| At Seventeen- June 20, 2004 |
| As a child she said she wished to be a mermaid. Playing with her dolls under a dim lamp shade. Curly hair, radiating a deep brunette. Adorned on the side was a beaded barette. Then a golden sparkle resembling a sunset. At seven she knew who she was. In a family with lots of love. Not a car in her mind. Almost as if she was blind. At seven. As an adolescent she said she wished to be a star. With the house, the husband, and a fine car. Sitting there singing up in her room. Switching from station to station trying to find a tune. An audience came alive in her room. At thirteen she had big dreams. Wishing to be an older teen. Crushing on her first boy in town. Too innocent to know it would be a big let down. At thirteen. Growing up now she just wishes to be happy. Becoming a woman, but missing her daddy. Gorgeous she may be inside or out. Skin as smooth as silk as she dances about. They say she shimmers when she smiles, that's what it's all about. At seventeen things were complicated. Heart and mind at war; Old memories out-dated. Stressing over what to wear. If she looks okay. And how is that hair? At seventeen. There emerged a woman in the years. Singing songs for her heart, wishing away the tears. There emerged a woman today. She knew she'd be okay. At seventeen. |
| Nobody Knew- June 21, 2004 |
| He was just a boy living in the south. Getting into fights with his big mouth. Only eighteen, but what a wonder! Nobody knew what he felt like under. Nobody knew of his pain. How did he ever keep himself sane? Nobody knew the real him Unfolded he was a gem. She was just a girl living in the west. Self-composed doing what her mother thought was best. Only eighteen, but what a wonder! Nobody knew what she felt like under. Nobody knew she was trying to run away. How did she live like this each day? Nobody knew her on the inside. Living her life as one big lie. He got sick of it all. And so did she. One look in the mirror. Who could they see? It's too late, now, they're drowning. Their reflection is frowning. As they fall. They've seen it all. Nobody knew they felt this way. Nobody considered they were never okay. Nobody knew their feelings inside. Everyone loses. They were all blind. |
| Curse-June 21, 2004 |
| Forgive me for caring, I thought you wouldn't mind. Forgive me for staring. It was so unkind. Tell me I'm lying. It might make us both feel better. I'll continue trying. It'll take a while in this stormy weather. Hearts pour hard as the rain. Something happens, it's never the same. Flooding the depths of the earth. Feeling this way is such a curse. You've controlled me far too long. You'll never know. I'm singing the same song. It's obvious how I feel, you know? Hearts pour as hard as the rain. Something happens, it's never the same. Flooding the depths of the earth. Feeling this way is such a curse. We are broken, forever broken. No remedy, nothing spoken. We are lying, forever lying. No feelings, but constant crying. We are broken, forever broken. Forgive me for caring. I thought you wouldn't mind. Forgive me for feeling. It was so unking. |
| Weary-June 21, 2004 |
| Jamie sat down on the stairs staring at the clouds wishing she wasn't there. Never knew her place, but always wanted to leave. People did her wrong. That's the truth she couldn't believe. The clouds grow weary and can't hold back. Her eyes are too dry because she never looks back. Downpour of cold truth wash her worries away. She thought today would be a better day. Jamie closed her eyes as tight as they could go. Thinking of things others shouldn't know. Tears rolled down blending with the rain. Nobody to turn to, but hoping someone could take away her pain. The clouds grow weary and can't hold back. Her heart is broken because she never stopped looking back. Downpour makes her weak, not strong, for so long. What went wrong? Such a young girl with too much to carry. Too much of a past she thought she could bury. Such a young girl with too much on her mind. Too much of nothing to think she'd been left behind. The clouds grow weary and can't hold back. It's time to grow up and face the facts. Downpour of restless nights are all that await her. Those thoughts alone might drag her down and break her. Jamie stood up with her eyes looking down. She's made up her mind. It's time to leave this town. |
| I Know What I Know-June 21, 2004 |
| It was a good day until I opened my eyes. A slip of the tongue and out came your lies. I walked away as if I were satisfied. But honestly, I could've died. Enchanted by you in a trance. I liked you for so long, I gave you a chance. Tangled with you, I can't let go. Even thought I know what I know. I should've known all this time it was a game. Look in my eyes, it will never be the same. Treat me like a queen with all the fame. Stab me in the back. I didn't know you were so lame. Enchanted by you in a trance. I liked you for so long, I gave you a chance. Tangled with you, I can't let go. Even though I know what I know. I have to say goodbye, it's so hard. It's all your fault, you played the card. I fell so hard, I thought you were the one. Now, as always, I'm the broken one. Enchanted by you in a trance. I liked you for so long, I gave you a chance. Tangled with you, I can't let go. Even though I know what I know. Tangled with you, I must let go. All this because I know what I know. |
| Good Times- June 21, 2004 |
| Pleasant memories fading as it should be. Remembering good times to be deceived. Having a heart too full of pain. You become too numb to know your own name. Were these really the good times that I recall? Should I remember all the things that I saw? I know it's up to me to decide. I can run far, but I forget to hide. Too tired to be tired, a new habit you've acquired. Forgetting how to breathe until your mentally wired.Saying a word and not knowing what it means. You became the person you didn't want anyone to see. Were these really the good times that we recall? Should we remember all the things that we saw? It's always up to us to decide. We can run far, but we forget to hide. No more, please, I can't take it any longer. You're growing weak, and I can't become stronger. No more, please, make a brand new start. Follow your head, but don't forget your heart. Were these really the good times that I recall? We should forget all that we never saw. It's not up to us anymore to decide. We've run too far and figured out where to hide. Much too long you've had a heart full of pain. You're too numb now to even know your own name |
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