| 6 jun 2001 hm. i don't feel like talking today. but i'll try. i guess it's a continuation of the doldrums i've been feeling this week. although, yesterday, after i finished moving some stuff to the new place (kitchen stuff, my suit, my stuffed animals, etc.) and i locked up the door to leave, i felt this rush of happiness and excitement. yeah. i'm happy to start a new life in the new place with my new roommate. i usually abhor change, because my lazy nature is most comfortable in a static environment, but i really think this move is going to be good for me. after moving, i stopped by mountain view and got two pearl milk teas (pmt). one for me and one for kate and jeremy. i stopped by their place, and jeremy was back at stanford studying for the impending finals week that starts on friday. i'm not sure if kate likes pmt, because she took a few sips of it and left it on the kitchen table. i know she thinks the rice ball component of it is really odd. especially the fact that the rice balls are BLACK. it never occured to me that it would be a little strange. but yes. i'm really sad that kate and jeremy are going to move to the east coast after this summer. they've been the center of the social circle because jeremy is always gung-ho about holding barbecues and getting everyone together. he works so hard to be the chef, preparing food and all that. and since they actually have a place where we can all gather, all the big social events in the past year or so have been at their place. i guess it's up for me and jay to host the gatherings once kate and jeremy leave. sigh. one more set of stanford buddies moving away. i just wish that jay won't have to be so busy with his residency. yup. it's like 2pm right now. i'm updating early today. which is a glaring sign that i really have nothing to do today. well, that's not true... i have some tasks to start at work (finally), but you might know how it is to have a long hiatus from real work, and how hard it is to get your brain in a constructive gear. for me, i haven't been working for quite a long time now, and i've become accustomed to this idleness. ARGH. SHIT. BOOOHAHAHAHA. sorry. i'm trying to be some blood flowing in my system. gotta start thinking about work and the next chip i'm supposed to be doing. unfortunately, i can't just start coding... they want me to spec out the part first and do some documentation. i HATE documentation. i had to tell my chiropractor today that i'm going to stop going regularly. it's because my medical insurance isn't going to pay for it any more. what they don't understand is that chiropractic is a maintenance-type thing, a preventive form of health care... and they want a "reason" or "ailment" which requires the treatment... that doens't make sense! but anyways, after i told him, got the usual schpiel about how the medical industry doesn't understand chiropractic, and how i need to keep going. i felt a little guilty, and a little pressured, and he gave me a sort of resigned and blowing-off-type attitude. does he just want my money? isn't that what all businesses are about? anyways, i scheduled a visit three months from now. which i don't mind. i do believe that maintaining a correct alignment in the spine and stuff can help prevent certain problems. maybe just not to the miraculous extent that my chiropractor teaches. my tourette's has gotten much better ever since i started seeing him and starting my medication. so i don't know which is the dominant factor in my amelioration... maybe both, maybe one, maybe it's all in my head. anyways. while i was driving there, i spotted a little green bug on my windshield. these bugs live in the trees above where i park my car. i got kinda sad, because i thought about how the bug hangs out with all its friends and stuff in the tree, and it just decided to drop onto my car. and now, i've driven miles away from its home, so it's basically lost forever! so sad. then i turned on my windshield wipers and put it out of its misery. poor little green bug. yeah, i mentioned i have stuffed animals. not that i collect them or anything; i just somehow accumulated a couple of them over the years. my favorite is a stuffed gund platypus that karine got me... his name is webber. i adored that platypus for the longest time. gund makes the best stuff. i'm totally excited about watching game 1 of the nba finals. i am totally rooting for the lakers, which is almost blasphemous because i grew up partly in boston, and i was die-hard celtics fan when they had their dynastical rivalry with the lakers. ah... bird, paris, mchale, ainge, and johnson... vs. the likes of magic, kareem, worthy, cooper... and silly people like kurt rambis. haha. but yeah, the lakers are really good right now. i don't care for the 76ers, except that i really admire iverson for his skills and that whole underdog thing. but i do want the lakers to sweep them, although i think more realistically, they'll lose one or two games en route to the championship. the key here is, i think, is how mutumbo does against shaq. even though i don't have hbo (and don't plan on getting it), i think i've secured a season 4 of _sex an the city_ source. a coworker of mine just lent me the tape of this past sunday's season premiere. i'm excited. for the first time in a few weeks, i have a full load of good non-rerun television to watch! the nba game and a satc episode! i do attribute part of my lethargy to the fact that i'm not logging in quality television time at home because the season is over. as much as i think television is bad for you and dumbs you and makes you lazy, i still think there are some good shows to watch. and unfortunately, they're all on hiatus until the fall season starts. yuck. i've gotten how i deal with summers. oh. i reread some of my entries over the past three months. some of it is pure crap. i think. i guess it just demonstrates how mundane my life is. and how most of it is so uneventful that i don't even need to document my thoughts and events most of the time. but one small, interesting thing, is that i still remember how i felt when i wrote that entry. my memory is still vivid, and i think that's a good thing... it keeps my life from feeling like a blur. now, it's just a boring blur, that's all... |