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i hold you in my hand
small and fragile
bare and weak
i want to save you from these things
where did our love go?
why do you hide?
why are you constantly pushing me away?
the charade.
oh and what a lovely little charade it is
completely different then who you used to be
but you've forgotten
you can't hide from me
i've seen inside you
the person i fell in love with
now the person you desperately keep in the dark
so many friends
such a social butterfly
but do they know?
that it's all a lie
perhaps you like to be worshiped
for that's what they tend to do
see your exterior as different, unique, cool
then up on a pedestal you go
how lovely you must feel
yet you never can be happy
do you remember when you were happy with me?
peel that fake layer away and we'll have the real you
the true you.
the one you're ashamed to show
always had to be the strong one
tough.
you try and make me think i'm alone in my feelings
that you don't share the pain, the denial, the love
but i know what my heart knows
i've tried to replace you
but it never worked
made me more upset
yet i was NEVER willing to admit it until now
and knowing you like i do,
you never will admit it
but i know how you really feel
you never were able to find happiness again after me
had to turn to drugs
and me to cutting
temporary happiness
yet a whole lot better then constant pain
i finally know the reason now
the reason that everytime i was with someone else sexually i was never there
my mind went somewhere else
i felt numb
and dirty
and used
but with you,
it wasn't like that
we made love.
we knew each others bodies.
we were friends.
i wasn't just a piece of ass to you
you cared about me
and i cared about you
you loved me
and i loved you
i still do
knowing the reason though
finally clears up a lot of things for me
i was so in love with you
and even though you broke my heart
i don't regret being with you
i regret every other person i've been with
but you were the one for me
i don't know if you are anymore
and i'm not gonna wait around for you to notice me
one day you'll realize you could have been with me...
and then it'll be too late.
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