Whatever was between us didn’t last very long
Yet, to me it seemed like a lifetime, and the pain remains strong

Although I don’t know if what we had was right or even true
What I do know, is that my feelings were real and deep for you

Looking back on it now, it seems I deserve all the suffering and hurt I feel inside
I made a lot of mistakes, was selfish, and told many lies

Our paths might not ever cross again, and it’s sad to think, and unfair

A lot of things stood in our way, making it impossible for love to be there

Tonight as I sit here in the dark, trying to comfort my heart that is weeping
I realize, I must be strong and just hold on, for I know life goes on for a reason

Everyone finds this connection at sometime, blind to the circumstances
Whether it be race, gender or in our case, age: these things don’t exist where romance is

Although I will never know, if what I did was right or for the best, what’s done is done, and it was fun (while it lasted) that’s the way life works, I guess

My body tires at this moment
Still I write, to help my heart mend

Compared to you, I felt so small, I didn’t think I deserved you at all
I admired you so much, and I know I shouldn’t have been thinking that
Even so, if someone told me a year ago that this would happen to me, I would have returned it with a laugh

Cos to have a guy, like you come into my life seemed only possible in my dreams
Yet, you were real; too good to be true, or at least that‘s how it seemed

There’s times when I think I’m better off without you, but then I ask myself why I’m in tears
I learned a lot from you, and a lot about myself from you, despite the difference in our years

Maybe it was for the best that we never got to be together
Again, we’ll never know where the answer lies
It may come tomorrow, it may take forever

I’m afraid to tell myself I love you for fear you don’t feel the same way
I probably will never tell you, yet deep inside I believe I love you, and in me, you’ll always stay

All good things don’t always have to come to an end
Unfortunately, in this story these lovers had to end up as friends
Music brought us together,
Sadly, the harmony wasn’t in the stars

It may be postponed for a later date
But all of that is left up to fate

For now, I must try to learn to love and respect myself
And count all the blessings I already have
Not relying on finding happiness in anyone else

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