| winnie's 50 questions 1. what's the one thing you wish you could do but can't? be an extrovert. 2. what time of the day do you like to take a shit? any time i feel like it. i don't mess around with my sphincter... to deny it pleasure is an unhealthy thing. a lot of times, a cigarette enhances my bowel urges. 3. what is your ideal marriage location? hm. haven't thought about this one much. probably some place that has a significant meaning to both of us. that's partially why my stanford fetish was so strong, because we could just get married on campus. 4. which musical instrument do you wish you could play? hm. i've played piano, cello, and taiko, but if i had to pick up a new instrument, it'd be a modern drumset or the bass guitar. i want to be like either travis from blink 182 (drums) or flea from the red hot chili peppers (bass). 5. what's your favorite sexual position? missionary's the best. for no other reason than the fact that you're close to the girl, and you can kiss and hug and look into each other's eyes during sex. it's the best way to have emotionally charged romps. 6. favorite fabric? maybe velour. not because i have any velour shirts (that's *so* 1980's) but i love touching it. there was this one girl back in school (sally) who wore a black shirt one time, and i asked, "is that velour?" and she responded, "yes, do you want to touch it?" i swear, i was so turned on. 7. something you love and hate? myself and all the ways i just am. 8. what kind of bedding do you use? uh. navy blue sheets that i've had since i graduated from college. my blankets are the same ones since i was in high school... and i don't ever recall washing them, so they smell wonderfully HISTORICAL. 9. what kind fo soap do you use? dove bars. generic but good. i used to love irish spring because it was green, and i used lever 2000 for a while because it sounded geeky. but k2 liked dove bars, so that's what we used when we were together. and i guess i haven't changed out of habit. 10. do you tell your friends about your sex life? unfortunately yes. and what i mean by unfortunate is that i talk about my sex life with my EX's. simply because i have nothing to report on my current nonexistent sex life. and this blasphemy has evidently crossed over into my journalling life as well, and i get a lot of shit for it. 11. what's the one language you want to learn? japanese or chinese. japanese because i want to at least speak and listen fluently, and chinese because hell, i'm chinese! (but i can speak conversational mandarin fine) but after having watched _lord of the rings_ twice, i think *the* fantasy language to learn is elvish. 12. how do you eat an apple? i don't usually eat apples. my girlfriends used to cut them for me and carve out the seeds. otherwise, i eat apple pies a la mode, which is my favorite dessert, tied with pecan pie. 13. what do you order at a bar? i used to order tequila shots. now it's jameson or johnnie walker black on the rocks. if i decide to drink beer (i don't really like beer), i get harp or something light-colored. 14. have you ever pierced your body parts? if so, where? nope. i'm too afraid of bleeding incessantly if someone mean pulls out my piercing. people tell me i should get an eyebrow ring, though. 15. do you have tattoos? if so, what kind and where? nope. if i wasn't afraid of the pain, i'd get either my last name (chang) on my left shoulder, or a barcode on my wrist that i can actually scan at safeway as a pack of gum or a can of chili or something. 16. would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind of confronted? sure. why lie about it? but the thing is, i would probably never ever get cosmetic surgery. i'm pretty much totally against that sort of thing. it actually makes me feel ill when i find out someone's gotten cosmetic surgery. 17. what's one of the "funniest" things you've ever done? it was rainy one night in high school, and i ran from the car and jumped through the front door of my friend's house. turns out there was a glass screen door there, which promptly shattered and embedded itself in my left knee. i got over 20 stitches. i didn't even know the parents who owned the house. i got up, looked at my bloody leg, and asked for a towel and a band-aid. i will always have this scar to remind myself of how dumb i was. 18. do you drive stick? nope. i would learn if only to at least know how. but i would never buy a car with stick because i wouldn't be able to eat while driving. 19. what's one trait you hate in a person? insincerity. 20. what's the soonest that you've slept with someone? the same day we got together. a few hours after our first kiss. 21. what kind of watch(es) do you wear? ah! my BEAUTIFUL *yellow* tag heuer formula one! 22. most frivolous purchase? my black playstation yaroze. $2000 for 30 minutes of playing out the fantasy that i might become a video game programmer. 23. do you consider yourself materialistic? unfortunately yes. i find myself being materialistic, but i hate it. i'm not into haute couture fashion or fancy european sports cars, though. but silver things make me drool, and a lot of silver things are expensive. 