weBLOG for July 28th, 2004

So few people understand the majesty that is the movie, "Ravenous." Good performances by Guy Pierce and Robert Carlyle with some pretty witty dialogue. Anyway, I liked it.

A few days ago, I finally had something settled for me. I don't know if you all remember how the other day I was scared to know that someone would pass up what they wanted and settle for me. That's been my fear.

And now I've had it confirmed for me that I will never be the grand prize. No more illusions for me of just having low self-worth, now I know that everything I've been thinking for the past ten years is true. I'm not the big money, or the new car that you can win on a game show. I'm the zonk prize. I'm the whammy.

And it's just refreshing knowing this. Now, I never have to sit through people trying to make me feel better. Now I never have to put myself in situations where I can be rejected, because now I know I will be.

There's nothing left for me to do now but sit back, and just wait for a woman to be rejected by a number of suitors. And then, when she's given up on life and on ever being happy, she'll see me and figure, "What the hell?"

Happiness? What's that?

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