weBLOG for January 17th, 2007

Roberto Benigni is a comic genius, not just in Italy, but the world over. He won an Oscar for staring in the movie I quoted last time, "Life Is Beautiful", and it makes you laugh as much as it makes you cry.

Now, I would like to apologize to you folks. I, am a nincompoop!

After plotting and planning about finishing my 100th blog just as the year was ending, I fell asleep at the wheel and left you all high and dry for nearly three weeks. Now, it's January 17th, and blog 100 will probably come sometime in the next seven days. God, I'm such a shmuck.

Now, I'm going to spend some time talking about the healing power of God.

And no, I'm not talking about the whole zealous belief that God can cure you of anything as well as modern medicine can. I'm talking about how God can heal a fragile psyche.

For instance, on Monday, I was on the verge of a collapse brought upon by jealousy and envy; the kind I was famous for WAY before I went to California. So, I called on God, admitted that my tank was on empty after not having been to see Him for three weeks, and asked for some temporary fortitude to get me through not only that time, but the week ahead as well. And like that, I was calm and centered. My state of dejection had evaporated, and once again I was enjoying the company that I was in.

Is it a coincidence that this worked? Hell no!

But now, something different.

After eleven years, the light bulb finally turned on. I get it now. I guess it's cause we needed to be truly honest with each other. Or maybe it's some of that fortitude and wisdom I asked God for on Monday. Whatever it was, I finally understand, and I can appreciate our friendship better. I just wish I had gotten a dose of this years ago.

Whatever. Like I said the other night, like everything in the past, there are lots of things that could have been done differently; but alas...

And now we try to concentrate on reforming our lives.

My dearest friend got me a book on Vices. And while it doesn't try to make light of the seven deadly sins, it does say how different vices had a hand in shaping the world we live in today. And in our drive to live our lives as virtuously as possible, we've lost some of the drive and fire that made the world what it is.

So, with that being said, I'm going to try to slide a little more of the Seven into my life.

Oh sure, I've always hoped that a LOT more Lust would enter my life(like back in California, with a particular co-worker of mine), but I need to round out the vices I have.

I've splurged on Gluttony, Prodigality(often included with it's opposite, Avarice), Envy and Sloth; but I've been stingy with Lust, Wrath and Pride. Four out of Seven ain't bad, I know, but I could be doing a whole lot better.

I'm not saying I want to break any[more] commandments, but I just don't want to feel like I missed out on anything. After all, like it says in that book I received, you can't give up something you've never had.

Who knows, I might even make it back to California and get to catch up on that Lust with that ex-co-worker of mine.

God sure knows what He's doing with me.

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