WHY DOES NOBODY LIKE WHAT I LIKE!? geeze!! Okay, i just read the rant that Chris put up and I didn't know that he thought that the new weezer album sucked, I think it kicks ass!!! EVERY SONG!! And another friend tore up Planet of the apes, which i thought was AWESOME, AND she tore up spongebob =*( sponge bob is my favorite cartoon. aside from the simpsons, and maybe a few others. And nobody likes to eat what I normally eat, what do i eat you ask? BABIES!!! Man, due to my sadness i have completely forgotten what I was going to rant about, umm, hmm, I found out that Pete Yorn is coming to St. louis!!! yea!! But he is coming with Train, who is OKAY, but i hate that meet virginia song, here virginia's ass, meet my foot. They just played that song out too much, and it wasnt that great to begin with. And their new song is okay, but im basically going just for Pete Yorn. OYEA!!! I forgot, last friday, the 27th, was my birthday! i got lots of neat things, and even got pulled over for a sobriety check point!! That was my present from the boys in blue in Florissant, they were pulling lots of people over. But I dont normally drink so I wasnt drunk, YET!! hehe, nah just kidding. I dont drink, and if I do its only one or so. And then the next day my dad was leaving to go back home (he lives in Denver) and we went to this really good place called Fast Eddies, really really good food, and i only had a drink....or twelve!!!! nah just kidding. I dont drink, really. And i dont eat babies, seriously.

I drink them. Like a spider!! okay, im way too wierd now. WAY too wierd. Talkin bout drinking babies like spiders, im sick. But I love babies, they are so cute. I saw a little tiny one today, she was all short and big ol black eyes and cute little puffs in her hair, she was so cute. Her name was Rosco. Okay, i dont know what it was because she was in another car. It's way too hot here. Somebody summon some kind of ice demon and piss him off so he will cover our fair city in ice, flavor-ice!! That way we can all gorge ourselves on cold stuff, get a brain freeze, and die. But boy will it be a cool death, all covered and gorged in all the flavors and colors of the rainbows. Like lucky charms!! BUT DEADLY!! Hey do you think any person will ever name their child Butt Deadly? Or for that matter, Gynolotriman, or if they are Jamaican, Gynolotri-mon. Like Ms. Cleo, who apparently is being sued by Kit Bond, the state attorney. I think he is, im very cluless at the moment. I'll have to check my facts and see. Okay, to sum up today's rant: The new Weezer album is good, Planet of the Apes is a good movie, Pete Yorn kicks ass, I dont eat OR DRINK babies, SpongeBob SquarePants is one of the best cartoons around, and I like the names Rosco, Gynolotriman, and Zhang Ziyi. Because she's pretty. Super pretty.

