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Now, don't get me wrong here. Today's weblog arises not out of spite or disappointment, but rather it arises from enlightenment.
I got to thinking today how I had changed from when I was a teenager. And the main thing that had changed about me was that I am no longer as spiritual as I was when I was younger. When I was fifteen, I actually gave thought to becoming a priest(and not because I wasn't getting laid, sickos!).
Then, I had my little spiritual crisis, and for a while, I wasn't on speaking terms with God. My unwavering faith slowly crumbled, and I found myself questioning why things on Earth happened with God at the helm.
I eventually got over it. God welcomed me back with open arms(as if it were any other way), and I got used to the existence of free will over predestination. Or, as I quoted in a weblog a few days ago, "What we choose is our destiny."
But I still am not as spiritual as I used to be. I think more about the temporal than the spiritual, and I think that is what makes me unhappy most of the times. Therefore, a change is in order.
The time has come. Time to stop thinking about sex, and drinking, and drugs and tatoos and piercings. Time to strengthen body, mind and soul. Time to focus on me.
Truth is, only I can make myself happy and unhappy. Only I can disappoint me, and make myself proud. Only I know what I truly want, and need. It's time to stop pinning these on other things, and other people.
Friends and women; they can't make me unhappy or disappointed. Drugs and alcohol can't make me happy or give me what I want. And, if there's something I want to express, something I want to tell the world; I should do it with my writing, and not with body mutilation.
When twelve of the first 17 days of the year have made you feel like dogshit, it's time to make some changes.
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