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The quote from Tuesday was from the movie "Bachelor Party", with Academy Award winning actor Tom Hanks! Check it out, he's hilarious in it. "Thank You for being Catholic, and for choosing the Saint Gabriel's School Bus."
I did something brain dead involving a very pretty, and very intelligent girl; but that doesn't seem to matter right now. Besides, what's new, eh?
What matters is that something almost happened to my mom today that would have changed her irreparably, and perhaps killed her. After that, acting retarded around a girl doesn't even matter, but it should.
I've gotten used to my mom being around all the time. My siblings, finally, are off doing their own things. And I've always been the more independant one. After all, I lived for a year with only my oldest brother. But after having grown attached to my mom again, and having gotten used to having no friends or girls around, I don't know what I'd do if she got very sick, or if she died.
I mean, I would probably ignore the pain by focusing on my niece and nephew; but they won't need me forever, and when they're ready to let go of me, I'll finally have to deal with the loss of my mother. And after the shitty father I had, I've pretty much just had my mother for a majority of my years.
And then, if I think it's shitty not having friends or a girl right now; after that sort of loneliness, it'll be a kick in the nuts. And I don't think I'll ever be Zen enough to not feel that loss.
Warm fuzzies all around!
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