I Run

 

I run

away

far from the torment

that beseeches my walls

I lie,

dead

to the world

in the tower of pain

my legs quiver with exhaustion

as my head splits in two

my heart gets torn to the four corners

of me

and I lie still,

above the ground

but below your feet

crushing

all I can do is whimper

as the rack turns one more notch

and the worlds burden

rests on my shoulders

 

Demon

 

I see a demon.

Big,

Dark,

powerful,

and strong.

 

I feel the demon.

Rageful,

Angry,

Hateful,

and despairing.

 

I have the demon.

contained,

quiet,

small,

and hidden.

 

I am the demon.

Unleashed,

Hurtful,

vengeful,

ugly,

and cruel.

 

I have seen,

felt,

become,

and still have,

the demon within.

 

Ditches of Darkness

 

I've walked the path of light,

joyous and free,

never ending smiles,

and love all around.

I must have tripped and fallen,

for when I stood up,

there wasn't light.

No smiles,

no love,

no joy.

I walked on clutching at my clothes

the deadly cold

my legs became worn and tired

when I fell I stay lying,

wondering

thinking

pondering

‘why am I here’,

‘why am I alive’.

I continued on,

sheltered and alone.

I looked up to a blinding light

of warmth and comfort

I threw my arms open

embracing it

the rays of gold

I walk once more along a path of light

I shall always keep an eye

on the ditches of darkness

 

 

 

 

 

Dead Bang

*Zip*

*Click*

My love has been squandered

My family is aloof

 

*Click click… CLANG!*

 

My heart is heavy with stone

Sinking with every smile less face

 

*Click click… CLANG!*

 

Life’s path going no where

Dead end, dead alone

 

*Click click... CLANG!*

 

Friend’s support

Holding up my world

 

*Click click… CLANG!*

 

Healing wounds

Mending heart

 

*Click click… CLANG!*

 

Joyous life, happy heart

Too late to save the garbage

 

*Click click…

 

BANG!*

 

*Zip*

*Click*

Broken spirit, tormented mind

Pain hidden with a pseudo-smile

 

*Click click…  CLANG!*

 

Mockery of a person

Confused of who really cares

 

*Click click…. CLANG!*

 

Worry all you want

It’s not a helping hand

 

*Click click….. CLANG!*

 

Unwanted, uncared, unloved

Bury me in my self misery

 

*Click click… CLANG!*

 

Possible love in my life

Rekindling of Joy

 

*Click click… CLANG!*

 

FUCK THIS ROLLER COSTER

 

*BANG!!!*