| 14 dec 2001 so in my request for e-mail to fill up my lonely cubicle existence, i got salutations from bleakorama and roger wilco. nice! both people have aliases that i don't understand, but whatever... choccobo is just random, too, i guess. i just happened to like the fluffy birds from the final fantasy videogame series. speaking of videogames, i finished two levels of halo yesterday. the first one, jay and i did together (i love cooperative games!!!). except that margaret called near the end, after we played for about an hour and a half, so jay had to take this personal call in his room, and i just wound up watching the 10pm sportscenter, fretting about whether jay would come finish the level with me, or i'd have to try to do it myself and just let jay's character sit there taking alien fire. finally, MUCH later (must have been a hell of a phone call) he came back out, and we finished it. then, i told jay that i would just peek around the next level, and i wound up playing for another hour and finishing the level. yes, i can get addicted to games pretty easily. i mean, i don't even LIKE first-person shooters! i guess it's ok because halo happens to be pretty fun, and i'm used to the controls by now and don't find it too hard to be able to move and shoot at the same time. but the needler gun sucks, that's all i have to say. and those big buff alien dudes with the gigantic shields are pretty hard to kill. my hermoine obssession was fulfilled today when i read an interview of the actress, emma watson. she's just the cutest. although in the real-life shot, she has shorter hair, and she just don't look as adorable as she does in the movie. honestly, i have to admit, that if i go watch the movie again, it's mainly because i want to see her. god, i'm a sick sick dirty man, aren't i? the lunch crowds are pretty big. the last two lunches i've been on (the only two lunches), we've had more than 8 people going to a restaurant at once. we invariably have to sit at separate tables. but anyways, the social atmosphere isn't too enthralling. today we talked about crazy people. like CRAZY people. some people (like the girl i went to new york with) are really literal when they use the term "crazy." i guess they've been exposed to truly demented and warped people, so they've seen the true incarnation of "crazy." like, one of the dudes, simon, was talking about one of his friends who believed he was satan, and he got arrested for freaking out, escaped the police, and stabbed his uncle like seven times before he got caught again. and this other dude talked about a friend who thought that her feet weren't her own. pretty odd stuff. it makes me wonder how i could classify myself. i mean, i'm a touretter! i think i'm pretty sane most of the time, but in my nervous breakdowns, i can easily see how people could label me as insane. like literally insane.... when i'm hearing noises in my head, when i can't stand up straight, when i have to get a nicotine high just so i can think clearly for the next minute... it's scary shit, and thank goodness that it seems like i'm going to get through this year with only one such episode, as opposed to two in the previous two years. hm. i may have just jinxed myself, right? i'm bitching. i'm bitching about the unix window environment here at greenfield. we're using this free software (vnc), and i have been used to exceed because i've been using it ever since i started working. exceed is nice. i like it. and i can't deal with having this cheap imitation stuff. gack. the IT guy said that exceed costs about $250 a person, but isn't that a relatively low price given the fact that i'll be more productive? sheesh. but anyways, i've heard that there are some ways to configure vnc to make it better (more to my liking), so it's not a full-on bitch session right now. anyways, i'm going to dread every friday that rolls around. this 9am company-wide meeting is going to kill me. i barely got in on time because traffic on the 101 isn't that great so early in the morning. my eyes were still full of "i woke up too early" tears when i walked into the office. and the meeting was rather uneventful, despite the fact that i got to have this nice pungent (but untoasted) noah's bagel. oh yeah. so yesterday i found out that i'll be starting off with some verification, as opposed to design, which is what i love and what i'm good at. i was pretty disappointed with that, so when the CTO came back from his trip to japan today, i immediately went to him and told him what happened. i was prepared to make a big stink about it, but he was cool about it, and said that i'll be working on the "sexy" chip after mid-january. i just have to help out with verification for a month, and catching up on the sexychip specs, and then i'll start designing stuff. which is good. so i'm happy now. it might seem weird to some of you who think chips are just chips, and the term "sexy" and "unsexy" is a little odd. but those of you who are designers probably know what i'm talking about. let's see... i know i had some cool dreams last night, but the only thing i can remember is trying to pick a movie with jeremy. and the fact that we were in manhattan. that's about it. people don't smoke here. in fact, two of the guys i had lunch with, simon and mac, seem very against it. like mac was saying that smoking (and other bad habits) are results of low self-discipline and basically a bad lifestyle, and that kind of thinking or mentality spreads to other aspects of your life. i didn't put up a fight. instead i went into the office with them, and went straight to the front lobby and out the front entrance, and had my post-lunch cigarette. it's cold and windy out there today. our chief architect guy, brian, is building a plane. yup. a real airplane. it's some sort of kit plane, meaning that it's probably cheaper (like kit cars). yet, i heard that it costs about half a million dollars to build, and he actually has to design a lot of the stuff himself. i heard he built the landing gear circuitry himself. quite a stud, i must say. now the question is, who is going to be brave enough to fly that thing? a homemade plane? shit. you couldn't get me to sit in that thing. *yawn* people are still calling trying to get me to interview with companies. i hope this doesn't last too long... it's kind of annoying. at least i don't have headhunters calling me at insane hours in the morning. will was asking if it's possible to be sleepy but not tired. i thought about it for a while. i mean, i've been tired but not sleepy, but the other way around? doesn't sleepiness imply being tired? but i said yes anyway, because i know that sometimes i take naps even though i got up only a few hours ago. no plans for the weekend. all i am looking forward to is sleeping in late tomorrow. |