| 17 apr 2001 not much to speak of today. except i realized how crazy i've been over my stupid silly computer problems. i must be really sensitive to stress. i'm a fucking wimp. i mean... getting a headache friday because i was worried about my camera? sheesh, man. today i realized that there are much worse problems that what i'm going through with my camera. because for an hour or so, i had thought i had lost... my WALLET. now that is a really BIG problem. i've lost it once before, and it's just hell getting all the credit cards, id, etc. etc. all back. to this day, i still haven't gotten my social security card back yet. so after i played basketball, we were all going to go out for pho, and i realized my wallet was missing. i was slightly perturbed, because i was convinced that i just forgot to transfer them from my chinos to my jeans. that should teach me to always wear the same pants. ha ha. the past two times i've changed my pants, i've forgotten to transfer my wallet. anyways, i drove home immediately after lunch, scared shitless of running into cops who could technically impound my car or something, and i dashed up to my room and checked the pockets in my chinos. no wallet. fuck. i think i almost burst into tears then. so started freaking out and rummaging through the pile of clothes where my jeans used to be. and luckily, i found my wallet sitting there. i held it up, and i kissed it. saved. *phew* but i was pretty much sweating balls because i kept on thinking on being without cash, and ATM card, or my credit cards... without money, i would be pretty fucked. and no driver's license, either... when did life revolve around stupid pieces of plastic or laminated cardboard? i'm going to have to start doing the "touch myself" thing again; whenever i go, i pat my left pocket for keys, right pocket for cell phone and cigarettes, and ass for wallet. i used to do it all the time, but i guess i've gotten lazy about it these days. but i told myself i really need to get a grip and not freak out too much. it's starting to become apparent that i'm really a nutcase when it comes to overcoming problems. they affect me way too much. just wait until i really start to think about moving again. that'll be the real test. ok. that's about it for me today. gotta go home and see if i can do anything about my jacked video drivers. yup. i'll promise to stay calm and take it easy. |