human fingers. On a necklace. Which gives him magical typing powers previously unattainable by mice. Or us, now that we don't have fingers. "Hey! That mouse stole my fingers! And my twinkie! THE BASTARD!" -- October 9th 2001- AH!! how i love to be insulted on my own website. First off, i didnt say that anybody was stupid or silly because of the opinions they hold, but since im a silly, silly boy, what the f-k do my opinions matter. But that don't mean i aint gonna give them. What are the pros of not retaliating and taking out their defenses? Everybody thinks that we are just bombing them to bomb them, we are bombing them because they refuse to hand over bin laden and give up the terrorist training camps. The taliban funds and promotes the terrorists, and support them by giving them a country in which to base their camps. We told them to hand over bin laden and turn over the camps and if they did so they would not be bombed, they didn't listen. Will our NOT responding to the attacks lead the terrorists to believe that we are not the infidels, that since we chose the higher path they will believe that they shouldn't attack us again? Yea, the terrorists might retaliate to our retaliations, but its kind of like in the school yard, if a bully does something and gets away with it, he is going to do it again. How much crime do you think there would be if there were no police at all? If you can get away with something, your going to do it again. If terrorists think that America is an easy target, then they are going to attack it more. What other way is there to get the point across that we are serious about wanting Bin Laden and the terrorists if we just sit across the table from them and discuss it? Should we just tell them " we dont want any more innocent lives to be lost, so we are just going to leave it up to you to give us the terrorists, so..take care. OH MY GOD A PLANE, HIDE!!" Bin Laden has said that americans will know no peace, sure our attacking the country he is in will piss him off even more, but if we didn't do you think he would come out with another video saying "ah i was WRONG about America! I just attacked to see if they would turn the other cheek and prove they were better, and they did. Kudos to them!" We are bombing their military capabilities and head quarters so that they cannot attack us when we go into get bin laden. If they actually want to negotiate and turn over bin laden and the terrorist training camps then I think we should stop bombing. But they were given that chance and they refused it. They want to negotiate, but they don't want to hand Bin laden over to us. And unless countries other than Afghanistan were to take over the camps and shut them down, how do we know that they would be. But to get rid of those who pose a threat to you is not anything near Nazism. The Nazi's killed because they thought they were better than others, that they were god's chosen and superior race. Sure, maybe alot of people think that we are better than the terrorists, but I don't remember the jews flying planes into buildings and vowing that they would destroy an entire country and all its citizens. Maybe while innocents might get hurt, they aren't the targets, the people who pose a serious threat to the entire world is a target. And terrorism might never be stopped, but at least it might be hindered. Why have we attacked Afghanistan? Because they are the foremost supporters of terrorism. And everybody so far has said that America is the biggest ass in the stable and how nobody fucks with us, what about England, who also attacked. What about Russia, Australia, China, Canada, Germany, Japan, and other countries who have condemned the attacks on the 11th and praised the retaliation. What if England were attacked and they retaliated, would they still be "the country that nobody fucks with?" Citizens from hundreds of countries were in the world trade towers, if each one of those took part in the retaliation would they be to blame or is it just that america is a super power and if we use that power we are the bullies. Might pacifism prevail? Possibly. Ghandi and Martin Luther king have proved that. But they were fighting policy and biogtry, not men who would die and kill thousands of others to prove they love their cause. And yes, while there will always be another, there was Napolean and then Stalin and Hitler and Mussolini and Hussein and now the Taliban and Osama Bin Laden. But what happened to those people in the past? They were defeated because people knew that sometimes action had to be taken to defend the world from the evil that existed and the evil that would exist if nothing was done. The people of Afghanistan didn't ask to be bombed, but their government regime did nothing to stop it. -- October 8th 2001 - Well, since this is a democracy, lets get multiple views instead of just our own, shall we? ;] Here is a randomly picked person from the streets named Kim. Lets see what she has to say. Ah, Eric, silly, silly Eric. It�s a good thing I have all ready enjoyed your company or I might have to talk about your mama. But I digress. Where do I start? The tragedy in New York was exactly that, a heinous tragedy that was unwarranted and uncalled for. People died and someone should be responsible for that. Bin laden was the culprit and he should be brought to