weBLOG for July 17th, 2004

I think more people should sympathize with bad guys. Aside from the fact that they always have great lines, they're also people who just wish to fulfill their desires, no matter how crude or base they are. I read somewhere that the bad guy is the hero of his own story. And with that in mind, I chose a line said by Agent Smith in the movie "Matrix: Revolutions."

Some of you who know me know that I have a very good memory. The rest of you who know me know that I'm smart, but that goes back to my memory, also. And while in past blogs I have cursed my memory, I'm glad that I have it. And the reason why I'm so glad that I have my good memory is because all of my memories are stored up there.

While you people out there in Internet-Land can go into your photo albums and look at the happy times of the past, recalling stories of mirth and joy, I can't. I didn't buy my first photo album until 2 years ago. And while I've had several cameras in my lifetime, for some strange reason, my friends hardly ever let me take pictures of them.

In high school, I knew this girl, and we were great friends. I was her confidant and anchor (not the first time I would be this to a girl, and certainly not the last), and she loved me in her own way. Now ask me if I have a picture of her.

Hell, even my ex-girlfriend, who wanted me like no other, who would still stalk me to this day if she knew where I was; never let me take a picture of her.

I don't have pictures of people I cared very much about, and it pisses me off.

Maybe I cared more than I was cared about.

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