| 13 nov 2001 man. what do you do when a company you don't find "sexy" wants to talk to you? i dunno. i have to admit that i have a rather snobbish attitude toward companies. and this is NOT the time to be picky like that. and the worst thing is... i have no idea why i find certain companies sexier than others. (besides having a nice webpage, heh he.) but anyways, i just got off the phone with this company that claims to be doing something that is a "paradigm shift." and i might believe it, but my beef is this... sure, you can have great technology, even earth-shattering technology, but how are you going to get people to adopt it? it's like the sony minidisc in the US. it was cool and stuff, but the market just didn't take off. haven't done much today. i had to get up a little earlier to meet a friend of mine, emily, at the starbuck's on university ave. emily and i used to both work at teralogic, although she was in another building. but i had a lot of fun hanging out with her during the times we had, and playing ping-pong with her in the company kitchen. i'll have to admit that i had a little crush on her back then. *blushes* but anyways, i haven't seen her since like hm... early 2000, so it's been awhile. both of us are jobless at the moment, too. so we had our latte's and caught up and stuff. then we hit miyake for some sushi and said our goodbye's. i told emily about my journal and she expressed concern over being publically mentioned in this venue, which was really interesting to me because i want to know why some people are so reluctant or averse to being put up on the web. and she made a good point saying that some things she shares with people aren't meant to be shared with everyone else, so i respect that. so that's all i'm gonna talk about my conversation with her. yum. sushi. i came back at 1 or so and took a nice nap. for some reason, during the day, i can sleep with my watch (and clothes in general) on, but at night, i have to have nothing on me. it's weird, i know. but anyways, i have an interview on thursday with an "unsexy" company called vweb, and i just got off the phone with some person from cisco and another startup called pulsent. anyone heard of vweb and pulsent? pulsent's got a cool idea, but like i said before, i don't know if anyone will adopt their stuff. someone from nvidia is supposed to call me in half an hour. so that'll be cool. you know, i always wanted to work for a graphics company, at least that was my sentiment when i first graduated from stanford. luckily, i didn't, because there was a huge shakeout of 3d graphics company (look at 3dfx, sgi, etc.) and for some insane reason, a little startup called nvidia is ruling the graphics world now. i've passed by the nvidia campus in sunnyvale(?) on san tomas expressway a few times now. it looks cool. if i work there, i hope they have a cafeteria. i'm tired of having to go out every day to get fast food or something. oh, and the cafeteria has to carry odwalla. last night, i found out my manager at vivace is reading my journal now. at first i felt a little weirded out, but that was only for a brief moment. because you know, this journal is for everyone who wants to take the time to catch up on my life. and he's probably the nicest manager i've had, because even though i don't work for him any more, he's helping me look for a job and volunteering to give me pointers about my career and stuff. i'm quite flattered about it, actually. i just hope i don't say anything that might offend him. i think my parents were shocked to find that i cursed to much on my journal. my mom was like, "but you used to be this SWEET boy!" heh. _harry potter_ is coming out this friday. i hope it's good. my friend will tells me that there will be a continuation of the _star wars_ preview. dude. *shiver* *drool*. but one thing i'm wondering about is why there was so much controversy about the casting of harry potter. apparently there was like a huge movement or something to get a british boy instead of an american boy. what's the big deal? if the actor can pull it off, who cares what nationality he is? i guess j.k.rowling is fiercely british or something like that. you know, with all these companies' names flying about my head, there isn't one that is compelling. not one company where i go "ooh! they're cool! i want to work for them!" at least, not like the way vivace grabbed hold of me. i mean, everything from the webpage to the financial story to the people i was going to work with... the whole package was awesome. now, i just feel blah about everybody i talk to. like i have gripes with each one of them. like this company is unsexy. or that company is just another XXX company. or this one is already public. stuff like that. i guess i'm still demanding, even though in this job market, i shouldn't be too picky with where i go next. not much more to report. i hate the fact that it gets so dark so early these days. it's really depressing. no wonder people get bummed out during winters. i am starting to wonder if i'll be able to go home for thanksgiving. ideally, i'd like to not go on the main busy days, so i'd swing something like the tuesday to monday around the holidays. but i dunno. after that crash in new york, i'm all fretting about flying once again. man. but i really want to see my family, so ARGH. i just don't think i'll be able to get a job by then. maybe tonight i'll take a good hard look at my calendar and figure stuff out. i mean, i doubt companies will be operating during thanksgiving, so i might as well take the time off, right? i'm gonna boil dumplings tonight. and just pig out on some leek/pork dumplings and my favorite chinese hot sauce (chili paste with garlic). hot damn. ok. this is a short entry, but i gotta get off the phone and wait for the nvidia woman to call me. |