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July 30th 2001 - Normally I don't write rants one day apart because there just isn't that much interesting happening to do so, but not today! I was woken up at 8:00 this morning to a phone call. It was Liz, whom I had just driven to Memphis two days ago, asking if I could pick her up from the bus station around 3:45. Granted I was cranky, I still said yes. So I try to get back to sleep, doesn't happen, she calls back around 10:25 saying she missed her bus and that Bill (her sorta-kinda boyfriend) was going to drive her back here so she could make it back to camp on time. Well in that second phone call she told me that she was definitely moving back to St. Louis and moving in with Rachel right after camp (which is in two weeks). Evidently her roommate Liz is even 'more' psycho than before and my Liz ended up getting all of her stuff out of the apartment with the intent to move back to Missouri. Well, Liz 2 calls Liz and is screaming at her, etc. etc. talking about sueing her, blah blah blah, and where as that sounds really bad on my Liz's part, Liz 2 really is psycho and was basically cheating Liz out of a lot of money while she was living and working at this camp, but still paying to live at the apartment she's not staying in while Liz 2 has someone else living there who's also paying rent. I don't know the entire complex story, but I'm just damned happy that Liz is moving back. That's where we got the power of attorney catch phrase, because Liz's car broke down a while back and they towed it without her knowledge, so to try and get it back, she was giving Bill power of attorney over her car and he was going to solve everything. So since we had multiple power of attorney forms, we were just thinking of all the fun things we could do. Liz is getting power of attorney over Kim's hair, I'm getting power of attorney over Liz's legs, and we're going to try and trick Rachel into giving Liz power of attorney over Rachel's Judaism. So jokingly when me and Kim were hanging out last night, we were talking about how those were actually legally binding contracts over whatever power was given over, and that hypothetically if I gave someone power of attorney over my ass, they could use that in court. To which Kim said "you're just itching for somebody to have power of attorney over your ass." which is just funny. New news is that my friend Rose finally came back from Mexico! She's been going to school there for the past 6 months and came back yesterday. I hope to get a job at where she works since Bank of America is being a bitch about calling me back. I really have a lot of anger for them at the moment. The only other hilarious thing I can think of that happened last night was when me and Kim listened to the new Weezer album and we were both sad and angry that it basically sucks except for 2 songs. Kim just tore the album apart and I can't wait for her to write a review of it because it's just funny the way she goes off sometimes. Needless to say, we had to listen to Pinkerton to make up for the shittiness of the crap-album. - chris

"How come there's no woman in the moon, or snow women? .. When it snows we're gonna make a snow lesbian."

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July 29th 2001 - Ever have one of those weeks that was just so good you can't remember a damned thing you did? Yeah, that's what my week was like. Basically the highest point of my week was yesterday because Liz and Kim have three days off from the camp and I was going to drive Liz to Memphis so she could do some errands. Liz couldn't believe it because I've never even visited her when she was in Memphis and she's been there for a year now. So Kim was supposed to go, but then didn't and was replaced by Rachel. I drove out there basically going 90 mph the entire way, turning the normal 5 and some odd hour drive into a 4 hour drive. So we left at 5, got there at 9, and me and Rachel were driving back that same night because Rachel had to work the next morning at 11. So we spend probably an hour and a half to two hours in memphis not really doing much but it was still fun. I finally got to see Liz's apartment in person rather than visualizing in my mind, also I met her roommate (also named Liz) and, my Liz's sorta-kinda boyfriend Bill. I actually got a good vibe from Bill which is something rare since practically every guy my friends seem to be interested in just give off this bad vibe and normally I'm 97% accurate. So that made Liz really happy. The only thing is, is that I could never take Bill seriously because he has that southern accent. He was completely going off on Liz (roommate Liz) because of all the horrible stuff she's doing to our Liz and I totally know that it's evil and she should have a rock thrown at her, but everything he was saying was in that accent and he sounded like a preacher and I just had to stop myself from laughing. I wish I could remember my week a little bit better to actually make a better rant, but it's all a blur. The only other thing I can remember is that I'm never going to play the drinking game "I never" till I'm forty or something, by which then it'll be 'really' too dorky to play, because I never even drank when we played two nights ago! Never having sex kinda hinders that game evidently (since that's what most of the I never's were). It was retarded so by 4 in the morning I decided to go home. Ah well, time to find me a job! (yeah right) - chris

"You know how there's angry guy bands that puke and stuff on stage? Well there should be an angry girl band that rags on stage."

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July 23rd, 2001-via the brain of Eric, AND BACK FROM THE CIRCUS!!

