Intro	Yeah, ohh yeah, this one goes out, to all the families that went
	through the struggle, yeah, from the heart, 
	it was from the heart, everything  was real

verse 1	yo, dwelling in the past, flash back when I was young
	who ever thought that I would have a beby girl and 3 sons
	I'm going through this difficult stage I find it hard
 	to believe why my old earth had so many seeds
	but she's an old woman and do to me I respect that
	I saw life for what its really worth and took a step back
	family ain't family no more, we used to play ball
	eggs after school, eat gritz cause we were poop
	grab the plirs for the channel, fix the hanger on the T.V.
	rockin  each others pants to school wasn't easy
	we survived winters snauty nose with no coats
	we kept it real but the older brother still had a joke
	sadly daddy left me at the age of six
	I didn't know notin' but mommy neatly packed his shit
	she cried, and grandma held the family down
	I guess mommy wasn't strong enough, she just went straight down
	check it, 15 of us in a three bedroom apartment
	roaches everywhere causons and aunts were there.
	 4 in the bed, 2 at the foot, 2 at the head
	I didn't like to sleep with jon-jon he peed the bed
	pluckin roaches out the cereal box 
	we shared the epoon, watchin saturday cartoons
	sugar water was our thing, everymeal was no thrill
	in the summer one lunch held us down like steel
	and there was days I had to go to shea's house with a note
	"shea and gloria can I borrow some food I'm dead broke"
	so embarrasin I couldn't stand to knock on the door
	my friends might be laughin, I spent stamps in stores
	mommy wheres the toilet paper, use the newspaper
	look ms. Rose bought us a coach, shes the neighbor
	2 brothers who must led this defeat kiiled me
	but I remember this mom's would lick her finger tips
	to wipe the cold out of my eye before school wit her spit
	 case worker had her runnin back for face to face
	I caught a case worker, trying to throw us out our place.
	sometimes I'm lookin back and analyze the sky,
	 goodnight

outro	sometime I'm lookin back and analyze the sky
	let myself rock wasn't meant to be so hard

mary j	All that I got is you
chorus	And I'm so thankful I made it through
	3x

	I can't think, about all the times we did without rain
	I always said I woudn't cry, when I saw tears in your eyes
	I understand that daddies not here know, 
	but some way some how, I will always be around
	All things that I did from yesterday
	oh from drunk to being there
	being down and out and I love you always.