weBLOG for November 29th, 2006
"Are you stalking me? Because that would be super."
I felt kinda negative the last time, and that quote, from the movie Pulp Fiction, came to mind. There are just some times, even though we'd like to think of the world as Sunshine and Rainbows, is not the way the world really is.
And I apologize for having left you all for so long. I've been meaning to put this down for the last couple of days, but I'm trying to become less nocturnal so I can get more sleep.
I swear I'm doing better than I have been in the past. I'm no longer crazy-psycho(well, not AS crazy-psycho), but I still get these bouts of need. God, isn't it awful, that us human beings actually NEED other people?
Well, since most of my friends are at least almost a thousand miles away, I've been trying to make friends where I work. My boss has become a good friend, and I've been able to befriend the other brown person at work. But there's one.
There's one girl at work that I've been trying to make time with. She seems like a girl that I can really talk to. And as you who know me recognize, sometimes all I want is someone to talk with.
I don't blame her. I can come across as weird, and the poor girl probably thinks I'm trying to make the moves on her. She avoids me at most turns, and ignores me at the others. She's even given me the look.
I've read in a book somewhere that people often give this look to someone they dislike. This look, when a person squints their eyes and gives a fake, toothless smile, resembles a look that animals in nature give each other when they are ready to fight. I've gotten that look.
It figures, I figure out how to deal with having a woman as a friend, and this bird runs from me worse than if I really were trying to date her. Oh well.
And speaking of "trying to date her", it seems that fate has intervened once again. I won't be taking this trip I was expecting. They say that things happen for a reason. By this rationale, some things don't happen for a reason, also. Perhaps I would have witnessed or experienced something that my newborn understanding and reasoning couldn't have handled.
Never the less, whence we meet again, we will both be on home turf.
More to follow.
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