| 1*18*04 written for oli |
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when did our relationship end?
i can't remember
when was the last time we talked?
so many unknown things
such a mysterious man
a mysterious man with a baby
that's a dangerous mix
were you faithful to me?
at the time i thought you were
but look at the way things ended
no fight
no warning
the calls just stopped
the replies stopped
you cut yourself off
what did i do?
what did i not do?
when you told me you were doing drugs again was i supposed to be happy?
maybe i should've
maybe i shouldn't have gotten mad
but wait!
i don't want to date a druggie!
"it's just weed!" you say
it's just enough to break us up
or was it something else
my pride keeps me from calling you
i want to know why
but i WILL NOT call you
all the times you said you loved me
the sound of you voice
our intimate moments together
does all that mean nothing?
do you ever think of me?
or do you already have another to occupy yourself with?
i met your family!
you met my mom
the only black guy she allowed to date
do you know how special that is?
or is it not?
i miss you
why you broke my heart i'll never know
the calls just stopped one day
all the things you told me,
"i love you," "i need you in my life"
were those all just lies to get me into bed?
is that all you really wanted?
i thought you were different
i thought you were for real
i was wrong
as i usually am when it comes to love
maybe i could get over all of this
if only i knew the reason. |
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