Yes indeed, that is pretty much what it was. I have been down south for a bit, in little towns known as Farmington, Potosi, Fredericktown and other podunk towns where they have people who don't like outsiders much and where there is almost NOTHING BUT WHITE PEOPLE!! Yes, I'm white, and yes, I do look in the mirror, but I havn't ever gotten sick of seeing white people. Which I did, because there was nothing but. I even went to a chinese resturaunt, hoping to get some good chinese food and hopefully see a beautiful asian girl working there, because you really do need a break from all that caucasian-ness, and there wasn't a single asian person working there!! I felt deprived. And the food wasn't very good either. Not horrible, but I've had way way better. Anyway, it wasnt a bad time. Wasn't the greatest time either, At least I got my own hotel room. That was great. I didn't have to hear my brother snore like a drowning pig. Ah, and I wanted to check my email, because I'm a 20th or what is it, 21st century boy and I want to check my email. All the libraries there close at 3!! In the afternoon!!! Its crazy!! Does learning just stop at 3, cold!? And to check my email i would have had to pay ten dollars to get a library card, ten dollars a year mind you, because i didnt live down there, and all kinds of other crap, but since I was from out of town they let me use the internet for fifteen minutes. But since i can type like the dickens, that wasn't that bad. And if I ever get put in an old folks home I am going to put a hit out on whoever put me in there, MARK MY WORDS!!! I don't care if its my own children "but daddy we love you, thats why we are putting you in here." (days later) "i get this strange feeling that I'm being followed, every since we put dad in that home" Oh yea, whoever does it is going down. I would rather be dropped in the woods to fend for my life against bears and alligators than go into a home. I don't care how bad I am. My grandma, my dad's mom is in one, and she is pretty bad so its good that she is in one, but I don't care how bad I am, drop me in the woods or something, cause I ain't going into one. And I felt SO bad because I came back and there was this little old lady in a wheel chair trying to get out the door, and on the door they have this huge sign saying "DO NOT ASSIST PATIENTS OUT THE DOORS" but I wasn't going to stop her, but she asked me if i could help her and i was like "i...don't..know, im sorry" and she looked like i had just shot her in the head!! She looked SO sad, and i felt so so so incredibly bad. But she got out anyway, and the nurse said that the patients that can't go outside have a little bracelet on that locks the doors when they get close to them. But still, i felt really bad. But she got out anyway, and she just wanted to be outside. So that was that, I said hi and bye to her when we left and she seemed happy, so that was good. Ah well, I'm going to go running. Alot. Because I ate too much with my brother and dad. And I just feel like running.

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July 22nd 2001 - Last night .. wow, what can I say about last night? Prefacing, I found my wallet, due to my own stupidity. Hung out with Rachel, we were supposed to see Run, Lola, Run at the midnight showing but she's been wanting to go to sleep earlier to wake up for work (because she has odd sleeping habits) so she decided not to go. So, we went to a wine bar down the street with Mike and Toya and drank until 2 in the morning. Now I just want to say that I'm 'never' without my wallet, and I could have swore that my wallet was in my pocket the entire night until me and Rachel left the table to stop at her apartment for a second to get more money and I noticed I didn't have my wallet on me. That pretty much put me in a horrible mood, as it would anyone. I didn't have any money in the wallet, because I have no job and I'm poor, so that was okay. But I had my license, my school ID, my S.S. card, my bank card, insurance cards and medical cards that I'm pretty sure were important. So we went back to the table and drank some more while I was bummed about my wallet. There were some cute guys there, but my mind was still elsewhere. When the wine bar closed, we all went back to Rachel's apartment and hung out a little longer. I was supposed to take Toya home, so we decided to leave around 2:15. After getting to my car, I noticed that it was driving funny, making odd noises, and swirving to the right a lot. After about 50 feet, I pulled over and saw that my tire was flat. That just made my night complete. It was also scary because there's the whole incident where about 9 people so far have been knifed and robbed (two people have died) by crackheads (according to police). So that was a little bit scary. Luckily Rachel drove us all home, to which I found my wallet in my room. That put me in a better mood since that's all I was really worried about. Then this morning me and my dad went and got my car with my toy tire. That was an experience. - chris

"There was just a silence. I screamed for all of us."

