Monday,� June 5th
G:� I don't want to talk about Jake right now.
R:� We have to tell him Gillian, about us.� You do want to tell him don't you?
G:� Of course I do.
R:� He's got...he's got to know the truth.
G:� I know.� I don't want to lie to him anymore.
R:� So then he's gotta hear it from both of us.
G:� No! No, you're very wrong.
R:� What am I missing.� Gillian, don't you think Jake deserves to hear the truth.� You just said you don't want to lie to him.
G:� I don't.
R:� Well then why can't we tell him?
G:� Ryan, I'm the one who vowed to love Jake for the rest of my life.� It was my doing.�
G:� There's so many people who tried to stop me from making this mistake.� Edmund, Grandmama, you, and I just wouldn't listen.� You came to my wedding and you watched me marry another man.
R:� You were confused.� Greenlee had you believing lies, you and Jake were in a custody battle.
G:� It must have been so horrible for you.
R:� I just wanted you to be happy.� You made your choice and I wanted it to work for you.� Jake is a good man.
G:� Jake always suspected I had feelings for you. Even when I swore I didn't. (she sighs)� Ryan I've let so many people down.
R:� You made a mistake.
G:� We didn't marry Jake.� I did, and I have to fixt this alone.
R:� What are you going to say to him?
G:� I'm going to tell Jake that...I love you, and that I want a divorse.�
He kisses her hand and then holds her.
R:� You sure you�re really okay with this?
G:� What choice do I have?� I love you and I have to tell Jake.
R:� How are you going to tell him?
G:� Well, I can�t call him�I wouldn�t be able to get through.
R:� No, even if you could�I mean a phone call?
G:� No, it�s just.� No, I couldn�t do that and ugh a letter?
R:� No that�s not good.� God, I�d hate to get a letter like that.
G:� Yeah.� It�s just too dangerous and I wouldn�t want him to get a good bye letter.
R:� That�s understandable.
G:� I have to do this face to face when he�s back home safe and sound
Ryan nods ever so slightly�but he looks sad at the idea.
R:� Do you have any idea when that�s going to be?� (She realizes what Ryan�s thinking)
G:� Soon, I hope.
R:� But you don�t know when?
R:� Gillian, I�I can�t stop seeing you.� I can�t let you go�not again.
G:� Ryan it�s risky.� You know if someone finds out they�ll tell the Martins and I don�t want Jake to find out from anybody else before I tell him.
R:� We�ll be careful.
G:� You really think we can keep this a secret?
R:� All I know is�I�ll die if I don�t get to see you.
They kiss.
G:� Ryan we can do this.� We can swear Grandmama to secrecy.
R:� Are you sure she�s going to be in our corner, I mean, I was surprised she let me in here tonight.
G:� She knows I love you.� She wants me to be happy.
R:� I�m going to make you happy.� I�m going to make you happy for the rest of your life.
G:� I�m so sorry that you have to sneak around like this.
R:� (sigh) I love you, Gillian.� If that means I only get to see you in secret places?� So be it, as long as I get to see you.
G:� Ryan, I�ve loved you for so long.� I�m not going to let you get away now.
R:� Well then hold on because I�m not going anywhere.
G:� Where can we meet?
R:� The lofts out because of Scott.
G:� and Wild Wind�s out..too many servants.
R:� Yeah.� Don�t you worry I�ll find us a place�a perfect place.
G:� Where we can meet together and nobody will know.
R:� Away from everybody.� First,
G:� Where, where are you going?
R:� Find Greenlee.� Find her, tell her what I think of her, and tell her to stay the hell away from us.
G:� No! No, Ryan.� You can�t do that.
R:� Wait, wait, Gillian.� You can�t let Greenlee get away with this.� It�s because of her that we�ve lost all this time together.� If it wasn�t for her you may not have married Jake, and we wouldn�t be in this situation.
G:� Ryan, you can�t let Greenlee know that you�re on to her.� She�s not a gracious liar and she�ll just be mean enough to go and tell the Martin�s that we�re back together and if anyone finds out�
R:� I can�t stand to let her think she has the upper hand here.
G:� No, you let her think whatever she wants to think.� Just think of her face when she knows that we�re back together.
R:� Ohhhh, I could just ring her little neck. I so�
G:� Put your hands on me instead (she puts his hands on her neck)
They kiss and she pulls his shirt down and he starts to do the same to her robe.� Then they lie on the bed, again.
G:� When do I get to see you again?
R:� Soon.
G:� I wish you didn�t have to leave.
R:� If I don�t leave now I�d be�
G:� I know.
R:� tempted to stay all night, so
G:� We have to be discreet until I can tell Jake I want a divorce.
R:� I miss you already.
G:� I�ll be thinking of you every second.
R:� And I�ll be working on finding us a place together�a perfect place.� But tonight I�m a little exhausted.
G:� I know�then why don�t you just lie back down?
R:� If I do I might never get up.� Mmmm It won�t be long�Gillian.� When Jake comes home and you�re honest with him then it�s going to be better then ever.� Then we can love each other and then NOTHING, nothings going to stand in our way.
Kiss
R:� Sweet dreams princess.
Ryan leaves
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