24. what do you cook the best? sadly, kraft macaroni and cheese. i don't even know if you'd call that "cooking." but i add bread crumbs, tuna, and garlic powder. 25. favorite writing instrument? 0.5mm mechanical pencil. pencil lead is soft... my handwriting is much prettier than if i write with a pen. 26. do you prefer to stand out or blend in? tough question. because of my TS, i stand out even when i don't want to. it's gotten me places, but sometimes i wonder how it would feel to just be normal. and i don't think i'll ever know. but yeah, because of my experiences, i am satisfied overall with standing out. 27. do you have anything monogrammed? if so, what? nope. that's vain, dude. but i did write my initials (dvc for "dardy von chang") on my basketball. 28. would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? hell, i've worn kristie's skirts before. without underwear even. and i bought a skirt at the gap my junior year. wore it a few times. but like go out in drag? probably not... 29. what's one car you will never buy? any sports car. i like to fit 4 people comfortably (with 4 doors), and carry around my shit with ease as well. 30. have you ever done drugs? ha! i'm on 1.0mg of haldol a day! hm. a little bit of pot in college. it got boring since all i did was laugh, sway, eat, and pass out. oh, and i smoke. and drink occasionally. 31. what kind of books do you like to read? fiction only. favorite authors are tolkein, kundera, nicholson baker, douglas coupland. i like stuff that's mainly modern and pop-culturish and has insight into society and relationships. 32. if you won the lottery, what would you do first? pay off my margin balance and invest half of it immediately. yes, i'm lame. but i'm petrified of not ensuring my financial well-being in the future. 33. burial or cremation? cremation. ashes scattered over the stanford foothills. 34. how many online journals do you read regularly? about 20. it's steadily growing. my favorite journals belong to people that i have met and actually hang out with. 35. what's one thing you're a sore loser at? love. i get bitter. 36. if you don't like a person, how do you show it? i'm pretty obvious. i ignore him. 37. how many drinks before you're tipsy? in college it was about 5. now it's probably around 3-4. i'm talking shots here. 38. favorite kind of porn? one guy, one girl. and they have to look like they're enjoying it. and no anal sex or watersports or fecal ingestion or shit like that. 39. do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? no. unless i have to change my underwear or something. but otherwise, i'm fine. it's all about wearing boxers... if i still wore briefs, i wouldn't change my pants in front of anybody, not even a girlfriend. 40. do you cry in front of friends? haven't cried with people around for years. would i do it? maybe i'd let myself get teary, but no wracking sobs. depends on the situation. 41. what kind of impression do you think you give to people? if i'm not ticcing, people will notice i'm tall and most possibly really shy and wallflowery. if i'm ticcing, then they'll think i'm a fucking freak. 42. what's one thing you like to do alone? masturbate? i dunno. it's the first thing that came to mind. but i've done it in front of my gf before, and there's this awesome passage in nicholson baker's _vox_ where a guy and a girl... nevermind. hm. oh. one thing i'd like to do alone... have a nervous breakdown. i don't want anybody to see me like that state; it's fucking pathetic and sad. 43. what's the worst thing you ever said to someone? "i don't love you any more." 44. are you a giver or a taker? a giver. although if i didn't feel so guilty about it, i'd like to be more of a taker; seems more fun. 45. what have you stolen before? a pocket organizer ($4.95) from stanford bookstore. shit, i pay enough money to them for the thousands of dollars i spend on books, so they can afford to spot me a measly $5. oh, and i've stolen a girl from another guy before. *sheepish grin* maybe that's why i have such bad karma with women right now. 46. when's the right time to go to the bathroom in front of your significant other? any time is good. i'd like to start showering together and stuff from the very beginning of the relationship. 47. favorite communication method? favorite? talking in person, one on one, preferrably sitting down. most often used? e-mail, and it's handy for certain difficult conversations, too. in fact, ALL of my girlfriends have started out as e-mail buddies. so i have to say that i have a certain softness for e-mail. 48. what is one thing you don't leave home without? i always preach that you never leave home without... keys, money, and identification. nowadays, i also make sure i have some cigarettes, my zippo, and my cell phone. 49. how often do you have sex? when i'm with somebody, as often as possible. sad to think that i'm past my sexual prime now, though... 50. what's the most painful experience you've ever had? hm. maybe my nervous breakdown where my vision was blurring, i couldn't sleep, and i was nearing noises in my head. emotionally, hm... dealing with infidelity, on both sides of the ball. |