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| 11 jun 2001 well, that picture above is the last (and only) picture of me in the old place, lenox.� i took it last friday night, the last night i slept over at the old place.� i was playing around with different exposure modes with my camera, because i'm having problems getting good quality pics in indoor/low light settings. so anyways, you can see the three posters i had up in my room.� my katie holmes poster, my reservoir dogs/mr. white poster, and my kmfdm _money_ album poster.� i really like the kmfdm one.� it's only got three colors (white, black, and purple), but it's a really effective picture.� too bad you can't see the whole thing... so my new roommie jay flew in today.� i showed him our new place, and we got lunch.� it's so refreshing to live with another one of my college buddies.� so of my 7 other guy pals, i've lived with alan, jack, jeremy, and now jay.� cool! i felt a little bad with the current state of the place.� my shit is strewn about the entire living room... a lot of boxes and bags and stuff like that.� i think the added pressure of jay being here will kick my ass into gear and get me to unpack and get rid of my stuff more quickly than if i were just by myself.� you know, i'm just lazy that way. there's a lot of stuff to do before our place is presentable.� furniture, decoration, cleanup, yada yada yada.� but now that everything's moved, i'm feeling pretty good about it. oh.� i still have to clean up my room at lenox, though.� and figure out what i want to do with the fishtank.� with that meanie feesh that lives in it. ----- last night, i went to the end of the year taiko dinner.� and yes.� i felt weird.� i really didn't belong there.� but anyways, there was one thing that i really appreciated. that thing was seeing jo-ann in a dress.� a strappy black and white flowered outfit with heels.� you have to realize that taiko people rarely ever see each other all dressed up.� when they practice, they're always just wearing shorts or track pants and t-shirts... with bare feet... so this end of the year dinner thing is the one annual occasion where every one busts out their best clothes for a night out. and jo-ann was just smashing.� the four senior girls drove out together in carol's van, and when jo-ann got out, i practically did a double take.� her hair is longer now, and not tied back in her usual style; it just flowed to her shoulders, and i could see her back, shoulders, and legs. skin is really tantalizing. i'll have to admit that i was staring at her a lot that night.� even though my feelings for her aren't there any more, i won't deny that last night was filled with "lust" moments.� i guess "lust" is a strong word, but it gets the idea across.� she was just downright YUMMY.� and i really dig that. ----- last night was possibly the last sunday conversation with emi.� the big wedding is next saturday, and after that, she's going to be busy with a l.a. reception, the taiko conference down in socal, her honeymoon with shoji, etc.� so it's like the end of an era!� no more chats with emi!� i wonder how many (if any) calls i'll make to japan to talk to her... i gets pretty expensive, i bet. last summer, i called jo-ann a couple of times while she was in singapore.� we didn't talk much, but somehow the phone bill came to $151 in that month.� i was totally shocked.� shit! i'm guessing that japan is just as expensive to call. ----- so after i talked to emi, i noticed that my computer back home wasn't showing the color red.� because i uploaded my pictures from the taiko dinner, and i noticed in one picture that ricky's lips were a sickly ghastly blue.� and then i fired up the picture on the top of this page, and my t-shirt came out all black.� hm.� no red?� how could that be? so i disconnected the monitor cable, and i noticed that one of the pins was all bent to the side.� luckily, a pair of plyers and a screwdriver for prying both came in handy, and i was able to straighten out the pin... i plugged it in, and presto! just as i was doing this, my cell phone rang in my bedroom.� i ran back to get it, and i noticed a houston area code.� holy shit!� it was karen!� i was totally ecstatic. so karen and i talked for a little over an hour.� it was like past 2am her time, so i totally appreciated her call.� i must admit, i neglect calling her during the weekends because i'm doing stuff during the day, and when night falls, i get a little scared that it's too late or something over in the central time zone. but anyways, we had a good conversation.� one interesting thing was when karen defined the words "introvert" and "extrovert," and i realized that i have gone completely from being an introvert to an extrovert.� i mean, i'm totally shy a lot of times, and i definitely am not that social, but the way she defined them was that an introvert draws his power from himself, while an extrovert draws his power from being around other people. so i've made a complete 180 degree turn.� when i first started college, i was totally an introvert.� i loved the idea of me by myself, not needing anyone.� but slowly, by bonding with my drawgroup and friends in gavilan, and especially through my relationship with kristie, i opened myself up a lot more.� and i came to decide that life is all about being with loved ones.� and i'm at the point now that the only times i crave are the ones spent with friends.� and of all human interactions, i am most empowered (by far) in a relationship with my girl.� so i've changed a lot in these past 9 or so years.� amazing. karen and i made informal plans to take a vacation together, probably (hopefully) at the end of september.� which is just FABULOUS, because i'm dying to see her.� i mean, she IS my girl of destiny, hee hee.� so we'll see.� i'll be totally looking forward to that if it is indeed going to go down. there were a few interesting jabs in the conversation where there were little shades that touched on a relationship between us.� something more than a friendship. like when i mentioned money and finances and stuff, and karen said, "well, you can take care of me then."� little things like that which made my ears perk up and my heart do a little bounce. i really want to be with this girl. interestingly enough, karen is an introvert (according to that definition).� and my opinion of her is that she is strongly independent, and her friends mentioned before how she would be really "good" at a long distance relationship.� unfortunately, like anybody normal, she would much rather prefer to be in a regular local relationship than a long distance one.� but as we were talking about that, i just wanted to blurt out "do it with me!� i'll be your long distance boyfriend!"� ah.� sigh. but it's really sweet when karen calls late at night.� i love the idea that as she falls asleep, i will be a part of her final memories of the day... i will be her bookend of the night. just lovely. |