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| 12 may 2001 so that's alan on the right and me on the left, playing the idiotic inane crazy video game called "final furlong."� yup.� it's a horse-racing game.� too bad there isn't a video clip of us flailing away and going nuts on the mock equine creatures.� heh. those are my old glasses.� i call them my "korean glasses."� i usually wear my black plastic "japanese glasses," but i do switch around sometimes. so it was alan's 27th birthday.� all my friends are older than me because i skipped grades and started school early and all that... so i'm 25, and my friends are all about a year and a half older than me. the picture above was taken at dave and buster's.� it's an interesting place and concept: an entertainment center for adults.� i think what it boils down to is that it's for people who want to feel like they're at a party, but don't want to dance.� so there are video games.� pool tables.� multiple bars.� casino games.� stuff like that. A-HA!� people now have an idea of what i look like!� hee hee.� finally, the main purpose of buying my digital camera has been fulfilled.� although, i had to admit that i'm using this stupid geocities editor, and it can't seem to handle having jpeg files that are not in the main directory, which is a problem for me because i put all of my pictures in a /jpg subdirectory. ----- i've been sleeping a lot lately.� i went to chi-kai's fabulous multimillion dollar house in los altos hills for a group barbecue celebrating the taping out of our chips.� it was a quaint event, and i came back at 7pm and took a nap. before i talk about what was nagging me, i'll have to say that chi-kai's house is fucking amazing.� it's on a 1.25 acre lot, although i think it seems much bigger than that.� the house itself has like four different horizontal planes, and it's got all these neat nooks and crannies.� there' s a hot tub, many decks, and... a FUCKING ORCHARD.� i mean, it's like a huge plot of land for planting shit!� sheesh. i think what i said summed it up perfectly... "this house should be on MTV cribs!!" seeing that house made me realize that i am so far away from that.� i mean "that" as in the house itself.� the money needed to procure something like that.� i am dirt poor, man, compared to chi-kai.� and even though i wouldn't want that same house (it's too far away from civilization; i need my mcdonald's and blockbuster), it was just a harsh reminder that i have a lot for work for in my life if i want to have a home i'm proud of.� chi-kai's done well for himself. i also met his girlfrirend, setsuko, or "set" for short.� she's really cute, and an amazingly nice.� and she's really good with desserts!� i heard that she works part-time in a restaurant making desserts, so it really showed.� i do remember for a short flash being sort of jealous/appreciative of two things chi-kai had... his house and setsuko.� but the little jealousy tinge only stayed briefly. so.� here's what bugged me. ok.� so during my nap, i kept thinking about setsuko.� no no no, i'm not infatuated with her.�� it's just that her face reminds me of this girl i know, letitia. i first saw letitia my junior year in the kimball dining hall.� i remember her wearing black.� well, she wears a lot of black, i guess.� but anyways, she had this REALLY cute face, and i immediately asked my friends who she was.� they remarked that she had a sort of "ice" reputation. i met her a few rare times while i was still in school, and we never got past simple platitudes on those occasions.� i did get to know her better during a brief flurry of e-mail and a few meals after i graduated, but soon letitia moved back to the east coast after she graduated. i vividly recall the one time letitia called me up... i was completely surprised, because it was like a 2am her time!� but anyways, she had some guy problems, and i was kind of flattered that she picked me to vent to.� it wasn't anything deep or eventful, but i remember that phone call fondly. i haven't talked to her in over a year. so here's the deal: letitia is the one person in my life who i regret not knowing better.� have you ever had those kinds of people in your life?� the ones that flit in and out of your sphere, but never really touch, and you just wonder... "what is she like?" and it seems like life is teasing you with some opportunities for contact, but takes them away by changing the circumstances? yup.� it's not really a heartbreak kind of feeling (like the ones i feel about kristie and karen), but more of a "DRAT" kind of feeling, like you missed out on something you know you could have really liked?� you know that i hate missed opportunities. so i guess i would label it as a HUGE regret.� it doesn't haunt me, but i guess seeing someone who looks like her reminded me of the fact that i really want to know what letitia is like... i have a feeling that she's a really rad person. using the patented dardy litmus test of whether or not i can picture her face... i can't... and i never could remember her face.� so that means that i like letitia more than i think.� hee hee. |