I am so tired of crying for my son,
I am so tired of being depressed,
I am so tired of longing for my son,
I am so tired of not being happy,
I am so tired of telling people that my son is dead,
I am so tired of my son being dead,
I am so tired of not being able to remember what joy feels like,
I am so tired of being angry,
I am so tired of feeling guilty,
I am so tired of missing my son,
I am so tired of being told it is a blessing to have an angel in heaven,
I am so tired of being misunderstood,
I am so tired of having to explain why I am depressed,
Again I am so tired of being depressed,
I am so tired of death,
I am so tired of grieving,
I am so tired of grief,
I am so tired of asking "WHY"
I am so tired of not getting an answer,
I am so tired of having to learn to live without my son,
I am so tired of being indirectly told to "get over it"
I am so tired of re-living the night of my son`s death over and over,
Complete with tears and emotional upheaval,
I am soooooooo tired of not being able to remember...................
Every moment of his life,
I am so tired of being tired.
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