Broken

My heart beats hard in my chest...
My soul screams in agony...
That's how I know I still exist 
Though my heart feels weak 
The screams seem quieted, for now 
By the poison inside

What is love…? 
A four letter word 
What is trust...? 
A term to describe all that is broken
Just two words 
Two simple meaningless words 
Right, my friend?

Two words, that run too deep,
 Like the poison blood in my veins,
Two words, that shattered all my hope,
 Like rocks to stained glass.

The screaming now subsided, 
As, I feel the beating weaken, 
Start to grow delirious,
Poison flowing steadily, 
Where healthy blood once was.

I could have had a future
Was my life not shattered
I could have lived 
Was I not a fool

Now I just wander, Half dead 
Through this endless delerium
Though the world Just half there

Searching for Someone, 
Someone to be my guiding light...
Someone to make me whole for good...
Can't you hear my tortured screams when I cry? 
When the poison subsides 
My heart races and my soul cries out 
"Help me... Please don't let me die"