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I have to disagree with those that say the holiday season is the time when people feel the loneliest. It isn't the holidays, or any holiday for that matter, that can make people feel like unwanted animals from the city shelter about to be put up for euthanasia. For me, nothing makes you feel any lonelier than seeing someone you know with someone else.
It doesn't have to be someone you have feelings for. It could just be a friend, but as soon as you see them hooked-up, and you don't have anyone remotely close, forget about it. Next stop: The Doldrums, and you have an express ticket.
You do what you can to try to wish nothing but the best for other people(Well, I do, I don't know about the rest of you). You don't want to upset the balance of your Karma(or that "Do Unto Others" belief, if you're expressly monotheistic), and yet you can't help but feel jealous/envious of the people you know. You want to see them fail and get hurt, that way they can feel the way you do; and yet, you want to see them be happy, and maybe settle down with a true someone they love.
I used to be optimistic and hopeful, and I used to believe that love was within grasp of everyone. Now I'm cynical and fatalistic, and I KNOW that love isn't in the cards for everybody. I try to be nice and zen, and just accept the fact that I'm going to be alone or lonely for a great part of my life; but I'm only human, and it still hurts to know that you're one of the poor bastards who can't catch a break in this world.
It would be at this time that I would normally tell you folks to focus on everything positive in your lives, but I'm too bitter for that. My advice is that you focus on one thing that gets you through your day, whether it be beer or hockey, and just live on that if being happy eludes you. Just know that there are other poor souls out there that also have trouble smiling on a daily basis.
This is Chris Granholm, signing off.
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