In this chapter : Back at Jin’s place... once again.
A/N :
WHOOO! Got Onimusha 3 yesterday =D. Played for about 7 hours non-stop hehe XD
*huggles Samanosuke*. Anyways, was about time for me to update that fic... been
near 2 weeks O.o’. so this chapter’s the outcome of the past 4 ones. Kinda
shorter than the rest, might be a bit confusing. Flashbacks will come back next
chapter =). Time for me to stop talking and let your read that XD.
Reminiscence
Chapter 17 : Outcome
We
got back at Jin’s place on the double. Never seen him driving that fast. He
seemed pretty confused... I bet he's wondering if he's gonna end his friendship
with her. Or something close to that. I doubt he'd go that far, but who knows?
It's Jin I'm talking about. Thought he was quite predictive at first, though he
doesn't really seem like that now. Anyways, we'll see.
For my part, I
have no motherfucking idea of what I'm going to do in front of her. Could as
well bash her to death or take pity. Maybe both. As long as I don't get arrested
for murder, it's gonna be OK. Right now, the main idea's NOT to kill
her.
Here we are.
“Xiaoyu, we need to talk, seriously.”
“Hi
Jin! Just made dinner, everything’s in the kitchen... thought we could have a
quiet, romantic evening...” And the she spotted me behind him. Stay calm,
Hwoarang. Stay. Calm.
“There won’t be any of this, Xiao. Tell me exactly
why you did!” Ish... he souns quite angry. It’s weird... agry at her... never
thought I’d see that someday.
“I... Jin I love you... you know it...”
Well at that point, it’s not love. It’s obsession.
“Seems like you’re
more obsessed than in love.” That was MY line, dammit! Oh well. “Anyways, you
need to stop it. Do you know what you got me, and especially Hwoarang into? Do
you know it?!”
“He just left, now he’s back...”
Jin sighed and
closed his eyes. “Look, you almost drove him to SUICIDE!! And me too. Because if
he would’ve done it, I would’ve killed myself as well! I felt so fucking guilty,
having to let him go, even though the fact – well, fact, lie – that I was
cheated on hurt me! Don’t you have a single idea on how it hurts?! Think about
it. You’re in love with someone, then another person tells that you that he has
cheated on you. And he kills himself because you believed that person was right,
and after you learnt it was a lie. How would you react huh?! HOW WOULD
YOU?!!”
“Jin... calm down... I’m alive, right there...”
“I know.
But I came so close to lose you, Hwoarang... what if you had commited suicide? I
can’t see myself living without you.” He finally calmed down... for how long
though? “I know you love me, Xiao. I can’t ignore that fact. Understand that if
I had really lost Hwoarang, I wouldn’t have gone out without you anyway. You’re
my FRIEND, my BEST friend. Not my lover. I’m NOT in love with you. You HAVE to
understand that... I don’t want to lose you.”
The guy has weird
reactions... if I had listened to me somehow I’d be kicking her ass. Still I
know they’ve been friends for ages, and a friendship like that is hard to
destroy. Plus me and Jin are two extremely different guys. Can’t blame him for
A) being mad, B) keeping his relationship with Xiaoyu at the same time. He’s
human after all... well... heh, you know what I mean.
What is even
weirder is that I’m not totally angry. Yes I am, she caused me pain, but
still... I know what she’s going through. Hard to face the truth about love,
even more when the one you’re in love with ISN’T in love with you. Painfull. I
went through this too, yet I didn’t do such a drama. It’s not the end of the
world. There is something else that love... what the shit am I saying. I was
ready to kill myself over that, and now I’m telling someone else that it’s
“normal”. Someone kill me.
“Xiao... I don’t really hate you...” About
time I could manage to say something. “I know what rejection feels like. It’s
hard. But there’s something else than that. I know, I’m one to speak, I’m the
happy one, you’re the sad one, it’s life. And well... I heard somewhere that if
you really love someone, you should let him be happy.” Oh-so cliché. Why the
fuck am I saying all that? I’d kill myself anytime if I have no one to be there
for me.
And she looks so damn sad. Amazing what we’re going through just
not to be alone for the rest of our lives.
“I’m sorry guys... never knew
I’d cause so much problem... I thought Jin wouldn’t have discovered the truth
and that he would go out with me... maybe I’d have tell him after, I don’t know.
And that Hwoarang would’ve gone back with his gang, and that he had another
lover there, who knows... I’ll understand if the both of you want me out of your
life...”
Jin gave her a funny look. “No no no no no... don’t mistake me...
never wanted you completely out of my life... just out of my love life... not
the same at all!”
“Meaning I’m not your life or- ”
“You know
exactly what I mean, Hwoa.” Whew. Don’t get mad, you know what he means. There’s
something else than me in this world after all.
“OK, I’m shutting up!
Forget I even said something hehehe...”
“Social life let’s say. You’re
still my friend. Just... don’t meddle in my relationship anymore. And I was
wondering if you... could leave us alone a few days... drop by in... let’s say
three days? Four days?”
She nodded quietly. I hope she’ll get over it
now. “Well... I’ll head back to Miharu’s place. And... I’m glad you too are
together again for some reason.”
“Xiao?”
“Hai?”
“Take care
of yourself, OK?”
“Alright, I will. Bye guys, see ya
soon!”
Drama’s over? It was about time... getting both of us damn crazy.
It’s a bit sad, seeing her leaving like this. We both escorted her to the front
door (goddamned elevator…) and she seemed relieved that all that stuff had come
to an end. That Jin and me forgave her.
Just like in the fairytales.
Shudder.
“Wonder what she made for dinner though...” Wow. Jin’s thinking
about something else for now. “Hehe... there’s even candles.”
“All of
that will serve, actually. Quite hungry. Haven’t eaten for near a whole
day...”
“Then let’s eat” he sais as he chuckles. “Just the two of
us...”
“Yeah. Just the two of us.”
Remind me to thank Xiaoyu for
that dinner. Very good!
~ To be continued... ~
A/N 2 :
Happy end of chapter =). Couldn’t being mean to Xiaoyu for some reason O.o’. But
now she’s gone and our two cute guys are back together! =D. Meh... going back at
Onimusha 3 now =D. Thanks for all the reviews! =D.