Miraclebaby

The Miracle Baby

�Your Sins have obstructed the vision of God�s face�. Is 59.2

It was an evening. I was preparing for prayer. I have heard the door bell.
Emily came with her husband. Emily ( Real name is withheld to respect the
privacy of the person concerned) was a practicing nurse. She appeared sad.
Her face told the tale of a heavy heart. Emily�s husband tried to be
pleasant but reflected an inner wound.

Her husband was well informed
�We like to talk with you� Emily insisted.
We sat down to talk. We prayed to the revealing Spirit of God. Holy Spirit
is the revealing Spirit of God. In the Holy Spirit we are set free.
During that amazing sharing I felt a heavy down pour of God�s grace
on Emily and her husband. Those were specially set and anointed moments
of healing.

Emily shared how she sinned against God. That didn�t take much time
for her to open up her inner self although her husband was present. � I have
told my husband everything about my past life � Emily clutched his hands and
said. Emily couldn�t control the tears. She shared with him her life and
it was a great miracle that her husband although he went through a lot of
inner conflict, stood by her pain and punishment. They had no children although
they were married for ten long years. They lost all hopes of getting a
child naturaly

.

Emily shared how she and her ex-boy friend who was much younger to her had
an illicit affair. She was pregnant twice and both the times she underwent
abortion, without her former boyfriend�s knowledge and consent.

�I didn�t want to let him know that I was pregnant for fear that he might
ask me to keep the baby. I loved him but I didn�t want to marry him. That
was just for fun� Emily said.

In due time they parted ways. She doesn�t know the whereabouts of her
ex-boyfriend. �Possibly married�. Now she feels that she should have told him
about the two abortions she underwent. She fears that God might be punishing
him too for their sins. As we journeyed through the healing process of
asking pardon from the aborted children she cried bitterly. She now realized
that God knows us by our name. � Before I formed you in the womb I knew you.
Before you were born I have dedicated you� Jeremiah 1.3

Emily realized that God formed her inmost being �you knit me in my
mother�s womb� Pslam 139.14.
One of the remarkable ways of healing the
inner self, if one is involved in abortion is asking forgiveness from God, from
self, and from the baby or babies that are aborted. One has to pray for both
the parents, the families of the parents, the people who are and were
accessories in the act of abortion. Special prayers have to be offered for
the conversion of the doctors and nurses and even the political wings that
propagate abortion and similar ignominious crimes of manslaughter.

In the process of healing the inner self, one needs to ask God to forgive
him/her for eliminating killing the unborn and defenseless children.
Abortion is premeditated murder. It is planned murder for convenience. One
might mistakenly state that he or she has ultimate power over her baby to
choose to let live or let die an unborn baby. The right thing for him/her.
But God is the ultimate author of life. We are just vessels that carry the
sublime gift the gift of life. God created us from nothing, giving us HIS
Eternal and holy breath, the spirit of God.

I think no one has the ultimate power over his/her body and mind. If we
think we own our body, we are walking in the wrong path. In such instances,
God is not the light in our path. How we could be the light of the world if
we carry darkness.

Name the Aborted Children

Coming to the faith journey of Emily and her husband, I would say in
effecting the inner healing, Emily has to ask pardon from God and then from
the child /children she aborted. I let her name the unborn, and aborted
children. She named the aborted children if they were either boys or girls.

Those were touching moments. When Emily called the children by their names,
for the first time in her life, I had goose bumps. I heard her say,
mentioning their respective names, son/daughter, �Mom loves you�. Then she
said � forgive mom. God gave you life but I have killed you�. When I have
heard Emily pronounce those words I remembered the very words of God �

Even if a mother forgets her child, I will not forget you. Upon the plam of
my hands I have inscribed your name� Is 49. 15-16.

I thanked the immense love of God towards me. I felt God�s love flowing
through me at that moment. I thanked God for protecting me and my life. I
thanked my mother for saving my life. I felt the love of my parents. I
myself felt being wanted and those were powerful moments for myself. If my
parents didn�t want me, I would never have seen light. My parents loved me
with the love of God and I cannot express my thankfulness no matter how much
I say � I love you my mom and my Dad�. My dad is in heaven as I go through
this emotional roller coaster of thankfulness as Emily went through the
amazing and healing love of God. I felt humbled and fulfilled in
ministering to this humble woman and her husband who sat with teary eyes facing me.

Emily said �Forgive your Mom�

It was empowering to help Emily say �Forgive mom. I was selfish. I didn�t know much about the seriousness of this act when I killed you. I was misled�. When I heard this powerful pronouncement, I said to myself, ignorance of the law doesn�t diminish the seriousness of any crime. One
could be ignorant of the law but that doesn�t alter the seriousness of the criminal act. I do understand Emily�s feelings. I let her say � My son/ my daughter, your Mom and Dad are sorry. Please pray for us. Your Dad doesn�t know that I have killed you in my womb where God placed you�

Emily now feels that she should have told her ex-boy friend that they had two children whom she killed for convenience. I felt as though she was looking at God saying. � Please pray for your Mom and Dad, who do not know how your faces look like. You might have looked like your Selfish and
sinful Mom or dad. Forgive us.�. She then turned and looked at the eyes of her husband �Please pray for your step Dad too. Please pray so that we will have a bay to love. Please pray so that you will have an younger brother or sister�

Emily, being childless after ten years of marriage grieves now. She wants
to lift the burden of punishment from her and her life. The burden is the
sin of aborting two of her children.

The doctors said that she would never have children. We prayed for a great miracle in her
life. Emily believed in miracles. She and her husband attended the whole retreat
and the Eucharistic Adoration. After the retreat, Emily and her husband came to see me.
They were joyful. �On the final day of the retreat I felt energized. I felt my God within my
body and Soul� she looked at her husband for confirmation �I have heard my
husband praise and thank God loudly during the Eucharistic Adoration and I
couldn�t control my tears as I saw him on his knees for my sins and in
ears. My God I love him�

�Yes we need a child badly� Emily�s husband said. We prayed. God listened
to our prayer. Medicine proved wrong in the face of the Spirit of God.
�After the Eucharistic Adoration, I felt that God will give me a child.� Emily testified.

Emily and her husband returned to see me another day. I was touched when I
saw them beam a wonderful smile. I have asked them why they were smiling
Emily said in tears � The Doctor said I am pregnant now. It is on the same
day of Adoration that my God lifted the punishment. I praised and thanked
my God. I will never sin again� Emily sobbed and cried while her husband
consoled her.

I praise and thank God for the miracle He does in the lives His people.
God doesn�t accuse people forever. Is 57.16. God is a forgiving and loving
father. � I saw their ways, but I will lead them and heal them� Is. 57.18

Emily and her husband left me rejoicing in the Holy Spirit. One of their
prayers is that their Miracle baby will always live Holy and Blameless in
the presence of God.

Praise the Lord.

Fr Thomas Mathew
February 17/2002