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July 20th 2001 - Went to group last night, it was actually cool. Not in the temperature department, it was down right scorching, but it was still a good time. Mostly because one of the advisors talked to me a little bit about his life and how similar it was to my own considering his mom cried herself to sleep every night because he was gay too, and our parents are southern baptist, and other things that really helped me out mentally even though I wasn't necessarily looking for help. Being gay in today's society can be so guilt-ridden just because there's so much hate and discrimination and no understanding. But when a lot of that hate and discrimination comes from your family, the people who are supposed to love and support you, it can take its toll rather quickly. So that talk last night really did make me feel better and let me see a little more light at the end of the tunnel. We finally have a new air conditioner (thank God!!), and a new addition to the site due to the whole Federal Marriage Amendment crap coming to my attention is a paper my friend LaToya wrote for school about same sex marriages. Read it!! ;] I Do, But I Can't. Eric can't add anything to the site for a couple days because he's stuck in a podunk town somewhere with his family with not-much internet. Tomorrow me and Rachel are going to a midnight showing of Run, Lola, Run so hopefully that'll be fun, who knows. I don't have much to write at the moment because I really want you all to read that paper up there, and I'm trying to formulate a letter to Gov. Bob Holden about how pissed I am he signed that Federal Marriage thing, but without being rude. Wish me luck. - chris

"help!!! im trapped in a podunk town where they hate people who dont live in their town and will only let you use the internet at the library for fifteen minutes!! oh my god they got the shotgun out!! RUN RUN!! RUN!!! BAM BAM! BAM BAM BAM!!! WE'S GONE EAT YOU CITY BOAY!!! - eric"

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July 17th 2001 - Better day today, well kinda. Our air conditioner in the house died on Friday the 13th, (not to mention our dog, not due to the air conditioner but because of other stuff) :[, so it's really f-ing hot right now. It's actually 100 degrees in the house, and probably feels like more with the heat indices (I always thought it was index, but I guess I was wrong). Basically I want to crawl into a very cold cave and just do nothing for a while till our new air conditioner gets installed tomorrow hopefully. ANYWAY, the reason I felt like ranting was because I just went to the doctor because I wanted him to check out my leg/foot thing. He said that since I'm gaining a little weight (up to 131 1/2 now! .. sorry, that's good for me. ;] ) and because I have long feet (you know what they say about people with long feet? Oh good, neither do I.), that my arches were basically collapsed and that's probably causing all the pains and tensing of my legs. So they took blood (second time in my life to have them take blood, I'd just never let them before because of my fear of needles) and are going to run some tests. BUT, the lady who took my blood is just awesome, I love her to death and I don't even know the woman. She's the one who took my blood the first time about three months ago. Her name is Camilla and she is the 'sweetest' african-american woman I've ever seen. Okay, not really, because 95% of them I see are the sweetest, they're just awesome, I love them! They can also have the best damned kool-aid you've ever tasted. Anyhow, we were just chatting it up about how I needed to get a job (all while sticking me with a needle and drawing blood, she's talented!) and she was telling me about her daughter working at MCI and that they're always hiring and that she could get me an application if I wanted one. Then we talked about all the other jobs her daughter did, and the two previous jobs I've done, ah it was great. She rocks and just listening to her speak made my day happier. I don't believe in reincarnation, but I still want to come back as an awesome black woman if it really does exist. - chris

"Oh no, you have to get blood taken.. heh, you can't get away.."

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July 16th 2001 � I�m thoroughly unhappy with the United States today. I�m not really a person who�s up on current events, which is bad and I should be, but still. An email I got from my friend Morgan sent me for a loop. It was a petition, of which I immediately signed, and I encourage you to sign as well. Anti-Federal Marriage Amendment.

"Neither this constitution or the constitution of any state, nor state or federal law, shall be construed to require that marital status or the legal incidents thereof be conferred upon unmarried couples or groups."