justice. No one is questioning that. But the war that has been initiated is pure retaliation and retaliation is never the answer. We are doing this so we don�t look like pussies and that�s bullshit. We are killing people who hate Bin laden and the Taliban. We are supposedly bombing military bases and Taliban headquarters but, Do you really think they are still there? Do you think they are hanging out playing pool and shooting the breeze? Doubtful. And if I remember correctly, Bombs are not self-contained entities. They do not only bomb what they are told to bomb, they destroy everything in their path. I am sure there are homes, schools, churches and hospitals in the vicinity of these bases filled with people who have done no crime except being born in Afghanistan. We cannot stop terrorism. War or no war. We would have to assassinate everyone who poses the slightest threat to us and then we would be terrorists. We would be Nazis. Human beings are never protected from harm, we must accept that. There is always gonna be that crazy f-ker who kills people. There just is. The terrorist attacks will change our lives forever, it will finally make us realize that just because we are Americans, does not mean we are protected and that is the real reason why people are supporting the war. Because they are feel helpless and scared, but the truth is, we are helpless. We will always be helpless. Even if we obliterate the entire population of Afghanistan, The entire Taliban, Osama Bin Laden and all his homeys, there will be another. And another. The war is retaliation, to right the wrongs that has been done to us. But what is the benefit? Killing people? That is the goal, right? To kill Bin laden and whoever gets in the way, because we are Americans and nobody f-ks with us? It will never end, there will always be someone who wants to kill us and if we go after them all, that�s all we will be doing. Americans are all worked up about the Afghanistan way of life, women being abused and mistreated, but is that really a cause for war? Does that justify killing those women with our bombs? In America, I make 78 cents to your dollar because I have been blessed with a vagina. One out of four of my friends will be raped, or beaten by her husband or boyfriend, so excuse me if I am not shocked with the Afghans way of keeping women down, because it is not such a foreign concept to me. - Kim -- October 8th 2001- Ah! How the preposterous pontifications page has turned into politically incorect! Well, Chris made some good points. And I shall make some too. The reason why we are bombing Afghanistan is so that the Taliban can't retaliate against our troops when we go in to get them and bin laden. We aren't bombing their cities and suburbs, we are bombing their miltary airports and communications networks. Certainly, innocent lives might be lost, but that is what happens any time a war takes place. Granted, the ENTIRE reason why the terrorists hate america is because american politics and politicians are hypocrites. Bin Laden has made good points, and its understandable why he hates us but war does not always beget war. Chris mentioned about how we left England but we didn't bomb the hell out of it, there was that tiny little thing called the Revolutionary war. Thousands of lives were lost in that war, and possibly the same might be in this war, but look at america and england now. The same might be said for Afghanistan. What if no military action had been taken against Hitler. Yea, we have alot of shit that needs to be fixed here, but we can't fix it if we are constantly having airplanes flown into our buildings and living in fear of constant terroist attack. We can't just say to bin laden and all the terrorists in the world "well yea, we are hypocrites, You got us, lets just be friends" They want to destroy us, and as bad as some things are in this country, its in the world's interest to stop terrorism. I like the "get the plank" quote, but also, America's racism, bigotry, hatred and intolerance is much less, much less than what it is in Afghanistan. It should't exist at all, but you can't wipe that kind of thing out. Women are beaten to death for showing their ankles, or wearing nail polish. The one thing that is differant from america and afghanistan is that the taliban promote that. If a black gay woman were killed in the united states, her killer would eventually be brought to justice. If a woman is killed in Afghanistan, its heraled. What does fighting solve? Sometimes nothing. But sometimes it might be the only way to bring about change. Dipolomatic negotiations won't work with people who are willing to kill thousands and themselves in the name of their religion. The reason we are bombing is to prevent them from attacking our troops, so that we can go in and get the people responsible and to destroy their abilities to do that again, and the reason we aren't carpet bombing the entire country is because that would kill more innocents. The bombings we are doing right now might take out a few innocents, but there were six thousand people killed, and its not a matter of revenge, its a matter of preventing that from happening again. "we should get Batman to go in there, he could kick all their asses." -- October 7th 2001 - ;] I didn't intend for the journal entries to be a debate forum for me