| The world would be a wonderful place if there was no such thing as pain If heartbreak was nonexistent If once you loved someone they were bound to you forever They could never leave It'd be easier that way But then it wouldn't be life Pain is weakness leaving the body Heartache helps you grow If that's the case I must be fucking ancient Why do we love those who don't love us back? Why even bother with a relationship if you know it's not going to work out? Do people just want to have fun? Do they not care if they find their soulmate or not? They're just living day by day, having fun with the one they're currently with I envy these people I'm 16 and looking for my soulmate I wish I could just not give a fuck like the rest of humankind out there Just have fun and be a kid But I can't I don't know why, but I can't I've tried Maybe I grew up too fast Once I've been with a person long enough to see that we won't "be together forever" or get married, I let them go I wish the love I feel or have felt for the rare few in my life was truly returned Some of it is but not the whole load. I'm in a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs and no one hears me Love me! Love me! Love me! But you don't My body aches from the pain I damn love But, I find another and fall agian just as hard Love is a murderous, coniving, little beast It sneaks up on you when you least suspect it It appears before you saying "It's okay. I won't hurt you this time." And then it's nice to you and you're happy But, one day it all changes Maybe love got up on the wrong side of the bed and said "Hey! Let's fuck with that girl's heart." My mind is buzzing I'm so confused I love you Or do I? Or maybe I'm in love with love That true love Soulmate love I yearn for that I wish I had it with you but reality.. I don't! I've searched for it like crazy but.. No such luck Maybe that kind of love is a myth Maybe some heartless bastard back in 6400 B.C. made it up To torture prosterity by making them search for something that truly is nonexistent To make them search until they die from exhaustion If that's the case I'll search until i die Even though I'm tempted to, I haven't given up yet. |
| 9*28*03 ~ written for all my ex-bois |
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