weBLOG for July 29th, 2004

The first major appearance of Tobey McGuire in a film can be spotted in the motion picture, "Pleasantville." Yesterday's line is from that movie, a classic uttered by J.T. Walsh, may he rest in peace.

So, there are two types of losers in the world; there are good sports, and there are sore losers. And as much as I feel like being a little punk bitch, my good upbringing kicks in and I lose graciously.

It's tough to think of it as losing, per say. I could have won something, but I didn't lose anything(well, an opportunity maybe). And was it winning anything at all? If anything, I was looking for something to be given to me. It wasn't, and while I'm not worse off, I'm not better off either.

And what bothers me the most is that I feel slightly cheated, in a way. Her two ex's, while not completely bad guys in general, are fucking assholes that went ahead and hurt this fabulous woman because they couldn't see her majesty. And here I sit, just giddy to receive her radiance, and if I didn't know her already, I wouldn't get the time of day from her.

I know that life isn't fair, but it seems to me that when it comes to my love life, life has been downright hostile towards my ass. I don't understand it, and I'm through trying to. I don't know if I'll ever get what I deserve, but will it ever be what I want.

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