| 24 oct 2001 tuesdays are starting to be my favorite night of tv.� i start off with taping _buffy_ for emi at 8, followed by the _frasier/scrubs_ combo at 9, and _real world_ at 10.� although, i'm starting to develop a conflict during the 9 o'clock slot... because i was flipping channels, and i found _smallville_ to be really interesting.� for those of you who don't know, it's about the teenage life of clark kent (superman, duh), and him growing up and facing his realization that he's destined to be something greater.� and a neat twist is that he's actually got a friend in lex luthor, which is cool.� i dunno. i hate it when i'm drawn by two different shows at the same time.� because i wind up flipping back and forth, and i don't get to enjoy either show fully...� i'm always missing parts of this segment, a part of another segment, and i get this piecemeal experience that turns out to be largely unsatisfying. but anyways... check out _smallville_.� tuesdays at 9 on the WB.� i can't decide if that lana girl is cute or not, though.� she looks half asian or something, which usually means she's HOT, but i dunno... there's something weird about her. i'm struggling with work these days.� i actually am kind of in charge of testing out the chip i designed, and i'm just not feeling peppy and motivated enough to do it.� i'm still coming into the office hella late, and i don't get around to the lab until the early afternoon, which makes me seem totally slackerlike.� *sigh*� i've been used to coasting at the job for so long that i can't remember waht it takes to get going again.� inertia is a bitch, i tell you. i haven't barfed in two days.� i think it's a good thing.� well, i KNOW it's a good thing, but i just feel a little weird about it because i've been so used to my daily purging experiences.� i mean, i totally PIGGED out at korea house the other day, but i kept my food down.� i dunno.� i guess i'm just surprised that for some insane reason, either my willpower is up, or my nausea is down.� and i can't explain it.� we'll see how long this lasts.� i just had a disgusting amount of greasy mr. chau's-type chinese food, and even though i didn't finish it, i feel kinda gross and food-coma-y right now. i can't stop rubbing my left eye.� which i know is really bad for me anyways, seeing as hands are like the most germ-ridden parts of our bodies.� but damn.� the eczema itches like a motherfucker sometimes.� i'm still using margaret's eucerin cream, which seems to be toning down the redness and swollenness, but still... it's not curbing the itching!� argh.� my dermatologist appointment is not until 12/17... who knows if i'll be either cured or blinded by an elephantitis eyelid by then.� and that's not even considering the fact that it's spread to my left cheekbone.� shit.� my entire face may be all eczema'ed out by then! but then again, i'm just lazy.� because i _could_ call the hospital every single day at 8:30 and check for cancellations.� but i'm just not motivated enough to do that.� shit.� 8:30?� are you kidding me?� ack. poor eric.� he's got some fucking idiots writing checks from his account.� how the hell they got a hold of his account number and information, i don't know.� some people, man... it's amazing how much work some people put into scamming other people's money.� and it just causes big headaches and nuisances.� what a pain in the ass to deal with, huh?� as if life already doesn't give you enough shit on your plate... not you have to deal with assholes trying to steal from you?� SHIT. i think today is a depressed day.� the phone call last night was just very unsettling.� i had shitty sleep... to the point where i don't even remember if i slept for a continuous period of now... and i certainly can't remember any cool dreams.� just a lot of tossing and turning.� so now i'm all tired and sleepy and stuff.� and that nasty-ass chinese food didn't help either.� and i have to go to lab and work all day in about half an hour.� *sigh* _dawson's_ is a chore to watch now.� it's just so different from the way it used to be.� it used to be about the innocence of high school love, and now it's just all messed up and ugly and tainted.� plus, they're in college now.� so it's lost that high school feeling (duh).� they might as well renamed the show or something, because it really doesn't have much to do with a creek or capeside or anything, really. yet, i still watch it.� how dumb am i. and don't even get me started on _felicity_.� i guess wednesday tv is not so good.� i feel like i should be getting into _west wing_ but i just am not interested enough to do it.� it's weird how we're loyal to things we shouldn't be loyal to, right?� i mean, why the hell do we watch _friends_ anymore?� the show and its writing sucks.� yet, we still clamor every thursday for the 8 o'clock NBC fix.� we human beings are silly creatures of habit. shit.� it's supposed to rain this weekend.� *sigh*� so much for hiking the foothills or playing golf.� *ARGH*� i guess i can read or something.� i swear, i'm totally illiterate these days.� every decent adult-audience novel feels like a john donne poem to me.� the last book i read?� harry potter #2.� shit.� i'm a juvenile! oof.� my stomach just churned.� i feel sick.� there's gotta be something evil about mass-produced chinese food.� yikes. saturday night in LA, we couldn't decide on a place to eat, so we sadly settled for... el pollo loco!� (sigh.� a whole city of good restaurants, and we eat at a fast food place).� anyways, i felt sick afterwards, so kate gives me some tums or something.� and an hour later, at this korean club, she asks me how i'm doing, and i'm actually fine then.� so she's happy that the tums worked for me (because she was preaching how amazing tums is), but i just didn't have the heart to tell her that the reason why i felt all better is because i snuck out to the bathroom and puked... just a random memory from this past weekend. ok.� i'm gonna to sulk for a bit over a cigarette.� i don't feel so good. |