This makes me outraged and sad. Mainly because it seems like it might happen! Supposedly even Missouri Governor Bob Holden signed in favor of it behind closed doors saying that it seemed like it would pass anyway and they would veto any opposition. Let them veto damn it!! Gay teen suicide is ranked among the highest due to being hated, lack of self-worth, and basically having little to no rights. Do you think it�s going to drop by taking away indefinitely a right we�re trying to acquire that should be ours anyway? Getting married was one of the few things I was looking forward to in my lifetime, not to mention that I�m still waiting till marriage to have sex. If the United States takes that away, where does that leave me and others who feel the same way? I was hoping our society would get past its prejudices and hatred, and I wouldn�t have to get a sham marriage to one of my friends, which would also cause them to not be able to marry whomever they wanted. Even in Hawaii there was a hate crime in which two sleeping campers were doused with gasoline and lit while trying to be run over because their site was marked with a rainbow flag. The oncoming attackers were screaming something like �hey faggots, the Bible says we�re supposed to kill you.� I can�t find the article anymore for the exact quote, but that�s just ludicrous! Doesn�t the Bible also say �thou shall not KILL???� God needs to seriously consider a �The Bible version 2.0� if people can�t seem to grasp His messages clearly. � chris

��Gir, finally! I need your help. I�ve been captured!�

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July 15th 2001- via the brain of Eric- wow, its been quite awhile since either of us wrote a rant. But we (ahem, Chris) has been doing alot to the site to make it look happier and more futuristic. Speaking of which, i heard that they are going to make a new friday the 13th movie wherein jason vorhees, or as a journalist liked to call him and so thus shall i call him, J-Vo, is brought back to life by unsuspecting future people on a space station. Why on earth would they want to do that? They wouldn't thats why they are doing it on a space station, because people who live on space stations are just asking for it. But see, as we all learned in Gattaca, nobody has sex any more, so what would prompt J-Vo to kill? He always killed teenagers engaged in sex, but if there arent teens having sex in the future, then what is a homicidal maniac going to do? "you are combining traits and genes through technology to create a new sentient being and for that i must take a hatchet to you" and think of all the things that he is going to be able to use in the future to kill people, laser swords, lasers, pens with lasers in them, lasers with pens in them, pillows with lasers in them, hatchets with lasers in them. But time and time again J-Vo has proved that he is very adaptable. And because of that they just NEED to make a new bad movie. Isnt it pretty much a rip off of Leprechaun in space? i never saw that movie but i heard it was really really really really really really really really really really really really really really about a leprechaun in space. which just MAKES IT BAD. Hmm, well anyway. About my day! I wanted to go and see the movie The Road Home, because the review said it was very good and romantic and beautiful and I'm one of those guys that likes romantic movies. And it has the super incredibly pretty Zhang Ziyi from Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon in it. Okay, thats kinda why I wanted to see it. But I still like love stories and the such, and this is supposed to be very very good. But it is only showing at one theater, and i had no idea where it was but i did the Yahoo driving directions. FUCK YAHOO DRIVING DIRECTIONS!!! they suck!!! it gave me HORRIBLE directions. It pretty much said "turn left, go straight, turn right" and hardly gave me any street names or anything. I ended up in Chesterfield, which is about 45 minutes away from where i live, and god knows how far away from the theater. So it got to 12:45 (the time the movie started) and i had NO clue where the place was and by that time i had NO clue where I was, so i just finally somehow found my way back onto the highway that i knew to take to get back home. But yahoo driving directions suck, because i found out later that they were so bad, that that was not the direction to go at all. So i guess I'll see it some other time. And yes, i was going to go see it by myself, i dont know why it is such a big deal if somebody sees a movie by themselves. I see LOTS of movies with other people, but this was an early movie and i didnt want to go through the hassle of getting a bunch of people together, and i like to live the spontaneous loner life sometimes and just go out on my own. Oh but i saw the coolest sights while driving around, this one building was SO massive, it was the largest building i have ever seen constructed by human hands. And i dont even know if it was it was this big, and i think it might have been a church, which oughta make God proud. But it was very neat, pure white and huge walls stretching high with this gigantic spire that went straight up for what seemed hundreds of feet. Even from far far away it seemd mammoth. wow, this rant is so long! well i shall end it then.

