| 25 oct 2001 what the fuck is up with _dawson's_ killing off the dad?� what, they just need some extra drama?� i hate how shows just make more and more problems for the characters to deal with, as if real life isn't already enough enough drama.� sheesh, man.� ok, maybe the actor wants to get off the show... but if that's the case, then it's just a shame, because they certainly didn't need for this to happen. and, i'm pretty pissed off at the _felicity_ teasers now.� like last night, they hinted that the whole episode would be about ben finding out about felicity cheating on him, but none of that happened!� what the fuck?� that pisses me off... it's fraud!� it's false advertising!� fuckers... after _dawson's_, i tried to watch the _west wing_... you know, that whole "dardy tries to get more political and stuff" movement.� but, damn, i started watching, and i just had no fucking clue what was going on, so i just couldn't handle it.� hence switching back to _felicity_. but, i _did_ watching _law and order_ instead of _southpark_.� interesting statement about diamonds and how some diamonds are obtained in the backdrop of civil wars and violence.� "blood diamonds" they're called.� and how allegedly diamond corporations don't want any publicity because they don't want negative sentiments surround the stones to make their way into consumer hands, thus depreciating their value.� plus, if diamonds really are as abundant as the show suggests, and the only reason why they're so damn expensive is because of monopolies and supply control, then that's just a fucking shame. i forgot to set my alarm last night.� so wound up wondering why the hell the morning seemed so long, and then getting a call from william about whether or not i was playing basketball.� it was only then that i checked the clock, and it was 11:30!� damn.� if will hadn't called, i would have stayed in bed way past noon.� *sigh*� so i didn't even bother going into work until after basketball, resulting in me rolling just before 2pm.� god, they're going to fire me one of these days. i saw someone with a hickey today.� it amused me because i had just written last week that i thought they were one of the most illogical things in the world.� *grin*� but i'm happy for whoever got some lovin'. anybody else getting those annoying pop-ups advertising these wireless cameras?� and how come the ads always feature some woman wearing something semi-revealing?� what the fuck is that implying?� that you're going to set up your camera to spy on some girl?� sheesh.� (not that i would mind, but still...) ah, product marketing.� i wonder how much money these wireless camera people are paying major websites to advertise their stuff.� i mean, you can come up with a great idea and a great invention, but if nobody knows about it, it's as if it was never invented in the first place.� seed money.� that's what you need.� like, i've seen some ads on tv for some pretty cool shit, but without proper funding and marketing muscle, they're relegated to some cheesy 1-800 ad.� poor people. i have a friend, noriko, who has been in indonesia (or some place like that) for the past three years after graduation.� and apparently, because of the attacks of something, the program was forced to just shut down, resulting in noriko packing up and coming back to the states. she mentioned about having developed "roots" in a certain place and then being yanked out of there.� and how she knows someone who wants to move every three years so he doesn't feel too attached to any one place or any one group of people. and i'm totally not like that.� i love the idea of having roots.� and settling in cozily into a place with buddies and mental landmarks and stuff like that.� i mean, i could honestly see myself living in the bay area forever (despite the fact that i don't think i'll ever afford a house here, which is a HUGE problem).� but anyways, i am really attached to my drawgroup and stanford and the peninsula.� and that's just how i am.� and that's why i have so much separation anxiety.� i cringe at the thought that jeremy or alan might move away.� i mean, i was pretty much depressed for well over a year and a half when we all moved out of brenton... and honestly, the only thing that brought me back emotionally was moving in with jay. somehow, i know that this isn't healthy.� while it's good to have roots, people (like my mom) remind me that things are ultimately temporary, and we can't depend on any sort of permanence, because that's just unrealistic.� and i think i have a hard problem letting go of that idea... my drawmates and i have fantasized about taking up a cul-de-sac somewhere, but honestly...� that'll never happen.� it's a beautiful comforting thought... but utterly ridiculous and impossible. speaking of separation, i think i've pretty much removed myself from the taiko scene.� and i don't feel bad.� just last year around this time, i was going through some personal hell because of taiko separation sadness, but this time around, i guess it's just taken care of itself.� i guess it's a good thing... it should have happened years ago, but i guess it's never too late to make my peace with saying goodbye to something i loved. shit.� i just remembered that i haven't had lunch yet.� oh well.� i'll try to fill my stomach on dp.� i hope i get to have dinner with jay today.� he was on call last night, so i haven't seen him since tuesday night.� he wants balls.� (heh.� balls = pearl milk tea.) oddest thing yesterday.� i felt like puking yesterday, so i started heaving in the parking lot.� but nothing came out.� what's wrong with me?� i'm dardy, the guy who can yack at will!� i felt all embarassed because one of my coworkers saw the whole thing.� he was pretty concerned, so i told him i was sick or something.� but damn, that chinese food i had for lunch yesterday was nasty.� i'm never going back there again. i don't like the new ADA on _law and order_.� she seems more like a sidekick than a powerful attorney.� the only ADA i really watched for any length of time was abby carmichael (played by angie harmon).� she was pretty ruthless hard-edged.� she had personality.� did you know that she went to a neighboring high school from mine? i'm going to stacks on sunday.� *slurp*� i love the fact that they're the only breakfast place where i don't have to order two entrees to get full. the big bummer is:� it's gonna rain this weekend.� so much for me hiking the stanford foothills and mulling over stuff.� *argh* what am i excited about?� the _buffy_ musical!� jay tells me that _the simpsons_ and _drew carey_ have already done a musical format, but for some reason, it just seems more out of place on _buffy_.� out of place in a good, wacky, goofy way.� i can't wait to see spike sing.� heehee. |