| 1 may 2001 hello there! i'm feeling kinda good about today, because i was actually able to focus a bit and do some work... nothing intense like coding, but just some documentation on the new revised blocks that i'm going to modify and design. documentation is possibly the most boring part of being an engineer. the true joy comes from designing and creating something new, but documentation... it's 100% hindsight. well, not really, since i now have to document before i proceed with the design. but honestly, putting techie ideas into silly words and diagrams is just ass-painful. yes, yes, i know it's really important, because the knowledge has to be transferred eventually lest you be stuck babysitting your block for the rest of time... and for those people who don't document and then leave the company... they're fucking their ex-coworkers royally. ----- oracle (ORCL) at $16. i made my first stock purchase in a while. this whole stock market crash has made me really scared of touching my money for fear of losing most of it again, but i think the lesson here is not to avoid the market, but to take it seriously and not disrespect the power of investing. yeah, you can earn lots of money, but in the same instant, you can lose most of it as well, which is what happened to me. yup... three+ years of working, and barely any savings to show for it. fuck me. the grand delusion was that i was doing ok for some time, but i thought that it was me and my grand financial acumen... but the reality that any idiot could have done what i did, so that's the brutal slap in the face i got in 2000... ----- here's something i've told my friends... the best e-mailers, not just the good ones, but the best ones, change the subject lines when they write a blitz. yup. it's a little thing that shows me that the e-mailer cares enough about the overall packaging to set the initial tone of the letter in the subject line. i can't tell you how many "Re: blah blah" e-mails i've gotten. while it doesn't irk me like a pet peeve, it does please me just a little bit to see an original subject once in a while. ----- i'm a stickler for recycling cans. i can't say that i'm a true environmentalist because i'm sure that i do a bunch of stuff that's bad for the environment, but when there is an obvious choice between recycling cans or just throwing them away, i'm pretty strict about it. i was in a coworker's cube today eating those chinese licorice-flavored watermelon seeds, and i spied three soda cans in his trash. i didn't hesitate to pick them out of his trash and place him on his desk, and then proceed to scold him heartlessly about not recycling. my other coworker was aghast at the fact that i sifted through his trash. but he was missing the point! sheesh. ----- st. etienne rules. i'm listening to a double-cd compilation of remixes of various songs by saint etienne. it's not exactly the best stuff, because you know how remixes can get monotonous and stuff. but it's still good. did i mention how st. etienne was the absolute happiest concert i've ever been to? everyone was just bouncy bouncy happy. it was like musical utopia. ----- i'm a bad boy. i was in a dream heaven this morning, and i didn't want to leave. i was kissing this girl who kind of looked like clare. or my ex karine. a kind of roundish shaped face. with soft lips. since it's like 6:30 in the afternoon, my memory of a dream i had this morning is pretty fuzzy. i vaguely remember a red sweater. and me touching her breasts (not groping, but gently squeezing). and me mouthing the words "i love you." i dunno. i don't get these kinds of dreams often. anyways, it was a nice dream, and i was able to flit in and out of consciousness and continue my dream. so i stayed in bed until almost noon, when my cell phone rang and my friend told me we were playing basketball... so i drove to my old company, played basketball, and finally got into work around 2:30. i'm so bad. they should fire me. :) i am going to start setting the alarm today. i'm all for being lazy and getting enough sleep, but 12 hours is pushing it way over the edge. it's gotten to the point where i barely eat anything for lunch because i'm not hungry... after all, i just got out of bed! shit. ----- oh. my streak of watching every single WWF pay-per-view and eating an entire pizza at the same time is still alive. i had doubts about this past sunday, because i'm not really interested in pro wrestling anymore, nor am i capable of eating a large pizza in one sitting. but out of pure continuity's sake, i sat down at 5pm and turned on WWF backlash... and i promptly called up round table and ordered a MEDIUM pepperoni rostadoro. yeah, i'm a fucking wimp for ordering my first medium pizza in like 5 years, but at least i know myself and what my limits are. the pizza was pretty good... a lot of garlic, which i love. i only wish it were more pungent. but anyways, yeah, good pizza. i can't say the same about the wrestling. i'm actually kind of ashamed that i used to like WWF so much. it's pretty stupid. i mean, i'm still impressed that these 200+ pound guys can fly at each other without getting hurt, which is the singlemost important skill in wrestling. but the storylines are just dumb now. so... the streak is still alive... it started in september of 1999. yup. am i a loser? or am i just a guy who depends too much on continuity? i mean, _dawson's creek_ kind of sucks now, but i still watch. so does _friends_. yet... i'm still loyal. loyalty without reason is kind of dumbfounding. |