and Eric, but by golly I'm gonna give 'my' views on this because it almost sounded like Eric said I like to stick my head in sand, unless he was just referring to people who don't think the Taliban are like Nazi's. Anyhow, as a pacifist, no I don't believe we should have bombed Afganistan. Bombs and missles don't exactly target just "bad people", they aren't designed for that. If we 'must' get rid of the Taliban and Bin-Laden then they should find a way to do just that. The Taliban don't care who they attack, they do it with wanton disregard. Why did they attack in the first place? Because the United States has to butt their noses into other people's business. We 'are' the United States because we felt that England was just too crazy and we left to form our own country, we didn't bomb the hell outta them because of it. Then the United States gets all too big for its britches and we start telling 'other' people what they should and shouldn't be doing. I'm sure lots of countries we've messed with tried to tell us to stop, but did we? Not really, cuz we're the United States and of course we know what's best. That's why our own country is overrun with its own terrorists, crime, hatred, bigotry, rape, killing, the list goes on. Get the plank out of your own eye before you try to tell someone else about the speck in theirs. This is why I feel war isn't the answer. We can't fix everyone elses problems when we have tons of our own, and trying to "fix" everyone is only making them hate us because they feel we don't know what we're talking about and that we don't belong there. So as a result of our endless "helping," a tragedy happened that rocked the nation. Did it do anything positive? Not really. It only fueled a great deal of hatred in our country. Sure it made a lot of people come together for the common good, but if that common good is fueled by the need and desire to destroy people because we feel we're threatened, then what good is it? On a smaller scale, that's like saying a bully who beats you up one time should get pummeled back just as bad if not worse because it needs to be done. Will that stop the bullying? Probably not. That bully will just get more of his bully friends to have an all out brawl and the fighting will never end. Hate begets hate, and war begets war. The only way that we will ever be safe from terrorism with this kind of logic is by killing everyone who will ever try and attack us. The ends justify the means right? Annihilation on a full scale bigger than anyone has ever seen, with no survivors. Only then will we be able to sleep better at night, but at what cost? Because so many people believe that negotiations and pacifism will never work, then war will always be inevitable and people will always die, and hate will breed among it all. I for one don't feel like killing anyone, and I definitely don't want to die because someone else feels that fighting is right. - chris "My car is so much happier now that I cleaned it out, gave it some oil and cleaned the windows." -- October 7th 2001: Eric! Hey everybody! Ah and so the U.S and its allies have begun attacking Afghanistan, and I think they should. As Tony Blair said, the consequences of not acting far out weigh the consequences of not acting, and they have dropped rations and other humanitarian aid packages to the refugees of Afghanistan. It is probably a bit of PR management and also just the compassion for severly oppressed people, and frankly, lets kick the Taliban's ass. They are no better than Nazi's and anybody who says other wise just likes to stick their head in the sand. Chris doesn't think we should retaliate, and yesterday at a festival down on the Loop there was a man with a posterboard saying that we shouldn't retaliate, but neiher Chris nor this man really had any other reasons for it than "because more lives should't be lost" But its a hard truth that if we don't do something about this, more people will die. The terrorists are funded and supported; finacially, morally and by giving them a place to base their camps, by the Taliban regime. They don't just want to scare the U.S and other countries that they deem the infidels, they want to destroy them. Terrorism doesn't just strike once and then they figure "eh, we taught them, lets get a beer." And yes, there probably will be some kind of retaliation by the terrorists and the taliban, but what if we HADN'T retaliated to what they had done. I'm all for a peaceful resolution and don't believe that violence is always the answer, but sometimes it's the only answer that can be heard and can make a difference. Sometimes you just need to kick some ass. There is no reason to negotiate, because nothing could come from the negotiations. It's kind of like what went down with the little boy from cuba, what was his name? Elian Gonzalez! yea thats it. His relatives kept saying "sure we'll give him to you. No we wont. Of couse we will! There is no way in hell we are giving him to you. Lets talk about this! We won't talk about this!" until finally they just had to break in and take him and give him back to his father. You shouldn't try and piss off people you have already pist off. That just makes it worse. I'm not all gung ho about a ground campaign or bombing the hell out of Afghanistan, i just believe that we should retaliate with the proper