| 22 mar 2002 so i got home last night and got the mail before going up. jay's latest issue of _maxim_ had arrived. i usually just dropped off his mail in front of his bedroom door, but this time, i actually sat down and read through the magazine, pretty much from cover to cover. yeah, the magazine is kind of sleazy, but i think it's kind of refreshing, too. yeah, some of the articles are written from a frat boy's point of view, but other times there's this nasty, sarcastic edge to it that makes them fun to read. i think they'd be fun to write for. it must be nice to write a piece and be able to use the word "shit" every once in a while. there was one statistic in the magazine that intrigued me. it said that 1 out of 47 or so men die by suicide. is it really that common? there was on photo spread of laura harring (the brunette from _mulholland drive, which, by the way, is a CRAZY unintelliglble movie) that was pretty disappointing. they didn't do a good job of showcasing her amazing chest. but anyways, the only reason why i bring her up is because the scene with her and naomi watts in the movie was the only lesbian sex scene that i found arousing. i think it was because of how intimate and sensual it looked, without any of that standard "i'll just dive straight into your clitoris" fare. in between starting and finishing the magazine, i had a second dinner with sonya. i hadn't seen her since the taiko reunion weeks ago, so it was time we caught up on things. she had just come from her swimming session (she participates in triathlons, which amazes me to no end), so we headed to chili's for dinner . i got an appetizer dish, the southwestern eggrolls, and was disappointed to see that they had gotten much smaller since the last time i ordered them. good but greasy. ah, college basketball. the bad news is that only one pac-10 school remains in the tournament. the GREAT news is that duke lost. so happy. and they lost by only one point, and with some controversy over foul calls, so i think it's even better, because they know that they were so *close* to winning. haha. i hate duke. oh, and there was a small blurb in _maxim_ about coincidence design. geez. don't they know it's a hoax already? let's see... well, after sonya dropped me off, after watching _sportscenter_ and finishing up my reading, i went back to jodee's site. i don't know where he has the time to find all the crazy stuff on the web, but it's really fun stuff to go through. fetishes really intrigue me. i wonder how it is that certain things (like feet or urination) trigger intense sexual reactions from some people but not in the vast majority. how does that wiring take place? can a fetish be learned? can it be unlearned? it's all fascinating stuff. anyway, i found some stuff through jodee's links that made me just say, "WOW." like this place in san francisco where they hold fisting parties. fisting. geez. i mean, i had seen one or two pictures of the act on the internet, but i just thought it was for people with freakishly large internal cavities. i had no idea it was popular enough to support an entire local establishment dedicated to people who wanted to fist each other! hot damn. and then there's bukkake. ok, so i didn't know what it meant, but after going to this site, i learned more than i ever wanted to know. hm. i don't think being the giver or the receipient of massive waves of semen splashed on my face is my idea of fun, but apparently a decent number of people love it. and in fact, there are groups of people (go to yahoo! groups and do a search on "bukkake") who actually get together and hold bukkake parties! wow. one of the originals, it seems, is a group in tampa bay, and people can actually pay a membership fee and join in on their escapades, which are held at people's houses and even hotels. makes you wonder what kind of nasty sticky shit is stuck to the carpet in the next hotel you walk in, huh? i mean, having a fetish is one thing. but what totally amazes me is the fact that people actually are motivated enough by their fetishes to seek out other people who feel the same way, and that they hold events like fisting parties and bukkake parties. that whole "organized sex" aspect of it is what i find astounding. i mean, you can organize a super bowl party, a dance, a mah johngg game, but organizing group sex? that just seems like such a foreign idea to me. yet, i can't come up with any reason why it doesn't fit into just another human activity. i really wonder if these parties are safe from an STD standpoint. i hope they are, although i don't really know how they go about ensuring that. i mean, i thought i read that you can be infected with HIV and still have a blood test come back negative for a few months. it'd be a shame if one infected person goes to one of these parties and transmits the disease to a whole slew of people. ok. and the last fetish doesn't involve orgies or anything, but still, it made my jaw drop open. the grandma fetish. yup. there's a site for that, too. (i don't have the URL.) good god. well, if viagra can help old men get it up, then i guess there's nothing wrong with old ladies getting some, too. anyways, yeah. it was probably the most interesting hour of websurfing i've done in a long time. i can't say that any of these fetishes interests me, but it's quite fascinating to see what gets people off. i'd really like to take a class into the social origins of fetishes. so tomorrow it looks like we're headed to tahoe. i've decided against skiing, so i guess i'll bring some reading material and enjoy whatever college basketball games are on. other than that, i'm going to see mike twice today. i had lunch with him, rita and david today, and it reminded me that life is so much more leisurely when one is unemployed. i mean, the three of them were just seemed to have all the time in the world to hang out, while i was fretting about when i needed to get back to work. it kind of makes me upset because i didn't enjoy my unemployment between jobs... all i did was sit at home and look for jobs. if i had known mike back then, then i probably would have taken it easy and hung out with him more often. anyways, i'm going to mike's birthday dinner in palo alto, too. and that's about it. i need to leave work a little early so i can find something i have in mind as a small gift. i had a dream this morning that i was fighting people with this really long pastry. and every once in a while, i'd break off a piece and eat it. very odd. work is going to get intense again. i got my next assignment: bridge processor. so for the next couple of weeks, we'll see how the big war of antidepressants vs. stress goes. god, after what's happened to me the past two weeks, i am really worried about this one. |