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Fuck it. I'm writing this at 230 in the goddamn morning. But I need to say it now. You'll do anything for sex, won't you? Walk over anyone and betray anyone you fucking want. For sex. You fucking knew what you were doing and you kept right on going. I can excuse him because he doesnt know the extent of how I feel. But you did. Or I thought you did. Don't fucking tell me you didn't mean anything by it. Bullshit. I know I'm not beautifully thin, or outgoing or sexy .. but I know how to fucking pay attention. I've seen what you do with anyone or anything that is male. You hang all over them and totally disregard anyone else who happens to be watching. Shit, at least pick one goddamned guy. And don't try and make things better by explaining or saying your sorry. I saw the look on your face every time you looked at him. God fucking damnit .. I try so hard to overlook it, but you make it so goddamned obvious that it's impossible!! In case you can't tell, I'm quite pissed off right now .. but I'm also hurting like hell. Friends are supposed to come first, but with you, sex is your priority. --- and BTW .. to another of you. I'm not mad at you, I'm not upset with you. But I am frustrated. If I want to get mad at someone other than you, I will. But unless I want to tell you about it, there's no substantiated reason for you to get so hurt if I don't talk to you. Sometimes I don't want to talk at all. All my energies go towards keeping my anger in a knot and I can't talk or else I'll let it out. And very often I dont want to do that. And I'm sorry, but the last fucking thing I need when I'm already upset, is upsetting someone else. Unless you're an empath, just chill out. There's nothing you could have done .. I love you anyway, though and thanks for caring. --- to someone else .. you Jackass, I will never say that again, no matter what. Bastard. =D --- To the fucking rest of you .. leave me the fuck alone. I'm sick of caring. |
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