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Everyone has a side that I don't know. Things they've done I don't know about. Ways they act that they don't show me. Lies they tell to "protect" me. Different ways of talking. Why? For what purpose? To what end? I've been told things recently about people that I thought I knew. How great of a friend s/he is. How people bend over backward for others. Why was I never shown this side? Maybe I didn't look? I know part of it is possibly me. Maybe you don't want to act like that with me. Maybe something I said or who I am changed how you feel. I'm almost afraid to ask. Something isn't right. I feel like I'm falling behind again. You don't want me to know things, so you let me slip out of contact. What happened? We used to talk about everything. Now I know my acquaintances better. I feel like I failed you in some way. So you went elsewhere. Maybe I'm not exactly what you thought I was. Or I don't act exactly like you want me to. But that's me. You take pride in being yourself, but then I feel like I'm being put on second string because of something. Maybe I'm imagining things. Maybe I read too much into things. But I can't help it. This has been going on since the beginning of summer. I pretended things were fine. They're not. I don't know if they ever can be again. You're keeping me out of a part of your life. Maybe I am too. I have other friends now. You do too. But don't hide that from me. I thought I knew you too well. |
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