| 14 sep 2001 back from in & out. three patties. four buns. FIVE slices of cheese. yup. i ordered my cheeseburger (animal style of course), and followed it up with... a 2x4, animal style! yup. never ordered a 2x4 before, so i decided i might as well try it out. it was quite cheesy. the first bite was pretty much all cheese. ewwwww. they also gave me free fries for some reason, so suffice to say, i've got major food coma right now. i was debating whether i should stop by krispy kreme, but i decided that i already had enough shit in my system for the day. ugh. my stomach hurts. and i feel like sleeping. i'd go home if i didn't have a company-wide meeting to go to today at 5pm. last night, i was wondering if the WWF would put on its thursday smackdown show. apparently, they shut down their regular taping of the show on tuesday, but they opted for a live show instead. i appreciate their balls for going ahead with performing... and for the first time i've seen wrestling, they broke kayfabe. that term means that they broke character. despite all their character personalities, and the fact that some of the wrestlers were scripted to hate each other and stuff, they all came out in the beginning for the singing of the national anthem, which was done quite well by the ring announcer lilian garcia. and then, they had personal statements by the wrestlers, which was pretty impressive because some of the wrestlers actually were pretty eloquent. they spoke as their normal real-life civilian personas, and their wrestling names were even put in quotes, which i thought was a neat touch. it was sort of touching. the rock was near tears. near the end, i got a phone call. it was karen. we decided that we're going to continue with our trip to new york in two and a half weeks. i pray that nothing bad happens to us while we're out there, especially during the flights. i'm so fucking afraid of flying right now... i even thought about driving out there instead, not that it's a practical choice or anything. *sigh* i love hearing karen's voice. voices are pretty important, because it's something that i hope to be listening to indefinitely in a relationship. some girls have very unengaging voices... some are unemotional; other times it's just not sexy or anything. but karen's voice just makes me feel at ease; sometimes, while she's talking, i close my eyes and just listen to her words wash over me. of course, when i do that, i have to admit that i don't pay attention to what she's actually saying, because i'm just focusing on the timbre of her voice. you know what else is sexy? girls who can sing. there was one time junior year, when someone in our drawgroup (i forget who) had a birthday. and three of the girls that we were friends with... jen, lusan, and helen, came out with the cake or something and sang "happy birthday"... in harmony! all three were in a capella groups that year, and i just remember being kind of bowled over by how sexy that was. i have a horrible singing voice. which is one of the reasons why i hate karaoke. my singing voice is higher than my speaking voice, but for some reason, i can't keep it steady. my voice just breaks and cracks and isn't very consistent. that doesn't keep me from singing along (loudly, sometimes) when i'm by myself in the car, but i definitely don't do it in front of others, unless i'm extremely comfortable with whoever's there. you know a cute name? tiffany. yup. it just connotes massive doses of cuteness. random thought. well, not so random, if you secretly know my train of thought from "singing" to "tiffany." hell, i'll explain. basically, i was thinking about girls who can sing, and i thought about how sweet it would be if i fell asleep to a girl who sang me a lullabye. then, i thought about vienna teng's "lullabye for a stormy night" being a really pretty song to fall asleep to. and how at the end of it, this girl named tiffany sings along with her. and she has this really cute voice. so there you go. and that goes along with the fact that the cutest girl i saw at the taiko conference back in july was also name tiffany. i feel like i don't have a roommate anymore. jay is so busy... and that's complicated by the fact that he's either over at margaret's place afterwards, or she's always over here. which isn't bad, per se. because i certainly want to see my friends happy with their girls, but i just feel like i'm living alone in out place. *shrug* i'm not complaining or anything; it's just a chance in my virtual living arrangements. like last night, i was on the phone with karen when jay came in. he rummaged around for a bit, packed up his stuff, and headed over to margaret's. and before he left, he told me that since he's on call, the earliest i'll see him is saturday afternoon or something. damn! i wish i had talked to him more, but i didn't want to kick karen off the phone. i wonder how karen and i will meet at the airport. i don't know if security will let me meet her at the gate, now that it's all beefed up. they say that only ticketed passengers can get through the security gates now, and i bet once i get off the plane, i'll be ushered out of the place. so i gotta find a landmark or something at the airport where we can meet. i'm trying to convince karen to get her cell phone before she leaves, so at least we'll be able to call each other. damn! i don't even know if my cell will work in new york... it's not on a nationwide service. *sigh* in terms of safety and my worries and my paranoia, i want this trip over with. it's not a good mental backdrop to hang behind a vacation with my favorite girl, you know? this distance that separate me and karen is driving me nuts. have a good weekend, folks. it's been a crazy sad week. |