| 12 nov 2001 listening to nelly furtado's cd. it's not bad! i was debating whether i wanted to write today. usually, by the time 8pm or so rolls around, i'm firmly ensconsed on the futon watching my weekday tv. but hell, it's between the seinfeld/friends reruns and _ally_, (i don't like _boston public_), so i'm gonna write today. i woke up to the call of yet another headhunter calling me at 9am. oh yeah, before that, it was the sounds of heavy rain that kept me up. but anyways, this headhunter was really sugary sweet. she was like, "i saw your resume, and it is GREAT." and other stuff like, "i talked to you roommate... he's a great guy." and i'm like, huh? you don't need to saddle me with compliments. just get me a damn job, right? but anyways, so i'm back to having zero prospects. although for some reason, with a little flurry of e-mails i've been getting from people i know who are willing to help, i'm feeling not so bad. i swear, my boss at vivace is such a great guy. and the whole thing with leaving vivace that makes me sad is that there are so many fucking SMART guys there. and nice people, too. it's always a little bumming to leave a good company, because so many places are saddled down with morons and mediocrity. but anyways, i spent the early afternoon having lunch with my ex coworkers at vivace. i had some reservations about going back there so soon, because i thought that i might get sad and upset about facing the place that cut me only two weeks ago. i admit, it was a bit surreal to walk in there knowing that i was a VISITOR. i swear, i had my heart set on working at vivace indefinitely. *sigh* but we went to korea house at my suggestion, and it was pretty good seeing everyone again. they were all supportive, wanting to know what kind of mood i was in, telling me about companies i should look into, and stuff. i ate way too much jap chae for my own good... they were kinda cold, so the grease really took into effect. i felt a bit sick, and i didn't have the strong showing that i usually produce when it comes to eating food. oh. yesterday, jay, margaret and i watched _shallow hal_. it was ok. i think that it comes down to be kind of offensive. i man, the whole premise is that fat people are unattractive, and they have to depend on "inner beauty" to attract people. which is really upsetting to me if i really think about it. i mean, gwyneth paltrow's character supposedly oozes inner beauty, and the movie shows that by portraying the inner her as thin. yes, i may be taking this a little too literally, because her thinness is simply a metaphor that contrasts from her "ugly" fat real self... but shit. isn't that an incredible superficial bias? *shrug* anyways, i do think jack black is a good actor. did you know he's also one half of the music duo tenacious d? i _thought_ i recognized his face when the band showed up on mtv. oh. and since i had watched gwyneth on SNL the previous night, i think i'm in the midst of a minor gwyneth-crush phase. she's just so talented, and i really dig her melancholy look. even though she's blonde (i don't really like blonde women). but anyways, i guess i'll just say i admire her, and i find her quite sexy sometimes. but just not as sexy as liv tyler in that _LotR_ preview. after lunch today, i spent the whole afternoon with jay, which was really refreshing because i don't recall the last time we hung out during the day. usually he works during the day, but he got a break due to veterans day. let's see... we went to a lot of places and ran errands. first, we stopped by valley fair. i finally got a navy blue v-neck sweater! i found it at the gap, and luckily for me, it wasn't the typical a&f muscle fit, so it was nice and big and comfy. then, we just hit places and were in & out. first, we went to marshalls so jay could pick up some bbq utensils (he bought a grill yesterday, and he's stoked about it). and then a korean market for some bulgogi or kalbi or something plus other food stuffs, and then full house for some dumplings and my dinner ($5.40 for a big rice place... great deal!), and then new castro market for my favorite chinese hot sauce, and then safeway for random stuffs. i don't mind the driving. but i just mind the fact that it gets dark so early. i mean, it was like 6, and pitch black in the sky. very depressing. i hate winter. except for november. speaking of that, i have to remember to play guns n' roses's "november rain" tonight. it's a ritual of mine... the first time it rains in november, i always play that song. i think it's the band's opus magnus, sort of like "bohemian rhapsody" for queen. damn. i really want to land a job before thanksgiving, so i can go home (dallas) with some peace of mind. otherwise, i'll be worried that companies will have hired someone if i'm at home, and i can't take their calls (my cell phone doesn't work in dallas). shit. RAAR. i gotta start eating more regularly. i was reminded today by my coworkers that eating one huge meal a day is not going to do good things for my metabolism. although, that whole thing about eating an entire pizza in one sitting is just so satisfying... i don't know if i can pass that up. maybe i'll reduce its frequency to at most one every two weeks or something. i have a phone interview tomorrow. shit. i hope it goes better than it did with teradiant. *sigh*. oh yeah. i have a problem in that i use companies' webpages to judge them. like, when i saw vivace's webpage, it was such a beautiful shade of green that my heart was set on the company from the start. isn't that so shallow of me? but anyways, i saw this other webpage (which i can't link off the top of my head right now), and it just looked so low-tech and lame that i thought the company was stupid. but today, one guy at lunch told me that they were doing some cool stuff, so... that just shows me... i gotta lay off putting so much importance on the company's webpage. *shiver* ooh. i'm so ready for a grueling interview. i want to get it over with. whoops. i should have bought some altoids when i was at safeway. |