| 2*11*04 written for chris |
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how could i possibly feel like this again?
after all i've been through
how could my heart even feel anymore?
will you hurt me?
i love talking to you
your humor lightens my seriousness
maybe that's what i need in a guy
i've been smiling
laughing
my joy expressed to others
i've refused to let myself fall for you
move too fast
for the time i'm just living in the moment
enjoying our current relationship
in the little time we've known each other i've already learned so much
how to laugh again
how to be happy again
thank you for being you
i still refuse to look into the future with you
with my experience when i do, everything turns to shit
where will i go to college you ask
florida, new york anywhere but here
"you're leaving texas?" you ask
"then you won't be with me"
i know you are just joking
but i actually think about it
and if we were together a year from now
how wonderful that would be
but you don't know my life
how things work
once i have happiness it's taken from me
in one way or another
it'll probably happen with you too
even though i'd give anything to keep you
but when you're 16 and a minor, not a lot of things can be done
i've learned this the hard way
and no guy wants to wait a year for me
i don't blame them
that's not fair and it's unrealistic
i'm just glad i'm feeling again. |
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