force and take out the Taliban and the terrorists, and then help Afghanistan to rebuild. Thats my take on it. And the comic Harlan Williams is INSANE!! I thought I could be wierd, uh uh. Not nearly as strange as that man. -- October 5th 2001-Eric here, with a happy birthday shout to Uyen!! Yay!!! =) -- October 5th 2001 - Today was my first day at the rink, and .. I'm pretty indifferent about it. Over all it was okay, except that yet again my life is plagued by biggots and people who drink Haterade (For that deep down body hate, Haterade). Last night at group was awesome because we got to learn about our rights as young adults and as gay people and what we can do. A couple people told stories about how their teachers had made negative comments towards them being gay and when the kids informed the higher power of their schools, those teachers were fired in a matter of days which was pretty cool. In all public schools, they're 'required' to protect you no matter what, but the catch is that they can claim ignorance if you don't speak up and tell them about it. Anyhow, so that made me happy to get all kinds of legal rights information and phone numbers provided by the ALCU because you never know when you'll need stuff like that. But when I heard one of my managers and some other employees talking about I'm assuming some other employee, they referenced him as a fag boy and continued to talk bad about him and laugh. Yet again, not directed at me because I'm not wearing a sign that says "I'm gay", but it still made me not want to work there. Granted I know that there are people like that everywhere, but it doesn't mean I have to like it. So I doubt I'll be telling anyone at work that I'm gay, so that kinda sucks because that'll limit conversations a bit. I think I might ask my brother about the situation because he's another one of the managers luckily. Who knows, he's not exactly enthusiastic about me either so who knows what the heck he says about gay people or me for that matter when I'm not around. So needless to say, hearing that and knowing that it's probably going to continue for the duration of my employment there which ends in March, it's going to be emotionally draining and not so much fun. I don't really have that much else to say right now, I'm gonna go drink and play pool. At least I'm not the only new person who's working this season though. Three cheers for the wonderful world of employment.. hip hip .. ah f-k em.. - chris "'We are cosmic knowledge fish, we know manymany things'" -- October 4th 2001-Ah the sweet attempts to steal my identity. Hey, its Eric! OR IS IT!? I have decided that for halloween i will go as somebody else. For that, I need their social security number. My brother, kind as he may want to be, often times seems to be out for himself. Testiment to that is when he once gave bullies his bike in order to chase me down, because I came to his rescue, angered the bullies, figured that the 3 to my one was an odd i wasn't ready to tackle, and took off. The bullies, NOT having bikes, were supplied with one by my brother. And then when they couldnt catch me, they destroyed his. Nice story, I know. But about my identity. My brother writes me out of nowhere, after not hearing from him for a very long time. A few sentances into the letter he boldy states "I need your social security number." My fist question, "Why?" Because he intends to make me heir to his fortune of ICP CD's, posters, comic books, shirts and god knows what all else? Maybe he wont bless me with those items, he figures he will leave me money. The prospect of such a moneytary windfall leads to my next question, "You have money?" He says that he has life insurance, but i dont think he needs my SSN for that, and a guy at work had his brother steal his SSN and open up loans, credit cards, and ID's in his name, and it went on with out his knowledge until the cops came in and arrested him, all because his brother stole his identity. And if he DID have life insurance and wanted to leave money to somebody, he SHOULD leave it to his one year old baby and the mother. I don't need his money, but they probably would. So I (evil as it may sound) think that my brother might have intended to open up a credit card or loan in my name, because i have good credit and he has very bad credit due to his shennanigans with those record house cd clubs. So yes, it does sound evil. But this is from the guy who gave bullies the chance to beat me up, sold my favorite toys to his best friend, refused to loan me a quarter when we were kids so that i could buy a really cool toy on a field trip on the basis that i still owed him a nickle from a few months before that. And also stole from every friend he ever had and ever lived with. My brother isn't a cruel person, he doesn't hurt people just for kicks, but he also doesn't put much thought into things other than those regarding himself. SURE! this isnt a funny rant! but it is a rant nonetheless. And any time you feel like Sandra Bullock, its damned funny. And if i could feel Sandra Bullock, that would just kick ass!! Because she was in that movie The Net (which i thought was about the fishing industry, i was very dissapointed) and she had her identity taken away so that her sister could get a disabled parking pass and the prime spot at Denny's. And you