| 29 nov 2001 something funky happened to my bank account. basically, i did a deposit on my check, and i finally decided to transfer some money into my empty savings account. (i put all my money in my checking account.) but last night, when i checked my status online, there were a few things completely whacko. first of all, my overdraft protection had triggered, which was weird. then, my checking account had a NEGATIVE $29 balance. and finally, it didn't even show that i _had_ a savings account, so basically, my money had disappeared! shit. so the first thing i did the afternoon when i woke up was head off to the bank and straighten it out. sheesh. and the worst thing is... i checked the interest rates on savings account... mine gets a whopping 0.75%!! shit! what's the point then? i got my second round at greenfield networks! tomorrow at 11. AND, while i was taking a nap this afternoon, caspian finally called! yup. i have a phone interview tomorrow afternoon. i was really psyched about caspian, but one of my coworkers (chi-kai) e-mailed me and said to be a little skeptical because they have a really high burn rate (270 employees). so yeah... in a way, that scares me a lot because i know that with even less employees, vivace had to have a layoff. and they've both raised similar amounts of money. so now i'm not so psyched anymore. i dunno. it's funny how one little fact like that can deflate a whole world of interest. i'm one more section away from finally finishing _the book of laughter and forgetting_. man. i don't know why people think this book is good. it's disjointed, it's got way too much random czech historical figures that don't really amount to much meaning... *shrug* i'm a big kundera fan, but nothing matched the incredible experience of reading _the unbearable lightness of being_. but i'm trying to finish this so i can continue _harry potter 3_ and start _the fellowship of the ring_. there was this section in the kundera book today that talked about a grown woman living in a colony of kids. and for some reason, the kids rape her. not like penetration rape, but they just crawl all over her body and explore it. weird, huh? i mean, i would say that if it were adults doing it, it would be kinky... but little kids... that's just plain fucked up. i just don't get pedophiles. speaking of pedophiles, did i say that the girl who plays hermoine granger is really cute? yes, she does overenunciate, but it's done in a cute way. she has a nice face. actually, all the main cast (ron, harry, hermoine) is really photogenic. word is the actor who plays harry potter (daniel radcliffe) hit puberty, so his voice broke. it started at the end of the filming for the first film, so for the second one (chamber of secrets), they're gonna have to do something special for his voice. i dunno... like digitally alter it or something? i thought about this whole job search, and if it weren't for other people helping me get my foot in the door, i'd be pretty much fucked. i mean, my old boss mohammad got me into cisco, my ex-coworker got me into greenfield, and another friend (bill) got me into caspian! so that really bugs me. because it takes a big hit on my illusion of self-sufficiency. i mean, if i have these acquaintances, then where would i be? and that scares the shit out of me. it's because i know i'm really bad at networking (the activity, not the subject), and i don't like the idea of depending on it. hm. yeah, i'm being a little unreasonable. i guess i should just work on accumulating business cards or something... it's part of the silicon valley life, right? wow. did anybody see _dawson's_ last night? dawson finally had sex! i was surprised that he took it to nonchalantly. which brings me to that whole "friends who fuck" thing. i know that it happens, but it just baffles me. hm. *ponder* i think the world would be much happier if it were more commonplace, that's all i say. but anyways, back to the show, i wonder if anything is going to happen between dawson and jen... i think the show's conscience might not want to make it seem like people can have sex with no consequences. i mean, back when pacey/andy and pacey/joey hooked up in bed, the next episode was all about how sex changed everything. you know one of the stupidest things on the planet? the magic 8-ball. it's cute and novel, but STUPID. when i was a kid, i really wanted a gerbil. not a hamster, but a gerbil. i dunno. they're cute little critters. but anyway, i wanted to spend all this money and build this habitrail maze all around my room. oh! and they have this thing called the freedom ball, like a big plastic ball where they can run around anywhere. some of my friends were really offended by it (i.e. a small cage that tricks the gerbil into thinking the world is free to roam in) but i thought it was cool. i mean, at least, the creature gets to walk around, right? i thought it was like being confined to a car... not optimal, but at least it gets to get around. but my parents never let me have a pet. i think i would have liked one. then again, i was kind of mean to my friend's hamster. we would put it in the freedom ball and kick it down the stairs. yes. i am evil. and i feel pretty bad. it makes me wonder if hurting other helpless creatures is inherent to our nature. like there's a fine boundary between curiosity and infliction of pain. ah. poor hamster. *sniff* i've become such a softie now. like i said yesterday, i used to love crunching insects and stuff. but now it just makes me sad. we used to watch tons of violent movies when i was a kid, too... like all of arnold schwartzenegger's stuff... and we'd keep track of the body counts and stuff as the movie continued. i forget which one, but one of his movies had a arnold-high or 41 people killed. but now... i'm not so fond of violent movies (except for john woo's old stuff). i think it might be because of movies like _saving private ryan_ which i admit was a great movie, but i don't think i can ever watch it again. it's haunting violence. people with guts hanging out, severed arms, heads blown off, and that knife scene... *shiver* one director once said that movie violence is "beautiful" because we all know it's fake... like, that's how i look at john woo's bullet ballets. but for some reason, some of spielberg's movies (_schindler's list_ and _saving private ryan_) just seem REAL to me. and then, the violence ceases to be beautiful, and it just freaks me out. one of my cravings: chili's southwestern eggrolls... *slurp* i'm meeting sonya after _friends_. maybe i can convince her to go to chili's with me. maybe. |