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July 7th 2001-via the brain of Eric- Well hello there, my coterie of nere-do-wells. I hope that everybody had a good fourth, chris had a good rant on the fourth! i think we can all agree with that, mine was pretty good. walked around the fair for a bit and saw the fireworks and lots of pretty girls, and isnt that what america is based on, looks? Well i wont go into another social commentary. America isnt based solely on looks, its also firmly based on money!! =) There is so much to rant about but im not really in the mood to rant, and quite a few good super freaky damn good things, July 5th was a happy day. and i went to a paul simon concert cause i had gotten free tickets and had nothing to do, and paul simon is cool, but anywho, it was annoying because there were three incredibly annoying jock/stuck up jerks behind me, who werent annoying me directly, not messing with me, but just the kind of people who are WAY to excited, and arent really excited, they are pretending to be to be sarcastic and all that, and heckling and it was just really annoying. I wasnt even paying that much attention to the concert, but they were horribly frustrating. I'm not sure how to describe it, but hopefully people will know. Like anybody read's this page!! HAHAHAH!! ooh and everybody should watch Prime time Glick starrting Martin Short ans Jiminy Glick because that show is just damned funny!! It is the oddest thing i have ever seen, which makes it an A+ in my book. Ah well, there is my rant for the day. even though its been weeks since ive ranted. So i hope my days are happy. and just because im in that type of mood, i shall forgo a goofy quote and simply quote from two poems by e.e cummings. enjoy!

"and now you are and I am now and we're

"sweet spring is your

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July 4th 2001 - Well, July 4th certainly was cool. I'm not patriotic at all, and why should I be?! I can't even get married, if I so chose to. Which brings us to what I did today. Nooo, I didn't get married. Are ya daft? I just said I couldn't. ;] I went to a wedding with my friend Kim because her best friend was getting married and she's pretty pissed at her ex-girlfriend and she didn't want to go by herself. Over all it was a pretty good wedding. The church where they had it even had a woman reverend which I thought was pretty awesome. But even though it was a very nice wedding, it made me angry at our country because they won't allow gay people (LGBT, insert whichever applies) to get married. Whatever happened to separation of church and state? I don't see what the 'state' has against gay people, not like Jesus was a senator or something. It's also messed up that a large percentage of people who hate gays don't even know any. Because if they had a gay friend, of course they probably wouldn't hate the rest of them or at least down the fact we should all get equal rights. Me personally, I've never even had a boyfriend yet, but I still would like to get married some day, and even have a kid! I used to be so against kids it wasn't even funny. It's just very odd to me (not kids, the church thing). You'd think churches (with the exception of the people who just despise gay people) would actually be promoting gay marriage! It's gay monogamy (relatively anyway, even straight people cheat)! Since obviously the views being spread around are that gay people just go around doing it with every other gay person they meet, passing around AIDS like it was candy, etc. Is it really that difficult to accept someone just because they have a different lifestyle than themselves? Just because an idea is popular doesn't make it right. Slavery was based on the fact that those stupid white people claimed that God 'gave' black people to them to do as they saw fit, to use them as property. It was their "God given right". How f-ed up is that?! The religious people thought that!! They must have had a different bible than I do, since I thought the bible was all about love one another. And then later what do we have? People finally realized that slavery was wrong from the get-go and it was abolished, but not before a lot of bloodshed and turmoil. Why you ask? Because people are afraid of admitting when they are wrong. It must be a genetic flaw or something. I will 'always' say when I'm wrong, heck, it's one of my catch phrases! I just hope it doesn't take a long time for people to realize that being gay isn't wrong and will finally recognize us as human beings and give us the same rights as other "normal, straight" human beings. -- chris

"Just because an idea is popular doesn't make it right." (heh, sorry, I just think that quote applies true enough to be at the bottom, for emphasis at the least)

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