know, Denny's has some good fapjacks. I've got a hankerin to go and get some, but i dont have any money on me at the moment and eh, maybe i dont need no fapjacks just yet. You want to know what some really good stuff is though!? I know you do. Other people's SSN's!! HAHAHAHAHA!! Okay that wasn't funny. But orange flavored chicken, mongolian beef, fapjacks drizzlin with butter, and..something else. I'm not sure which. Oh okay, german chocolate danish's from the Saint Louis Bread CO. Really good stuff. But the mongolian beef danish's arent so much. So the moral for this one kids is to always watch out for you SSN, and don't give it out to anybody! Except me. Because you can trust that i WILL open up credit card accounts, and you can sleep soundly knowing that the best is being taken of your bad situation. Sleep sweetly. :) -- "Dude, I need your social security number. And while your at it I'll take that kidney you've been holdin onto. Yea thats right. The kidney too. And the lung. Give it to me! I'm your sibling! Blood is thicker than legal rights! And aren't we of the same blood? So what will it MATTER if I have your idenity!? We are pretty much the same person! With a two hundred pound difference." -- October 3rd 2001 - Damn if colds don't suck ass! I had one for a couple of days and I 'really' felt shitty Monday. So much in fact that I had to skip my last class. But all is better now, hopefully anyway. Heh, I should probably be working on the soon to be added "Liz is the coolest person I know" page because I lost in a game of pool. Ever since she's come back to live here, me and her go play pool a lot because no one else we know actually enjoys doing that activity. That and chess, even though Rachel does like to play chess too, and Morgan will play with me occasionally. So, after many many pool games, Liz decided that we should start betting stuff. Even though I was kicking her ass up until then, she kept winning her games whenever she'd bet stuff, I guess because she doesn't like to lose. One of the things she won was a webpage devoted just to her and how cool she is. I did however bet and win that she has to fill out one of those 100 question surveys that me and Eric filled out, only because I know she hates those things with a passion and really recoils back when she sees them. Some recent things in my life are that I completely bombed my first oral communications speech. I had my speech completely down in my mind, and I thought I would do really well, I knew what I was going to say and when to say it. Then I end up forgetting my outline (even though I didn't really need it that morning when I was quoting it in my mind) and then when I got up infront of the class I just blanked out. I forgot sentences, had a huge pause after one sentence because I totally forgot what came next, I made 'great' eye contact with everyone but I don't think I moved my body at all. The sad thing is that no one laughed at 'any' of the slight jokes in the speech. Eric wrote my speech for me and it was hilarious, but do these people think anything's funny? NO! Clarification though, Eric didn't 'write' my speech, I knew what I was talking about and what I was going to say but I just didn't know how to put it into sentence form, so he helped me on that end and added little funny bits here and there like my endless supply of Dr. Pepper being called Hollistic Practitioner Pepper. I ended up getting a 9 out of 15, which is way better than I thought I was going to get but still. Then the next night, me and my friends all go to a club and then another, and it's just a really horrible time. To top it off, this guy comes outta 'no where' and puts his arm around me. Mind you this was 'not' a gay club and I was dressed as neutral as I possibly could be (like I always am) and I don't think I necessarily give off "I'm gay" vibes. So he puts his arm around my waist and then smiles at me saying "Would you mind if I put my arm around you?" .. uh, excuse me?! You're already doing it asshole! So Rachel steps in and saves me by saying "hi, I'm Rachel, one of Chris's best friends, and I think he'd rather have you introduce yourself before you start putting arms around anything." ;] I love Rachel, she's so cool. So I guess after seeing that I wasn't into his mannerless jive, he just kinda did this snotty head-motion and left. So that kinda freaked me out because a) it was unexpected and b) I couldn't really do anything about it. Like I'm gonna punch a guy out because he has horrible people skills and manners. Plus I'm a pacifist anyway. =] Oh yeah, I finally got a job! YAY!! It's at the ice rink and I don't know how much I'm getting paid, and I don't know my exact schedule, but I 'do' know that it's going to slightly suck because I need to get a hep. A shot because I'll every once in a while work concession stand, 'and' I need to get CPR certified when I'm only a cashier!! That just sounds retarded to me. And if they 'even' try and make me be 'janitor' I'm quitting. I am 'not' getting paid enough to clean up other people's blood and puke I'm assuming. Hm.. I think that's everything interesting happening in my life with the exception of me and Toya having a crab legs night sometime this week. FUN!! - chris "One of us has to walk away here, but it isn't going to be you when I make it so you have no legs!" -- |